2020 has been a bad year for a lot of people

Just a bit, yeah.

Just a bit is an understatement.

I'd rather try to eat a hurricane than deal with the second half of 2020. If the first half was a preview for the second half... heck. Heck indeed.

Hope things start to look up for you soon

Yeah. I just need some time away from social media and the news. I want to stay informed, but I've been kind of letting everything that's been happening get to me and I just feel kind of frustrated and helpless.

You got nothing to apologize for. You're only human, Digimon, dragon hybrid. ;)
Even a powerful being such as yourself needs time off to recharge. We all love you and only wish you health and happiness. Just take it easy and do things at your own pace. We'll still and always be here and ready to give you our full support! <3

Yeah. There's just been so much, and the idea that some people have decided to politicize a virus and life-saving ideas like wearing a mask it just... it eats at me. It kills me to see people acting completely irrational to the idea of wearing masks and treating the virus like an actual threat. How the hell a virus got turned into a political debate just goes to show you how weird 2020 has gotten.

Ive stopped watching the news here myself because I got so sick of hearing all this crap. The violence, the virus, this tearing down of monuments, etc. We can only just wait and see what the future brings us. Im hoping something good will us this way. And you too hopefully. Just dont let it eat you all out.

I agree with the monuments being removed if they were erected for traitors/racists... because we need to be able to look our past dead in the eye and come to grips with it. I just wish governments had decided to do it on their own instead. It's important to recognize history, but important we don't ultimately glorify the negative aspects of it -- which, unfortunately, a lot of these statues reflect.

You don't learn history from statues, after all.

And let us not forget the purpose of those statues: Most of them were to tell the black population, "if we ever get our way, you are going back in chains."

Personally, I say that relevant memorials, (e.g. 'this general died at the battle here'), and anything from before, say, 1880 can stay. The rest of them get pulled down and either given to museums, (if they have artistic merit), or scrapped, (for the mass-produced majority).

I'm sorry that life has been a burden on you lately, Hopefully things will turn up and your cat will be healthy.

Thankfully the cat is doing good. She recovered from her surgery and is back to (mostly) tip top shape. She has another vet appointment later today to get her stitches removed, but other than that she's doing pretty good.

That is nice to hear <3 Soon she should recover, and she will live a long and happy life <3

I hope you feel better soon. I know that feeling well myself, albeit for slightly different reasons now. What's happening in the world is part of a process for change, which the world itself made unavoidable with its attitudes over the past years.

I've just been taking a sort of mini-vacation. Focusing on FA fixes, trying to get back into art (I really want to save up for an iPad to draw on), and getting my shit together. But also avoiding social media and news and politics for a bit. I still want to be informed, but I need to give myself some breathing room for a change.

Fair point. Had issues keeping a balance between staying informed and maintaining my sanity, that's a hell I can say I've seen. Mainly during the last 4 year's era of internet censorship proposals, which actually scared me far more than the 2020 Coronavirus and now protests... managing to watch those more detached by comparison, guess that acted as training heh. Things will clear up in the next months one way or another... especially once the elections are over much heat will cool off.

Yeah, it's incredibly frustrating. 2020 can go suck a duck.

we're not alone. i consider 2020 as the "year that never happened".
All that weight, was already there. Just focus on getting today done. We'll all see each other on the other side of this.

Yeah. That's why I'm trying to refocus myself a bit. I've been watching the trainwreck of a year go by and it's just been kind of eating at me.

have you lost any watchers?

alot of people on FA are having their counts dropped because of something possibly purging them

If a user's account was deleted then people may lose watchers, but that's only in the case when a deletion script is run.

its more than that. ive seen other users lose like up to 10 watchers at a time in one go

people suspect that bots might be purging other accounts. but that is what ive heard

I don't know how often the run the deletion script but if it has been a while there could be quite a few deactivated accounts waiting to be deleted.

A lot of the watch loss could be because of what people are saying/doing/how watchers feel differently about people all of a sudden.
I know I had to unwatch a few people :l

It's been a really weird year for everyone really. I had a feeling you needed some space and wanted to relax a bit, but I'm always happy to give you a big shockingly large growing hug if you ever need it, and of course a chat. You're a cool person, a wonderful friend, and you're a great guy! ^^

As for stepping away from stuff, I had to let a few friends know that the news was really effecting them in a negative way and effecting their line of thinking. Sometimes we all have to step back and focus on ourselves you know? And it's tough to do so with so much hanging over our heads, and with people acting irrationally. But I remember someone somewhere told me to look for the helpers. And I see that part and it removes all that negativity, it gives me hope. And that's what I also tell people to look for too, the good in the world, as it's there!

Yeah. It's just been kind of... overwhelming, I guess. Day after day.

It'll be okay bud, and you're right we gotta take it day by day. If you need a hug I'm happy to give you one.

Yea, this year has been outright horrendous for everyone, I dunno anyone off-hand who hasn't had atleast one terrible thing happen to them, dude... but, hang in there, maybe someday, things'll get better. =/

I just kind of want to sleep and pass out, wake up in 2021, and hope all of this has blown over.

