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Health Update (I'm not dead, just a wreck)
5 years ago
Tl;dr: My health is a literal wreck, I haven't drawn in a month due to the pain, "gap year" will double.
I've been a bit of a complete wreck in the health department, mainly due to two distinct issues, and I think I owe a bit of a more in-depth explanation as to why I've kinda disappeared.
So much for getting back to art before the end of the year :')
Around a month ago, my right temporomandibular joint started making noises more than usual, as well as hurting. I have to thank what an idiotic dentist did years ago for it :)
I usually had it fixed with a simple visit to a specialist and did so many times before this, but due to covid lockdowns and measures, I had to wait too long to get checked. The pain got so much worse by the time I could be visited, to the point that even painkillers did nothing to stop the pain.
As far as I now know after two weeks of visits, the joint is slightly worn out (and might have microfractures too) and nothing can be done but wait for it to recover, since it's too much of a delicate point to do anything more than what's been done already. Even eating and talking is painful at times, but I can only hope it'll pass soon.
During one of those visits, it came out that I actually had endometriosis years ago (it was an evident case, but endo as a whole wasn't taken seriously until very recently) and that the damages left by it are ultimately what has been causing most of my shoulder/neck issues.
To oversimplify the issue, various organs are apparently stuck together in weird positions, "pulling" at each other in ways that screw up my whole right side of the body through tension and inflammatory responses.
No idea yet about what can be done to fix it, as time is needed to get the complete picture.
Of course the timing with both of these things is terrible, as the combo of covid and festivities doesn't exactly make it easy to do further medical tests or anything useful.
It has also been greatly affecting my mental health, along with serious IRL personal issues and all that's going on in the world right now, so admittedly I have been avoiding contact with most people.
I truly appreciate those that reached out, but I'm not the most sociable person right now and won't be for a while longer, please bear with me.
Speaking of art, I would love to draw, but the mind-numbing pain in the side of my face/head also spreads down to my shoulder, making drawing (or doing anything that requires muscular strength) impossible.
I'm angry about this because I had finally started personal projects that I was really looking forward to, but I haven't even turned on my tablet in a whole month. I've been working on side projects, yes, but I truly itch to draw again T_T
In light of these things and the fact that I overall had no way to use this "gap year" in the way I intended to, I'm likely going to turn it into a "2-years long sabbatic" from regular monthly commissions.
It wasn't an easy choice and it comes with many drawbacks, but I can't do otherwise. Sporadic commissions will still happen, but at this point I don't even know when I'll be able to draw regularly again.
Sorry for the downer journal, I hope you're all having a better time than me right now, despite covid and everything else.
Please be safe and don't put yourself and others in danger these festivities.
(and if you're a person who menstruates and does so painfully, please go get checked for endometriosis)
I've been a bit of a complete wreck in the health department, mainly due to two distinct issues, and I think I owe a bit of a more in-depth explanation as to why I've kinda disappeared.
So much for getting back to art before the end of the year :')
Around a month ago, my right temporomandibular joint started making noises more than usual, as well as hurting. I have to thank what an idiotic dentist did years ago for it :)
I usually had it fixed with a simple visit to a specialist and did so many times before this, but due to covid lockdowns and measures, I had to wait too long to get checked. The pain got so much worse by the time I could be visited, to the point that even painkillers did nothing to stop the pain.
As far as I now know after two weeks of visits, the joint is slightly worn out (and might have microfractures too) and nothing can be done but wait for it to recover, since it's too much of a delicate point to do anything more than what's been done already. Even eating and talking is painful at times, but I can only hope it'll pass soon.
During one of those visits, it came out that I actually had endometriosis years ago (it was an evident case, but endo as a whole wasn't taken seriously until very recently) and that the damages left by it are ultimately what has been causing most of my shoulder/neck issues.
To oversimplify the issue, various organs are apparently stuck together in weird positions, "pulling" at each other in ways that screw up my whole right side of the body through tension and inflammatory responses.
No idea yet about what can be done to fix it, as time is needed to get the complete picture.
Of course the timing with both of these things is terrible, as the combo of covid and festivities doesn't exactly make it easy to do further medical tests or anything useful.
It has also been greatly affecting my mental health, along with serious IRL personal issues and all that's going on in the world right now, so admittedly I have been avoiding contact with most people.
I truly appreciate those that reached out, but I'm not the most sociable person right now and won't be for a while longer, please bear with me.
Speaking of art, I would love to draw, but the mind-numbing pain in the side of my face/head also spreads down to my shoulder, making drawing (or doing anything that requires muscular strength) impossible.
I'm angry about this because I had finally started personal projects that I was really looking forward to, but I haven't even turned on my tablet in a whole month. I've been working on side projects, yes, but I truly itch to draw again T_T
In light of these things and the fact that I overall had no way to use this "gap year" in the way I intended to, I'm likely going to turn it into a "2-years long sabbatic" from regular monthly commissions.
It wasn't an easy choice and it comes with many drawbacks, but I can't do otherwise. Sporadic commissions will still happen, but at this point I don't even know when I'll be able to draw regularly again.
Sorry for the downer journal, I hope you're all having a better time than me right now, despite covid and everything else.
Please be safe and don't put yourself and others in danger these festivities.
(and if you're a person who menstruates and does so painfully, please go get checked for endometriosis)
I'm sorry you're dealing with bad stuff too x-x I hope you can get something positive in your life soon .n.