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5 years ago
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I'm working on owed art, don't worry. I need the commissions after all.
But making art isn't fun for me anymore. It's a frustrating process. And it's not just art. It's everything that used to make me happy. I don't know what it is. It's been going on for a few weeks now. I'm trying to make it stop, but nothing helps. TV, video games, art, even my music does nothing for me. Even sex is frustrating for me. It's not anything Flickie's doing, he's amazing. And he hasn't changed anything, in fact, he's trying his best to make it work better for me. But it just doesn't interest me. If anything, I'm worse at it than ever, my heart's not in it. I've tried to go through the motions once or twice since this happened to me, but I just don't feel it. I thought maybe if I plunged into it, I'd like it, but... well, that didn't work. Even candy sucks.
I know trying new things is usually what people do here but nothing interests me. I hate to cook, I'm otherwise broke and either way, Covid makes it hard to go anywhere and do things. Plus, with sex being a problem, I don't think I'm bored with everything. I don't even think I need anything new. I mean, there's games I'm still anticipating, which could constitute as new. I want to learn an instrument and a language, but in this state I don't think that's a good idea. I'm just bipolar? ADHD? it's gotta be one of the two. Maybe I need more meds? I don't know. I see my psyche on Monday, so I intend to ask about that.
On top of everything else, I'm drooling excessively in my sleep. Been doing that for the past 2-3 months. Ever since I stopped Effexor, which is notorious for cotton mouth. I think it was countering my Topamax, Because Topamax is reported to cause it in roughly 20% of female adults.
I take it for maintenance of migraines.
I'm not really looking for advice, just to bend ears if there's any.
But making art isn't fun for me anymore. It's a frustrating process. And it's not just art. It's everything that used to make me happy. I don't know what it is. It's been going on for a few weeks now. I'm trying to make it stop, but nothing helps. TV, video games, art, even my music does nothing for me. Even sex is frustrating for me. It's not anything Flickie's doing, he's amazing. And he hasn't changed anything, in fact, he's trying his best to make it work better for me. But it just doesn't interest me. If anything, I'm worse at it than ever, my heart's not in it. I've tried to go through the motions once or twice since this happened to me, but I just don't feel it. I thought maybe if I plunged into it, I'd like it, but... well, that didn't work. Even candy sucks.
I know trying new things is usually what people do here but nothing interests me. I hate to cook, I'm otherwise broke and either way, Covid makes it hard to go anywhere and do things. Plus, with sex being a problem, I don't think I'm bored with everything. I don't even think I need anything new. I mean, there's games I'm still anticipating, which could constitute as new. I want to learn an instrument and a language, but in this state I don't think that's a good idea. I'm just bipolar? ADHD? it's gotta be one of the two. Maybe I need more meds? I don't know. I see my psyche on Monday, so I intend to ask about that.
On top of everything else, I'm drooling excessively in my sleep. Been doing that for the past 2-3 months. Ever since I stopped Effexor, which is notorious for cotton mouth. I think it was countering my Topamax, Because Topamax is reported to cause it in roughly 20% of female adults.
I take it for maintenance of migraines.
I'm not really looking for advice, just to bend ears if there's any.
Maybe some rest would help, but i confess i am not sure what is fun for you now...