Yesterday, I behaved absolutely awful. I hurt somebody who is incredibly kind and who is finally after a long time cultivating the following that she deserves. She has provided a wholesome community that gives each other great emotional support. I want everyone to know that not one iota of the current situation should be lain at her feet, it's all my fault. I shall refrain from using her name, because I don't want anybody not involved to read this and think poorly of her. She deserves no blame for it. However, if this relates to you or her community, you'll know who I speak of. Before I go on any more, I want to clarify that this is not an excuse, but rather an explanation and a confession of guilt. Whether I hurt her through malice or through incompetence, it doesn't matter, in either case harm was done.

Yesterday, I was speaking with a few people who shall remain nameless here, as I don't want them dragged into this. I shall not get into the details here, but in summary, there were people with concerns about the person I hurt. I believed that they were afraid to say something about it, but if several people had the same concerns, I thought it would be best to bring it up. Therefore, i volunteered to take the concerns to her. That was my first mistake.

My second mistake was to go directly to her instead of one of her closest friends first (who shall also remain unnamed for the same reasons). They may have helped me to better craft what I was saying so that it would come across as a more reasonable conversation. I really botched how I said everything in that conversation, but as I said above, it doesn't matter if it's incompetence or malice, the result is the same either way.

Thirdly, I reposted something from the conversation in another location. I had thought that she had said for me to relay that information to others. I have no clue how I misread what she said so badly, but once again, that goes under the file of incompetence. I shall not go into the details of how she wanted it distributed once again for potential confidentiality reasons.

Several years ago, I had also screwed up really badly, but I will not go into details about it here. The end result however was that I decided that if I can't act right, I don't deserve to be in the community, so I left for a long time. About a year or two ago, I felt that maybe I had grown enough as a person to be able to behave properly. It would appear that I have not, and as such, I plan to leave the community again. I plan stay for a couple of days longer just to update this or to answer any questions, but other than that, I feel that it is best that I just stay off of internet communities for good.

Edit: Today, January 10th, I leave the furry community. Goodbye everyone, and good luck with the rest of your lives.