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Aneurysm, health, breakdown, and my particularly bad year
5 years ago
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Roughly 18 months ago, people started pointing out that I was shaking a lot. I hadn't noticed it at first, but then I started dropping things and couldn't get my keys in the front door easily.
About a year ago I had a CT scan which allegedly showed an aneurysm on my brain. This was a shock but I thought I was coping pretty well at the time, though I took a year out from my studies as a precaution. Fortunately, I managed to get an MRI scan which gave me the all clear. This was great news, naturally, but I did not feel quite right and the shaking continued.
After seeing a neurologist, I was diagnosed with the extremely common (and often harmless) essential tremor. Basically, a regular tremor. Uncommon in a (at the time) 26-year-old but pretty harmless.
Again, more good news, but something was not quite right. I felt numb and gradually became very depressed, and by December this had developed into the most severe episode of depression I have ever experienced.
I won't go into details but it is partially why I sort of dropped off the radar for a while. Currently, I'm taking new medication which has helped a lot. I'm now back at university and doing pretty well, though I still don't feel 100%.
For most people 2020 has not been great, and I won't pretend that I've had the worst of anyone, but I wanted to get some of what has happened off my chest.
Lots of love to everyone on here who is nice to me and kind enough to read my work. I hope 2021 is a better year for everyone xx
About a year ago I had a CT scan which allegedly showed an aneurysm on my brain. This was a shock but I thought I was coping pretty well at the time, though I took a year out from my studies as a precaution. Fortunately, I managed to get an MRI scan which gave me the all clear. This was great news, naturally, but I did not feel quite right and the shaking continued.
After seeing a neurologist, I was diagnosed with the extremely common (and often harmless) essential tremor. Basically, a regular tremor. Uncommon in a (at the time) 26-year-old but pretty harmless.
Again, more good news, but something was not quite right. I felt numb and gradually became very depressed, and by December this had developed into the most severe episode of depression I have ever experienced.
I won't go into details but it is partially why I sort of dropped off the radar for a while. Currently, I'm taking new medication which has helped a lot. I'm now back at university and doing pretty well, though I still don't feel 100%.
For most people 2020 has not been great, and I won't pretend that I've had the worst of anyone, but I wanted to get some of what has happened off my chest.
Lots of love to everyone on here who is nice to me and kind enough to read my work. I hope 2021 is a better year for everyone xx
I certainly wouldn't have suspected anything like that from our interactions. Here's hoping the everything is stable and diagnosed as it should be, and that you'll have the strength to live life to its fullest. :)
Here's hoping for a better year.
Life is hard. (Shocker, right?)
But the fact that you've been able to carry on despite all the obstacles and adversities is already very commendable... even admirable, if I may! Thanks for sharing this tidbit of your year so far. Remember that we're all in this together. If you need anything you can always reach out! Let's keep that hope alive and keep on going!
For what it's worth, I really hope 2021 is an improvement from these times as well!