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Missing art, TOS update, and last weekend
4 years ago
This last weekend I found 3 people in my patreon chat that are into CP. I feel gross and I refunded the commission and pledges I had. I have a zero tolerance policy for that and rabbit hole kept going. I think what hurts the most is I considered one of the people a good friend. I let him in closer than I do a lot of people now and it's been tearing me up that I didn't know. I accepted work from him for years and while it was normal commissions I still can't help but feel a little used at least.
I also found 3 people who I had done commissions for in the past. I have since taken down that work as I feel like it's a stain on my portfolio. I'm not sure what to do. I don't really want to make new friends in the community or let people in outside of who I already trust. I'm not as emotional as I was this weekend but my trust with the community is wavering.
I love the wholesome scenes, it's nice to draw and I truly enjoy that and how it makes people smile. That being said, I don't like finding out people I've drawn for are into CP. It prompts a dark thought path that isn't healthy. I can't control what people do with my art even if I want for it to not be used for that purpose.
I am amending my TOS to have a 'do not post my art on inkbunny' it's a disgusting site and I'd rather not be connected to it. Knowing my art is on there makes me feel sick. My sona is in a few pieces on accounts with CP and I want to cry. I can't do anything though since it's not my art and they're group pictures.
I'm sure a few people are in my position, I'm not speaking for them though. I'm speaking for myself. I'm going to be more cautious with the work I accept. This isn't okay in my books.
I also found 3 people who I had done commissions for in the past. I have since taken down that work as I feel like it's a stain on my portfolio. I'm not sure what to do. I don't really want to make new friends in the community or let people in outside of who I already trust. I'm not as emotional as I was this weekend but my trust with the community is wavering.
I love the wholesome scenes, it's nice to draw and I truly enjoy that and how it makes people smile. That being said, I don't like finding out people I've drawn for are into CP. It prompts a dark thought path that isn't healthy. I can't control what people do with my art even if I want for it to not be used for that purpose.
I am amending my TOS to have a 'do not post my art on inkbunny' it's a disgusting site and I'd rather not be connected to it. Knowing my art is on there makes me feel sick. My sona is in a few pieces on accounts with CP and I want to cry. I can't do anything though since it's not my art and they're group pictures.
I'm sure a few people are in my position, I'm not speaking for them though. I'm speaking for myself. I'm going to be more cautious with the work I accept. This isn't okay in my books.
I do agree that the heavily soiled diapers are more kinky/sexual (at least in my eyes as well). I used to watch a lot of Dragon ball as well so I can see where that would be confusing. The art I found was explicit sexual content.
I understand having the distinction between real CP and drawn cub porn. I'm a CSA survivor so I do have very strong emotions towards drawn cub art as well as real CP. I have a hard time pulling back and wording myself in a way to be better understood without the vitriol or repeating myself.
I've seen that account and it made me sick to my stomach. I wanted to yell and scream because I still suffer consequences for what happened to me 25 years ago. I think I always will but that also means I'm not really great at speaking calmly or objectively. I get too emotional and I'm way too close to be able to handle myself in those situations.
I appreciate that, I let Mikey read over it before I posted it to make sure I kept myself in check. It's something I've needed to learn to do for a while.