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5 years ago
Heyo!
I've been saving up money for a new computer, working, doing adult stuff, as you do. Though, falling into this routine each day has given me a lot of time to think about random things. Namely, my retreating youth, and how my perspective on life has slowly shifted. What I mean to ask you revolves around that.
For as long as I can remember, I've always played video games. I can always look back on those times with that childhood wonderment, where everything was magical and new, interesting. I could play them for hours and hours, all day even! If given the opportunity. I never got tired of them, smiling and having a good time.
When compared to how I see games now, It's almost a harrowing thought for me. I play them much less often, I derive less fun from them, and I can't stand to marathon them. I feel like I'm slowly turning into a husk, as they were one of the view things I could rely on for a good time. They made for a fantastic escape from day to day life.
When I look at my steam library now, I almost view it as a time capsule of the kid that I used to be, and how I'll never get those times back. I would get so excited to play them, which is an intangible feeling to me now, It's been so long since I was excited like that.
In the abstract, I must look like an idiot when I come home and stare at my computer, unsure of what I actually want to do. Just looking at my game library, or pacing around my house without a real purpose. Nothing's going on inside my head whenever I do these things, my conscience just seems to escape into limbo for a while.
My question to you guys is if any of what I've described sounds relatable, and if so, do you have a way with coping with feelings like this?
I really don't want to become a moping, boring adult that just comes home, turns their brain off, and watches tv for 3 hours before passing out. That sounds like a horrible existence, I'd like to avoid that at all costs :v
Thank you sincerely for taking the time to read this, I hope you have a good rest of your day <3
- Nerif
I've been saving up money for a new computer, working, doing adult stuff, as you do. Though, falling into this routine each day has given me a lot of time to think about random things. Namely, my retreating youth, and how my perspective on life has slowly shifted. What I mean to ask you revolves around that.
For as long as I can remember, I've always played video games. I can always look back on those times with that childhood wonderment, where everything was magical and new, interesting. I could play them for hours and hours, all day even! If given the opportunity. I never got tired of them, smiling and having a good time.
When compared to how I see games now, It's almost a harrowing thought for me. I play them much less often, I derive less fun from them, and I can't stand to marathon them. I feel like I'm slowly turning into a husk, as they were one of the view things I could rely on for a good time. They made for a fantastic escape from day to day life.
When I look at my steam library now, I almost view it as a time capsule of the kid that I used to be, and how I'll never get those times back. I would get so excited to play them, which is an intangible feeling to me now, It's been so long since I was excited like that.
In the abstract, I must look like an idiot when I come home and stare at my computer, unsure of what I actually want to do. Just looking at my game library, or pacing around my house without a real purpose. Nothing's going on inside my head whenever I do these things, my conscience just seems to escape into limbo for a while.
My question to you guys is if any of what I've described sounds relatable, and if so, do you have a way with coping with feelings like this?
I really don't want to become a moping, boring adult that just comes home, turns their brain off, and watches tv for 3 hours before passing out. That sounds like a horrible existence, I'd like to avoid that at all costs :v
Thank you sincerely for taking the time to read this, I hope you have a good rest of your day <3
- Nerif
There is always something you can find to have fun -that doesn't involve hurting anyone or damaging yourself.
Thank you for the hopeful words <w> And sorry for only just now replying. You have a good day!
I've actually been there myself. Being a nut for games as a kid, yet not as much now. Even though I still try, there are days I can enjoy myself, and days not so much. Though now, I also entertain myself by letting my imagination go wild and retreating to my fantasies. Perhaps you could try that? Craft some lore and stories?
Everyone I've talked to about this has said that a creative outlet is very important. I'll have to find something to fill that spot for me
Thank you for the hopeful words <w> And sorry for only just now replying. You have a good day!
Also unrelated but it’s good to see you again! Was getting a bit worried
Creative outlets are really important ye, I gotta start doing some looking on that front =w= Nice to hear that I was worth missing, huehue
Thank you for the hopeful words <w> And sorry for only just now replying. You have a good day!
I think I'll set aside some time, and see how I'd go about getting each emulator working and configured. Would be really cool to replay classic games from even before my time. Thanks for the suggestion :3 You've helped me feel much better.
Hope you have a good day!