I'm not that great at getting words out so sorry if this comes out alover the place and weird and sorry if i diden't understand too well

i think a lot of people get the wrong messege when it comes to vore content, you can create vore content and not be into it, for some reason as soon as an artist draws vore they automaticly think "OMG THEY'RE INTO VORE???" and i think that needs to change with the community.

Escaping a part of your life that has been there for a majority of it its very hard, Vore has never really been a good spot for me, i've had my issues in the past and with dealing with them, not wanting to continue or to just leave the community/fandom altogether because vore was the only thing i was known for, It was draining and hurt when people dident want to communicate with me because of the stuff i liked or ruined friendships/relaionships because vore overshadowed a lot of things as it was my escape.

However over the last year i've been doing diffrent things to help recreate that love i've been not giving myself instead of prescription drugs every day for months on end, and now this may not work for you and im not saying you have to try, i'm sure you've done a lot of stuff.

Try taking your skills and creativity onto other types of media, you don't need to stick to one thing to make people enjoy it, I started to get into character designing like you did, its definetly helped taking my mind off things and pushed it into diffrent outlets, Along side VRchat Modding/3D modeling & animaitng, For a while i felt a bit more refreshed that vore was not the only thing taking up my mind all the time and as you go on you can start to ease vore completly out and just leaving it as a fetish, for me i'm still getting there but i've mixed my passion for designing and other stuff with vore and its a lot more healthy for me, I've seen your animaiting skills, you have a very good talent there and you can put that to use on things like game animation, creating your own story/lore with an interactive game/story with your artwork or animations, a side project that will maybe help keep your mind off things.

I'm really sorry to hear you're dealing with this stuff, i'm not the best of help as i'm not used to giving advice but i hope maybe it will help in some fourm.

This is a lot more helpful than the useless platitude hug I was going to offer.

I went through something kinda similar? But for me it was specifically feeling guilty about the digestion and death aspects of vore. I felt bad about feeling arousal when someone was dying. I ended up rationalizing it as fiction, and always assuming reformation was a thing while only doing endo RPs myself. It helps me ignore the parts about vore and the community that I don't like, and I actively try to stay away from hard digestion stuff. But that's specifically me!

Maybe breaking down what really bothers you about vore and working to eliminate it from your characters/activities can help? If it would help, I'd be happy to chat or just listen to you vent if you need to.

The part that really bothers me is me. That's what I want to get rid of

Forgive me if this is a silly question, but what is it about yourself that bothers you? I know it's been a long long time since we chatted, but I've always seen you as an enjoyable person to talk with.

No idea how you got that Idea.

Anyway, it's not an aspect of vore I hate. I hate that *I* like vore. Doing any vore rp makes me suicidally depressed. Even the most soft vore you could imagine. I wish I could delete everything about vore from my brain

Interesting, I'm... not sure what to say to that if I'm perfectly honest. If possible, I'd question why you liking vore makes you think less of yourself? Is it guilt that you like something that can be considered strange? In my eyes, finding out why there's a problem is the first step in addressing that problem and making it better.

I hope I'm not projecting too much, I'm drawing on personal experience in coming to terms with some of the... stranger things I've liked. I really want to help if I can!

It feels like gender dysphoria

Try and see it as a part of you, not the whole of you. Do it because you want to do it. you don't need to dance for the audience. you want to do vore? great have fun. Don't want to do vore? Great, have fun.
You are not defined by vore. When I think back about talking to you I remember you for the tabletop game stuff and the story writting stuff we talked about, vore was involved but it wasn't the whole of it.
I have reached a point myself where I am fairly disgusted with vore, but I am getting to the point of realizing it is majorly the community that can not seperate anything from it, chats I am in can not stop themselves from talking something not involved with it at all and inserting vore or sex into it apropos to nothing. That is the problem.
Like THeTWFZ said, don't let vore define you, do something else. step back from it, and do it only on your terms. Jimmy Mcfoxboy, that only cares about getting off, shouldn't matter to what YOU want do and want to make.

It feels like I'm addicted

I've noticed in my life that society has a way of teaching us to hate ourselves for so many reasons. They're never good reasons, of course; they always boil down to "different is bad".

Once upon a time I tried to give it what it wanted, to not be different. I struggled greatly to fit in the place it wanted me. But it didn't work, because no matter what I tried I simply wasn't me.

When I couldn't fit the bill, I became very self-loathing. I believed I was broken, irreparably damaged and could never amount to anything because I couldn't be what it wanted. I measured my worth with its ruler and always came up short.

Now that I'm in a somewhat better place I can look back and see all that pain for what it really was: a square peg trying desperately to fit into a round hole. And I never would have fit unless I cut off a piece of myself in the process.

I still often find myself unconsciously returning to the days of desperate attempts to conform, angered at my inability to do so. The difference now is I usually catch myself and put a stop to it. Because I am. I am, and nobody else is me. The world might have a problem with that, but that's the world's problem, not mine.

I can't speak for you because I'm not you. You are you. Your pain might not relate to mine at all. This shot in the dark may fall uselessly to the ground, never to hit its mark. But I feel the need to shoot anyway, just in case.

You are a human being, and you have just as much right to exist as you as anybody else has. The world might be big but that doesn't mean it's right. And nobody and nothing can make you hate yourself if you refuse to let it.

No, it isn't easy saying no to something so insistent and overbearing. It's one of the hardest things a person can do. But everyone has the power to do it. It takes a lot of time and a lot of strength, but it can be done.

You matter more than you or I can comprehend. I might just be a wandering traveler in the comments of an old blog post, but I can tell you that's the truth. And even though I don't know you...

...I'm rooting for you.

Farewell, and may you see brighter days ahead.