Hello hello everybody I know a lot of you might not read the journal I only know probably a few you may actually check it out but I know I'm not a popular furry.

I don't get sexy artwork every month I kind of slow down getting sexy artwork because it just felt like it was hard to just do it because I know I shouldn't just get artwork because I want people to like it I do believe art should be shared and if I make something or get something commission I definitely want to share it with people.

most of the artwork I get is with other people it's kind of hard for me to get artwork by myself I mean I know who I am but it just feels like I don't know my identity when it comes to getting artwork.

I love the furry fandom I really do I felt like it helped me find some identity that I could kind of cling on to as I went through my twenties.

But I'm nearing the end of my twenties and I'm just kind of trying to see if the furry identity really describes me I barely talk to anyone on this website and I barely get artwork anymore it's just I've been burned by a lot of people some people who let me into their world but they just kind of couldn't deal with me and kick me out which did not help with my abandonment issues.


Just anybody here find that they are struggling to stay in the fandom I'd like to think I'm a real nice person but you know a lot of people have just let me down because they just threw me away most times about even letting me know that they wish no longer to be friends and I guess that also hurt the most.