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5 years ago
General
Yep, that title rolls off of the tongue.
1. I’m left handed.
2.I like collecting old forms of media; CDs, Vinyls, Cassettes. I don’t have a vast collection, but I’m budding one. If I had more money, it’d be a lot bigger a lot sooner. It’s mostly Maynard related, but eventually I plan to extend outward to Ozzy, Breaking Benjamin and Linkin Park.
3.Music is vastly important to me because I feel like without it, I’d be a very different person. Maynard’s lyrics defied me to grow. Breaking Benjamin’s lyrics make me feel like someone understands. Ozzy’s lyrics remind me that it’s ok to be a lil crazy.
4. Catt was devised when I was 6, and Flickie was devised when I was 18.
5. Other than money and mental health complications, I suppose I’m where I want to be in life. I’m happily married, no kids, and I have 3 kitters. I’m not “actually” married, but we consider ourselves to be.
6. I’ve only had 2 relationships, and my current relationship is my second.
7. I stepped down from my pharmacy job due to my mental health issues. I fear that it won’t be understood by the court system when I go before them another time to fight for my ssi, but I couldn’t handle the stress. I loved the medicine and the math, but I couldn’t keep up. I still am employed, but I’m now a “Sanitaur”, someone who keeps the store clean and tidy for Covid.
8. I’m scared of my future. Unless I get the ssi, I have no idea what to expect.
9. I can’t game anymore. It makes me anxious.
10. I have astigmatisms in both my eyes. That’s why I wear glasses.
11. I have liver disease. It’s not very aggressive, and if I could get the motivation to lose weight I could probably control it better, but it is what it is.
12. I struggle with my weight in part because of PCOS. It makes me “Pre-cancerous” but I don’t actually have cancer.
13. I hallucinate a lot. I probably shouldn’t have a job, but I can’t get the courts to take my mental health seriously.
14. If it weren’t for Flickie, I’d have probably offed myself a long time ago. The desire is still quite strong within me, but I feel the need to protect him and help him have a home. Without me and my income, he’d be homeless. His mental health complications prevent him from making a lot of money as well, so he relies on my income to make up the difference. For a while he did try to take care of both of us, but he couldn’t handle it.
15. Despite the major issues and pure evil that is my parents, I do miss them. I have select fond memories that crop up, especially when I listen to certain songs, and a part of me will always want to reach out to them. I stymie the urge every time, and either way, Flickie will not support me if I do. He won’t prevent me, but he won’t be happy about it. Which is preventative enough, but no, I don’t feel “controlled” into not reaching out. It’s complicated...
16. I’m not as girlie as I design Catt to be. She’s a “safe space” for that so I enable her to be as girlie as I’d like to be. I wear denim and band tees irl.
17. I’m boring.
18. I love all my friends dearly, and I always hope they’ll reach out to me because I don’t want to be a bother. I never know how to initiate a conversation, but I’m happy to be a part of one if you invite me.
19. I’m both needy and standoffish, but I only display my standoffish nature to uphold looking strong. The truth is that I’m very lonely and just want a friend.
20. I hope someone reads this.
1. I’m left handed.
2.I like collecting old forms of media; CDs, Vinyls, Cassettes. I don’t have a vast collection, but I’m budding one. If I had more money, it’d be a lot bigger a lot sooner. It’s mostly Maynard related, but eventually I plan to extend outward to Ozzy, Breaking Benjamin and Linkin Park.
3.Music is vastly important to me because I feel like without it, I’d be a very different person. Maynard’s lyrics defied me to grow. Breaking Benjamin’s lyrics make me feel like someone understands. Ozzy’s lyrics remind me that it’s ok to be a lil crazy.
4. Catt was devised when I was 6, and Flickie was devised when I was 18.
5. Other than money and mental health complications, I suppose I’m where I want to be in life. I’m happily married, no kids, and I have 3 kitters. I’m not “actually” married, but we consider ourselves to be.
6. I’ve only had 2 relationships, and my current relationship is my second.
7. I stepped down from my pharmacy job due to my mental health issues. I fear that it won’t be understood by the court system when I go before them another time to fight for my ssi, but I couldn’t handle the stress. I loved the medicine and the math, but I couldn’t keep up. I still am employed, but I’m now a “Sanitaur”, someone who keeps the store clean and tidy for Covid.
8. I’m scared of my future. Unless I get the ssi, I have no idea what to expect.
9. I can’t game anymore. It makes me anxious.
10. I have astigmatisms in both my eyes. That’s why I wear glasses.
11. I have liver disease. It’s not very aggressive, and if I could get the motivation to lose weight I could probably control it better, but it is what it is.
12. I struggle with my weight in part because of PCOS. It makes me “Pre-cancerous” but I don’t actually have cancer.
13. I hallucinate a lot. I probably shouldn’t have a job, but I can’t get the courts to take my mental health seriously.
14. If it weren’t for Flickie, I’d have probably offed myself a long time ago. The desire is still quite strong within me, but I feel the need to protect him and help him have a home. Without me and my income, he’d be homeless. His mental health complications prevent him from making a lot of money as well, so he relies on my income to make up the difference. For a while he did try to take care of both of us, but he couldn’t handle it.
15. Despite the major issues and pure evil that is my parents, I do miss them. I have select fond memories that crop up, especially when I listen to certain songs, and a part of me will always want to reach out to them. I stymie the urge every time, and either way, Flickie will not support me if I do. He won’t prevent me, but he won’t be happy about it. Which is preventative enough, but no, I don’t feel “controlled” into not reaching out. It’s complicated...
16. I’m not as girlie as I design Catt to be. She’s a “safe space” for that so I enable her to be as girlie as I’d like to be. I wear denim and band tees irl.
17. I’m boring.
18. I love all my friends dearly, and I always hope they’ll reach out to me because I don’t want to be a bother. I never know how to initiate a conversation, but I’m happy to be a part of one if you invite me.
19. I’m both needy and standoffish, but I only display my standoffish nature to uphold looking strong. The truth is that I’m very lonely and just want a friend.
20. I hope someone reads this.
Yeah, it's so weird. I know people don't care and they'll get to me when they get to me, but sometimes I want to vent or something and I just like, don't.
I also collect decks of playing cards and tarot, but with how expensive old media is, I've kinda put the cards on the back burner. I plan on buying a record player soon so I can actually listen to my records. I only have 1 record set right now, a 2LP for Eat the Elephant by A Perfect Circle.
That's neat that you collect marbles! They're so pretty and always looked like little planets to me as a kid. I probably couldn't collect them though, I have cats. And I like to fondle my collectables, so I'd probably leave them out.
I have a SNES. No cassettes yet, but that's about to change. They're pretty expensive though, more than I was hoping. But hey, it's no biggie when I have spending money I suppose. There's nothing else I really want/need when I have expendable cash so...
That's kinda funny, heh. Flickie's a leftie too. I knew him in preschool, so we had to fight over the leftie scissors since there was only 1 pair. We lost contact after that and met back up in high school.
I think outside of Catt and Flickie I only have a 2 or 3 lefties since they're not super common irl.
It is a rollercoaster of emotions in me. I just hope you will be well and happily.