I made a bad decision that might have done a really extreme amount of damage to my long term future. At the time it seemed like a good idea but because of bad timing and bad habits things went down hill real hard real fast.

If I am forced to suffer my mistake for the rest of my life or if I will be given an opportunity to redeem my self I have to hope on others that I am worth giving the chance to redeem my self.

I really don't want to go into details of what all happened but my bad habits are things you might see a lot of people do all the time. I just did them at the worst possible time and was caught doing them. I do admit that they are bad habits that should not be done but people do them thinking, "oh its not like any one is around to be harmed". In all reality if no one was around when I did them no one could have been harmed. But even saying that they are bad habits none the less that if one has them they really should brake them. Since it happened I have been trying hard to brake these bad habits. I have failed a few times but I am working on fixing them because if I am ever caught doing them one more time any hope of being given a chance to redeem my self will go out the window and I will have to pay for my mistake for the rest of my life as it will never go away no matter where I go or who I might of might not be around. Yes its that serious and why I really don't want to go into details because of shame and embarrassed of it all.