What happened?

What's going on?

What's this emo crap?

.... * sigh *

what?

I really hope she is going to do what I think that she is going to do

please, do tell me what you mean? like, do you mean shes just getting off of fa?

Sounds like she is planning on committiing suicide

you mean you want her to? or don't want her to? cause what you had written was confusing sorry.
also, i agree it does sound like that, it's aweful sad, alot of potential will go down the drain

I don't want anyone to kill themselves, I just made a typo there

oh alrighty, i never thought you did, i'm glad it was just a typo..
do you think theres anything we could do?

I dunno, where she is located, what her IRL name is. If I knew that, I could possibly alert the proper authorities

, ah, me either. i feel rather bad. you're a doll for thinking about her though, i personally dunno her either, or much at all, i never saw any of this coming

Somehow, I really don't think that anyone saw this coming

She. Is really a HE.

Also. He has had many disappointing things happen in the past few weeks and such.

As for killing himself. I do not believe he would do that. One never knows though. But he gets very upset. Then realizes stuff after that.

He is also from SA

i'm sorry, i knew that from the pictures, i was just kinda baffled and sad while talking to ainoko i do apologize
i hope theres something you can do to help him in his state at this time.

No, No. No need to apologize.

Sorry if I gave that impression.

Glad to see you took interest really.

If I had to guess. Which is only a guess. But I say he meant he was dead inside his heart right now.

perhaps. And i'm glad to see you interested in this aswell, i really hope he comes on with an explaination at some point.
and i hope he understands the worry he's putting us through X d i mean, i dun even know him. and i'm slightly worried, just imagine what his friends on here are going through O.O i could only imagine.. it's sad

hes a guy not a girl

aware, thats not why i asked you to read it X D.. jeeze X D read the journal? i'm just worried and wanted to know if you knew anything about it

She. Is really a HE.

Also. He has had many disappointing things happen in the past few weeks and such.

As for killing himself. I do not believe he would do that. One never knows though. But he gets very upset. Then realizes stuff after that.

He is also from SA

San Antonio, TX?

If so, that is my hometown

No. I am sorry. I should have posted that different.

South Africa

ok, my mistake

Look dont call the authorities no matter who says they wanna do that. And no he will never do anything that stupid. Suicide isnt a factor to him even though he might feel that when greatly hurt - no-one cannot think that.

He is doing well and isnt leaving FA.

I can't call South Africa anyways as I can't afford such a call for one, if you read the way that this journal was written you would have come to the same conclusion as I did

Nooooo.

I called over there before. It is beyond nuts!!!!!!!!!!!

I emailed one of his school mates to check on him.

He said he would call him in the morning but as far as he knew he was doing ok. But after reading his journal he told me that was kinda intense for him.

Yeah. Weeeee bit.

I will let you know what I find out.

ok

Sorry to take so long.

But he is alive and well. Upset but doing ok.

better than the other alternative

agreed<3 i read the bit here and it seems alright, he also posted something below, either way, i think from now on i'm going to stay out of these kinds of things X D
thanks by the way, you're a doll for seeing into this

Usually when I see a journal like this, it makes me think that the person is going to try and kill themselves.

yeah me too

but I am glad that it wasn't what I thought it was

oh, agreed completely, i was reather frusterated and a little upset at first, but now it's alrighty<3 anyways, thanks again, msg me anytime you might want to, take care.

will do

I am sorry.

I thought you knew he was ok.

Do not know why seeing how I did not tell you I got a hold of him.

I thought the two of you was chat buddies I guess and they would tell you :P

no, don't you worry <3 i barely know anyone here at all, sorry for the confusion, and thank you so much for getting back to me anyways it's aweful sweet of you : }
i was just a little worried, thanks so much again and please don't worry X D<3

...

*Bows and waves* May the winds blow you fair tide, for whatever has happened.

Huh? Whats going on? are you ok?

*hugs* hun contact me please. thankx kitty

Lol I almost want to puke.

I'm not one for rude reactions but this response just screams irony. In telling everyone goodbye, do you want some sort of childish satisfaction that everyone is concerned about you or takes intrest? I bet its only a real select few that would care if you were gone. If you want to get over this depression you have to get up and look it in the eyes.

I fight with depression periods a lot. Its been a common disorder in my family for generations. Being depressed all the time and bleak. Things arn't over unless you want them to be. Things shouldn't just halt abruptly. iIt when things forced to end and you didn't want them too that the ugly things start to fester:

For some its hate, for others its anti-social behavior, and for others its emo crap, and all sorts of other coping mechanisms.

I'm pretty sure I understand some of whats flying this way.Don't pretend to be a fool and think that people wont say a single bad thing. I know for sure you only have a depressive outlook at the moment because its the best answer to hurt. Its not actaully. The best answer to hurt is love.

Now go solve your dam problems with some smiles and stuff so you can leave with a humbled heart and a chance to make the world a better place. If you dissapear into the wind, your footprints will blow away too.

First and more most thank so very much for responding to this extremely bleak, childish and somewhat emo journal of mine. I agree that wallowing in self-pity does not help one to overcome the mere thing that is making them depressed.

I am sorry to hear you have a family history that suffers from depressive disorders. *Hugs* However I do agree with you on some things and I do believe people experience depression in varying severities and cope with them in different ways.

I cope with it by talking to my friends and yes I am ashamed to have posed this journal up because I don’t believe in people feeling sorry for me. With that said many thanks to all those who commented on this really selfish and stupid journal and it will never happen again.

However I do not live in a dream world and I encourage people to disagree with me and I do expect people to contest what I say and say bad things for a journal of this nature sometimes needs a stern approach. *Bows head.*

I do not agree with you statement about footprints will blow away too for what we do in life echoes in eternity. I guess this journal irritated you to the core and I apologize for it and I thank you for you advice. I was a little taken back by it because it felt kind of heartless, but you have the right to speak your mind.

Nuzzles,

LeoRa

May the fur be with you… Always.

Don't worry about it but your right. I am heartless. I have always been. I'm like some freaky robot or something :P

Nah. I jsut got a bit pissed off becuase I replied to atleast 4 different posts like yours that day. I started to think that there was some kind of new flu going about.

And probably I wanted some shock value compared to all the "shame" and "get well" messages that bombard you to really try and reach you and pull you out.

BUT

Since I ahve nothing better to add, I jsut hope that things will get better for ya.

And yes...in the fur I trust :P

No its ok I understand and I apologize for my negativeness. I'm assuming you also commented on Nanukk's journal as well which kind of made things ironic. The shock value was much appreciated and its the slap I needed anyway. ^^

Take care dear.

Nuzzles,

LeoRa

May the fur be with you... Always.

I'm kinda just glad you're alright, and you do seem really down to earth, journaLS like this happen, people think irrationaly, it's human nature, don't worry too much about it. sometimes people feel like it's the right thing.
I know how it can be hard dealing with pressure and depression, just take care, and i hope you feel better soon

Aww thank you dear, sorry I've been such a jackass lately for not replying to you comments. *Lowers head.* It did feel like the right thing because it made me feel stupid and foolish and it also puts things into persepective.

Thank you for your support and concern. *Hugs* I think I've got a handle on it now. Take care.

Nuzzles,

LeoRa

May the fur be with you... Always.