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5 years ago
Ladies and gentlemen, take my advice...
Wow, this has been a weird month and some change... Not even sure where to start. Hell, this entire year has been the most unpleasant roller coaster imaginable, and I'm a G-force junkie!
Anyway, it had a surprisingly good start. Finally got to see The Protomen in concert and got exposed to another band (TWRP) the same night that has all kinds of awesome too. And went for the second night because it was that good. I'd also started a relationship with someone I thought was finally the one. Typical LDR it seemed, but she made me smile and well, there's more to that story as we go.
Then we have the three months of isolation. I was already behind in my FA messages (catching up to that point now, lol) and honestly didn't feel the need to do anything more than exist. It was a depressing existence, but I was trying to do my part to keep from getting sick or ruining the health of my roomies. That lady was still in my life and things seemed to be going well enough.
Went back to work and it was nice to have a mission again, something to do to keep my mind off of just how depressing it was being still alone physically. Had lots of frustration with people refusing to wear their masks properly and physically distance. Still frustrating, but only so much you can do. It was a few weeks after returning to working with people that things started to go... sideways with the lady. She became distant and any time I asked to find out what was wrong, she either deflected or outright vanished. I'm a patient guy and figured that she just had some things to deal with that she wasn't ready to talk to me about yet. It happens.
It was about two weeks before my birthday that things really went absolutely bat shit. I was messaged by someone asking about the woman I thought was the one I'd end up married to. The information provided was outright terrible and on the nose... and when I sent messages asking about it, all I got still was more silence. She and this other guy had been in a relationship from the time that she'd started going silent on me, and when he messaged me, it was because she was starting to do the same to him. I sent a final message to her, ending things and unlinked everything immediately. Never blocked though. I would have given her the chance to explain, but haven't heard a peep. It's probably for the best.
By this point, I'd become good friends with several in a community on SL... and this is where things take a big upswing. There were plenty to help me recover and one special one that... I'd started to feel a special connection with even before the breakup, but I had to deny in my heart because I was spoken for. That didn't stop her from being an incredible friend though, and the one who talked me through the maze that had formed in my mind.
It turned out that she'd been interested in me as well, but didn't act for a similar reason. She knew I was unavailable and even after didn't make any push to.
It was during my recovery that we finally admitted the feelings and started down our own crazy stretch of life over the last month... we became official the day before my birthday. It's an even longer LDR, but this one feels like a real chance of success. We were friends and trusted each other before starting down this road. Any question I've ever asked has been answered with honesty... almost brutal to a point, but I respect and prefer that. She stands in my heart now and hopefully will until the end of my days.
I'm still working on coming to grips with her being poly. At first, honestly, I didn't think I'd be able to accept it at all, but as we talked, I knew that I didn't want to remove her from the people in her life that make her happy just to satisfy my selfish desire. I can't be that heartless. It's still not been an easy transition and have had a couple days where my jealousy has overridden my good judgement, but we're working through it. Most of our time together is spent in SecondLife, where I'm even a DJ now and loving when I do my shows... especially when she's there with me. I feel complete with her in my life in a way I honestly never expected to feel.
So, who is this wonderful lady you ask?
Kyrellyan I love you more than I'll ever be able to say.
And that catches us up to about where we are now. I hope everyone is staying well in these times and I look forward to hopefully getting out of this funk that's been keeping my drawing hand far too idle.
Back to the message cleanup. You naughty guys and gals have been busy while I was distracted. :3
Anyway, it had a surprisingly good start. Finally got to see The Protomen in concert and got exposed to another band (TWRP) the same night that has all kinds of awesome too. And went for the second night because it was that good. I'd also started a relationship with someone I thought was finally the one. Typical LDR it seemed, but she made me smile and well, there's more to that story as we go.
Then we have the three months of isolation. I was already behind in my FA messages (catching up to that point now, lol) and honestly didn't feel the need to do anything more than exist. It was a depressing existence, but I was trying to do my part to keep from getting sick or ruining the health of my roomies. That lady was still in my life and things seemed to be going well enough.
Went back to work and it was nice to have a mission again, something to do to keep my mind off of just how depressing it was being still alone physically. Had lots of frustration with people refusing to wear their masks properly and physically distance. Still frustrating, but only so much you can do. It was a few weeks after returning to working with people that things started to go... sideways with the lady. She became distant and any time I asked to find out what was wrong, she either deflected or outright vanished. I'm a patient guy and figured that she just had some things to deal with that she wasn't ready to talk to me about yet. It happens.
It was about two weeks before my birthday that things really went absolutely bat shit. I was messaged by someone asking about the woman I thought was the one I'd end up married to. The information provided was outright terrible and on the nose... and when I sent messages asking about it, all I got still was more silence. She and this other guy had been in a relationship from the time that she'd started going silent on me, and when he messaged me, it was because she was starting to do the same to him. I sent a final message to her, ending things and unlinked everything immediately. Never blocked though. I would have given her the chance to explain, but haven't heard a peep. It's probably for the best.
By this point, I'd become good friends with several in a community on SL... and this is where things take a big upswing. There were plenty to help me recover and one special one that... I'd started to feel a special connection with even before the breakup, but I had to deny in my heart because I was spoken for. That didn't stop her from being an incredible friend though, and the one who talked me through the maze that had formed in my mind.
It turned out that she'd been interested in me as well, but didn't act for a similar reason. She knew I was unavailable and even after didn't make any push to.
It was during my recovery that we finally admitted the feelings and started down our own crazy stretch of life over the last month... we became official the day before my birthday. It's an even longer LDR, but this one feels like a real chance of success. We were friends and trusted each other before starting down this road. Any question I've ever asked has been answered with honesty... almost brutal to a point, but I respect and prefer that. She stands in my heart now and hopefully will until the end of my days.
I'm still working on coming to grips with her being poly. At first, honestly, I didn't think I'd be able to accept it at all, but as we talked, I knew that I didn't want to remove her from the people in her life that make her happy just to satisfy my selfish desire. I can't be that heartless. It's still not been an easy transition and have had a couple days where my jealousy has overridden my good judgement, but we're working through it. Most of our time together is spent in SecondLife, where I'm even a DJ now and loving when I do my shows... especially when she's there with me. I feel complete with her in my life in a way I honestly never expected to feel.
So, who is this wonderful lady you ask?
Kyrellyan I love you more than I'll ever be able to say.And that catches us up to about where we are now. I hope everyone is staying well in these times and I look forward to hopefully getting out of this funk that's been keeping my drawing hand far too idle.
Back to the message cleanup. You naughty guys and gals have been busy while I was distracted. :3
Just think, this is the abbreviated version. Too much for a dozen journals for the long one.