Over the past few years I've really reflected on my life, my actions, my desires, and my sexuality. I'm very much NOT straight. Super bisexual or pan or whatever.

I've always erred on the side of femininity, the same tests i take show my lean as well. Looking back at my life I've always had a propensity for nail polish, softer toys/clothing/etc. I really preferred house, fashion, and dolls over traditional masculine things. I did still enjoy leading, being a boyscout, doing fires and camping but I always secretly wanted to be with the girls.

I'm questioning my own gender and I may in fact be trans but I don't know that I can ever come out to my family or friends. Society scares the fuck out of me with violence, rising bigotry, and hatred.

I'm trying to start towards being more of a femboy maybe? Is that the gateway? Do i feel safer there because I've seen it? Fuck this anxiety...

Apparently Cis people rarely question or hang on this question for as long as I have. So... i mean maybe something there.

Anywho, work's great! I may be commissioning a more feminine foxy to be more me. I just hope i don't lost my partner over my brain's nonsense! Also... i want this anxiety to stop.


Thanks for coming to a fox rant! <3