I'm already there, as I work in lawn service, since people have been at home, they've been unloading their chores on me like crazy, seems like every time I come back home, after I get my shower, within the hour, i'm asleep at my desk. Spent many a night right there in this chair heh.. yea, I can completely understand what you mean, this madness has gone on for what seems like years now, and it's only been a few months.. like, what else could go wrong that hasn't already? I hope nothing worse than what we've seen so far. x_x

Here's hoping things start looking up for you bud. *hugs*

Likewise, my friend. Likewise.

:) Thanks bud.

Last year 2019 was pretty rough for many of us as well. And 2020 doesn't really help us neither. Let's just hope everything will go better for everyone then. *Hugs.*

2019 was a pretty shit year, but I never expected it to get progressively WORSE. At least not to this scale.

Indeed. I was hoping it will be better in 2020 but... Nope. Not this time. --'
In any case, once everything will calm down, we'll be able to recover and then, move on better things. =)

I think the answer is 42? o3o

Basically. It's just how does one USE a 42.

anally

It's not very pleasant.

It's been a wretched year so far for many, and we're only halfway through it. I really don't want anymore of the same if it can helped. Hope things get better for you.

Likewise. Stay safe, stay health, stay alive.

Thanks man, you as well.

Aww there's nothing to apologize For! Everyone's been real stressed lately so this is completely understandable! Just do what you can and take breaks if you need! We'll still be around!

Yeah. I just need to kind of detox a bit and clear my mind.

I was wondering why your Twitter went protected all of a sudden. I do hope your kitty is doing well. Last I had read, it came out of the surgery well. As for life getting you down, I hear ya. For the past couple of months, it seems all I ever want to do is just sleep. I'm mentally exhausted all the time. In time things will get better, but as you are well aware, things here in the USA have to break before they are fixed. We never seem to be proactive about much in this country.

Yeah, I put my Twitter to protected so I could take a break for a bit -- prevent myself from getting burned out. I keep seeing so much negative and mentally draining stuff pop up on my feed that it's just dragging down my mood. I need a mini-vacation from things for a bit.

I can honestly relate. Just all the crap happened at once and it takes a huge mental toll on you. Sure, you try and stay positive in the beginning, but then another thing happens... And then another thing... and then another and it just keeps going and going, like the Energizer Bunny with fresh batteries. <.=.>

Yeah, and I've been GLUED to the news and reports on what's been happening, but nothing seems to be getting better, and the powers that be seem to have taken a "So what if people die?" mentality and it's just... whoo. Heck. It's a lot to take in and I worry about my parents getting sick, what happens to them... and I'm not ready to face that.

but this is just the beginning.....

Unfortunately. The US has turned the virus into a freakin' political circus with people screaming unintelligible screeching over wearing a damn mask, and it's gone past the point of being "Haha, look at them!" to "You're going to get people killed and you're not going to have a care in the world about it."

yep

2020 is for sure a year full of problems we wish to forget. I do hate to see all those news, and I hate even more the huge amount of stupidity coming from citizens thinking they can have better privileges or or just simply refuse to accept a no or been wrong, and then there's the ones who abuse their power because, again, thinking they have better privileges.

In other words and I'm sorry for my language here: This year....is nothing but a load of bullshit.


Don't even get me started on the COVID-19!

2020 is the explosion of things bottled up over the previous years, a rather predictable outcome looking back now. Trash was slowly hidden under the carpet... this year the carpet finally exploded.

Yeah, it's all just been building up -- police violence, racism, angry, political upheaval, and to top it off with a president who openly supports racism and white supremacy. THEN you add the pandemic on top of it, and a government who literally can not care if people live or die, and it's just a cluster of bullshit.

You nailed it on this thought. It was inevatable.. Just remember change at this scale is seldom calm and eventually it resolves..

Worst yet is when instead of telling to the public about how imprepared they are, they are either finding excuses or putting the blame on someone else.


It just make me wanna say JUST TELL THE TRUTH ALREADY DAMMIT!!!

Sorry to hear dude! Stay strong and if ya ever wanna chat my notes are open and I'm also following you on twitter so feel free to contact me there too! In these troubled times we need to be there to help one another so be strong and kick 2020 in the ass by making it through to 2021 xx

2020 is definitely the most HELLISH year ever! Everything was alright from the start until shit hit the fan in March, and gets much worse afterward. With what's happening in our world this year I try to keep cool, think positive, and stay sane. I try not to lose it, not let it all get me down, and drive me mad. Of course, that's why I stopped using Twitter for quite a while. I mean, even my mom and nana told me to stay away from stuff like this because it'll drive me all paranoid and such.

Because I've been staying off of Twitter for a while, I've been pretty calm lately. Still hanging with my family and texting with my coworking friends. Hopefully, things will work out in the end and things will go back to normal. EVERYBODY is going through this...so am I.

P.S. - You don't have to apologize. We understand what you're going through because even we are all going through the same shit we all are dealing with. You'll be alright, Dragoneer. We're all with you.

