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5 years ago
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I know no one reads these things but here it goes
I have a conundrum
now that I drive RT7 buses in flagstaff (Like I will today) I Often go by a former furry friends place (last place I knew they lived) and for some reason they quit talking to me a few years ago, I have no idea why and it bothers me, I know I am not the greatest at keeping in touch but I just wish I knew why he and his spouse cut ties without so much as a hey you did X have tried to reason for why but yesterday I was on here and i apparently still follow his wife's art account and she posted an amazing thing and i tried to favorite it but it said I cant because i am blocked yet i can still see all her submissions and he didn't block me, heck she is the one that made my ref sheets and I had thought about having her make a gender bent art of my character because I am trying to figure my own relationship to gender but i can't even message to ask.
like the only things i can think of that I did "wrong" is after he went straight I came out as Bi curious (now Pan?) and I stayed friends with a male former friend that had feelings for him. like they were a few of my only friends still up here that had been to each others houses and shared each others alcohol.
I have a conundrum
now that I drive RT7 buses in flagstaff (Like I will today) I Often go by a former furry friends place (last place I knew they lived) and for some reason they quit talking to me a few years ago, I have no idea why and it bothers me, I know I am not the greatest at keeping in touch but I just wish I knew why he and his spouse cut ties without so much as a hey you did X have tried to reason for why but yesterday I was on here and i apparently still follow his wife's art account and she posted an amazing thing and i tried to favorite it but it said I cant because i am blocked yet i can still see all her submissions and he didn't block me, heck she is the one that made my ref sheets and I had thought about having her make a gender bent art of my character because I am trying to figure my own relationship to gender but i can't even message to ask.
like the only things i can think of that I did "wrong" is after he went straight I came out as Bi curious (now Pan?) and I stayed friends with a male former friend that had feelings for him. like they were a few of my only friends still up here that had been to each others houses and shared each others alcohol.
I saved my exes life and stood between her and certain death, and she has canceled me completely, even though she now suffers for it, this is the way of the human female, and the sad fact is by not looking in the roots of our darkness, we are forever slaves to it.
I wouldn't worry too much about a weak, afraid, dysfunctional woman has done, nor her influence over her mate, men like us are the unwitting products of a proud society of fools and clowns, desperate to bury the steady March of time towards the inevitable end of our world's.
All we can do, is repair ourselves, make our own little worlds once of self love and self care... It has been said, "how hard is it to change yourself? Nearly impossible. So how then will you change another?"