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Finally posting again! Also life, fiance, politics
5 years ago
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41314 Faves (+5459)Finally going to post again, have about 150 things to post and no idea what order they'll go up in, what follows will be some thoughts and feelings about my life, my future, my engagement, and the state of the world. The short version is the US is a mess and I need it to keep its shit together if I want the future I've been working on for 3 years.
I took a bit of a hiatus when the US started protesting for basic human rights for ALL of its citizens, meanwhile people were dying en masse of a pandemic, and here we are two months later and it's still happening. I felt it would be selfish posting porn while injustice was so brazenly on display. All that's happened in that time, as I tried to use my twitter to shine a light where I thought it might help, is a fascist authoritarian government headed by an insane TV star cult leader worked harder than ever to kill americans in ignorance and misinformation. And to top it off, racism reached a shocking new level of public acceptance. American white people are the ultimate Judas, as their naked self interest has swung from support all the way back to opposition to Black Lives Matter, and I wish I could say I was surprised. I say this while I'm working on immigration procedures to move to the US and be with my fiance. Every day I feel more pressure and anxiety about moving to a country I despise to be with a person so many people in that country consider to be a problem.
The only reason I'm going back to posting is I don't want another year long backlog. On twitter I'll get back to posting porn content and I'll running that alongside political and social awareness content.
My fiance is black, and he's the most resilient and strong person I know, but I know he feels this deeply and wants nothing more than a future we can believe will be better for us. He was an elector for Obama and actually met Hillary Clinton at the DNC in 2008, and it's a cruel fate that so much of our relationship has been subsumed by this dark time as nationalism and fascism rise and consume what should have been a stronger bulwark of a country. I wish I could have known him at a time when he was so full of optimism and passion to campaign for Obama, and if the US can make it out of this period it is my hope that I'll get to see him be that passionate again someday. Obama was far from perfect but the symbolic victories are sometimes all we get in life.
If his elderly sick family, businesses, and substantial plans for our future weren't there, I'd be making every effort to bring him here where healthcare is free, guns are practically nonexistent, and our own horrible streak of national racism is very different and distinct from the US. Not to suggest Canada is perfect, my heart breaks for our own shameful history and the long tradition of destroying the lives of indigenous people, especially women. But I'd choose this over the US any time. Life is better here by any measure I can think of and if my fiance didn't have so many roots we'd be working on immigration in the opposite direction. And it would have been completed by now, because it's faster, cheaper, and simpler to come here, with far less caveats and far fewer horrors to expect when you land.
I've sacrificed so much of myself, my interests, my progress in life, my money, my time, my friendships, my physical health, my mental health, everything I could possibly give to make it possible to be with my fiance. It takes everything I have and more to make this dream happen and all I can do is hope that our plans will pan out, and we won't be swept up in the nightmare that is desperately trying to consume the US right now. All we want is a little tiny space for ourselves to go out and see the world, to live in peace quietly and safely, to make plans we haven't even dreamed of yet. And we just need this shitshow to hold itself together long enough to make it happen.
America, my hopes and dreams are with you. I continue to hope for your future.
I hate it here
Not to sound lazy but im not willing to work 70-80 hour weeks like some of my coworkers do. Its just not worth it
I hope you both stay safe and stay strong, as I think it is going to a long time before we see the end of this.
All my hopes for you to be together again soon.
None the less, my wishes still apply.
This whole situation really depresses us. It's clear as day that police needs to be reconsidered given the amount of life lost. Just like the (lack) of a pandemic response in the united states is the reality tv's stars fault. But then these brainwashed idiots, or racists, or both. I don't even know anymore. But they come along and argue all day and night trying to move the goal post all the damn time. Same individuals then claim masks are a violation of freedom. Which then you point out that it isn't, since freedom's have some limit. And it's implied that when you violate another person's freedom, that's where your range of freedom's end. And then claim that oh your just spewing out what you were told to say. As if I was brainwashed. When most of them are the ones brainwashed.
Then when you explain why their source is wrong. They go into pure moron mode, and then start claiming that the media is biased, as they then link to a 4chan post...
I seriously wish I was kidding, but I've seen it.
I bet we (united states) look like an absolute laughing stock. I just wish the damn racism and anti science bullshit would finally come to a close.
depressing as it sounds, I don't think any change will happen, maybe some, but not really enough, unless something more severe than protests occur. Which would honestly suck that it would come to that option. But there isn't much of another choice given.
oh and fuck nationalism too.
Anyways if you do come over here, I seriously wish you to be safe. NGL not nearly as interested in Exey (the female version), but your still a person, and no person deserves to deal with that bullshit. Police brutality should not be happening period. (and well, the other bs)