Man, 2020 is one big hellhole for us. Let's hope things change for the better, and I hope things go ok for you soon

Hope you feel better soon :c

I hope your cat has a swift recovery. 2020 has been a wild ride.
I did notice a big chunk of watchers suddenly un-watch me, I'm assuming that was from some sort of bot/inactive account cleanup, or something.

It's been kinda crazy myself as I'm still doing the same job a few mornings a week being with my grandma so my aunt can take care of her little kiddies while their parents are at work. Pretty much like you mentioned with all the things going on from corona - blm and the new stuff on social media...yeah,That's hard + family stuff going on and adapting to new ways of going to the store. Even younger cousins wedding July 13th in Jackson,TN that family and I went to even though we had to cut back some attendees because of covid so it was just family and the wedding party.

I know the feeling about having to walk away from Twitter & Facebook, I had to take a hiatus from social media earlier this month due to nearly having a mental breakdown seeing all the news & stuff. 2020 sucks.

We need a better writer for this show. I mean, the first half of the season was amazing, but when they changed writers for 2016 on, the production and writing took a severe nosedive. Hopefully this writer is replaced for the next season that starts in 2021, the show may get cancelled at this rate.

Its important to take care, Neer, I don't fault ya none for that. Best wishes to you, and here's to the ending half of this very no good unpleasant year.

If you need anyone to talk to, I'm here for you, Dragoneer.

I think it's taken it's toll in a lot of places and to a lot of people. T.T Hopefully, you'll feel better soon and things in the world will hopefully go back to normal. (Or what used to be at least semi-nomal. XD)

I've been avoiding the news and it helps a lot. Nothing good happens anymore. Now comes the second wave. Hold on!

I'm silent a lot myself, but truth be told, I still think about you from time to time. You've always been really nice to me, and I understand your pain. All those exact things caused me to flat out crash in overwhelming anxiety for the same reasons. I often think I'm not doing enough socially, but even just those small moments you've given me left an impact. Even if I don't reach out that much, I wanted to let you know I remember and those memories meant something to me. You take as much time as you need, everyone and everything will still be here. <3

It's ok to take some time for yourself away from all the stress.

Much love, man! Stay safe. I hope things smoothe out for you.

Aww man I'm sorry to hear it's been such a terrible time, everyone had a really rough 2020 so far. :( But I can't complain really, as if corona wasn't enough, all the protests in the US just raised anxiety levels beyond sky high. You guys there are having it so much worse than us in Europe atm. For me just seeing on Twitter all the videos of police being posted is enough to make my blood boil. x_x
Anyways, I hope your cat gets better and you are able to relax a bit. Take it one step at a time and try not to get too worked up over current events. That's the best I can suggest. ^^;

Sorry to hear you've been dealing with so much negativity, be it from news, social media or the damn world itself.
I hope your cat recovers well from their surgery and also that things get better for you Dragoneer! You're an amazing guy, keep staying strong. I know anxiety is rough but I believe in ya.

Look forward to the QOL stuff being made for FA, when it comes out also. :3

Sorry about your cat, 'Neer. I totally understand where you're coming from there. Same with 2020. I had a recent bout of cellulitis that ended up putting me in the hospital and I was panicked beyond belief. It was pretty much my worst nightmare as this is a chronic issue I've spent years in the hospital with before. While I haven't had a case of it since 2011 it's something I always have to worry about. When I went in all I could think of was contracting Covid and dying alone. My blood pressure shot up to 195/90 at one point. It was so bad the nurse on duty gave me a startled look and asked if I was OK.

Needless to say I was a mess. Things have sort of improved but I've gained weight due to being more inactive because of my legs being screwed up and due to all the stress from everything. We're dealing with a massive, fundamental shift in society and there's no telling when the pandemic will end or where we'll end up.

The best we can do is do our best to look out for one another rather than looking out for only ourselves. It's the only way we'll get through all this and come out in a better place.

Yea, 2020 really been a crappy year so far, with Red Rock Canyon permanently damaged, and pandemic and stuff at home. Red rock Canyon took 240 million years to carve, because of that, I lost all respect for that far-left side group for doing that and trying to rewrite history. I learn that people are idiots and nothing won't stop them from being idiots including the pandemic going around.

Honestly you should just quit social media for good. Shit's toxic af and only getting worse

Man it sounds like you’ve been through the wringer, I’m so sorry and I hope things look up for you soon, really wish I could do more than offer you a pair of ears to listen

Keep your chin up, we support you and you got this 💜

You still play ESO neer? :) Or just been to busy

My mantra: We're going to have the BEST Thanksgiving EVER! I started saying this in February when the horrors began.

No matter what I still look up to you sir.

I feel ya. I don't watch the news myself anymore since all I hear is chaos, crime, killing, ect. Like seriously, 2020 has been nothing but chaos, destruction and stupidity. I hope this pandemic ends after the voting is over. And, we all need our times off to burn off some steam and relax.