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My identity?
5 years ago
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So it says in my thing that I'm F (cis). I am. I'm born female and I'm cis. However, I identify nonbinary; "gray girl". I don't always feel like I'm a girl. I agree with my sex (female) and present femme when I'm feeling like being a girl, but irl, I'm more often than not androgynous. My pronouns are she/they. I'm comfortable with them being interchangable at any time. So if you're used to me as one, that's fine. If you're more comfortable thinking of me as another, that's fine too.
"Catt" is often presented as femme because she is a safe space for that. Masc Catt is more androgynous because they (and not he) are my identity for my androgynous persona (but they do have a male sex). Despite being presented masc, they are not an indicator that I am anywhere near being trans. I feel like because I'm comfortable; prefer my sex, I can't be trans.
For the first 16 years of my life or so I thought I wished I was a boy, but in hindsight, I just wanted to be seen as an equal. I was always intrigued by looking androgynous at times, and felt like that represented how I saw myself. Other times, I liked looking femme... until it was time to leave the house. I would sometimes try to go to school or to outings as femme, but I often felt suffocated or weird. Out of place. Sometimes it was because of the negative attention presenting femme can bring, and sometimes it was because I wasn't in a femme frame of mind.
Now I can't really afford femme looks, femme isn't cheap, lol. And I'm ok with this. Catt is femme. Masc Catt is androgynous. They're both safespaces for both identities. Granted, I identify with Femme Catt more, yes, because of who I am, but I do have fun designing femme clothing. Plus, she's shipped with cishet male Flickie. Cishet femme Flickie isn't an identity for Flickie. He has no real use for her other than a counterpart for Masc Catt. He likes her, and is happy to have a femme OC, but doesn't really need her like I need my masc OC.
This is confusing isn't it...
"Catt" is often presented as femme because she is a safe space for that. Masc Catt is more androgynous because they (and not he) are my identity for my androgynous persona (but they do have a male sex). Despite being presented masc, they are not an indicator that I am anywhere near being trans. I feel like because I'm comfortable; prefer my sex, I can't be trans.
For the first 16 years of my life or so I thought I wished I was a boy, but in hindsight, I just wanted to be seen as an equal. I was always intrigued by looking androgynous at times, and felt like that represented how I saw myself. Other times, I liked looking femme... until it was time to leave the house. I would sometimes try to go to school or to outings as femme, but I often felt suffocated or weird. Out of place. Sometimes it was because of the negative attention presenting femme can bring, and sometimes it was because I wasn't in a femme frame of mind.
Now I can't really afford femme looks, femme isn't cheap, lol. And I'm ok with this. Catt is femme. Masc Catt is androgynous. They're both safespaces for both identities. Granted, I identify with Femme Catt more, yes, because of who I am, but I do have fun designing femme clothing. Plus, she's shipped with cishet male Flickie. Cishet femme Flickie isn't an identity for Flickie. He has no real use for her other than a counterpart for Masc Catt. He likes her, and is happy to have a femme OC, but doesn't really need her like I need my masc OC.
This is confusing isn't it...
To me, it sounds like you have a good notional grasp of yourself and you're using art for a healthy purpose.
On a comical note, people online before getting to know me often think I'm a man.
But I see how you look at it. That does make sense.