Hi Guys.

You all know i've been running hard the last several weeks.... many hours driving and not much time home. I've been trying out some furry audio books and I have to say they are really good to listen to while driving or relaxing. I know my imagination is a bit more active than most but a very well written story has the ability to pull me into the story right along with the rest of the characters. The only thing here is that i've found myself being pulled so deep into some of the story that it's actually gotten me emotionally upset at some of the things happening to the characters and I don't mean upset like " oh my that was terrible, lets see what happens in the next chapter", but so upset that i've found myself bawling really hard. I just seem to have been able to get some kind of emotional attachment to aspects of the story, found in some instances that there's a parallel to the story and things that have really happened to me in my own life. Bringing back some of those memories is really hard on me, it just really seems to hit me so deep that I just cannot control myself, literally curling up into a ball in my bed and sobbing so hard.

Look I KNOW it's JUST a story, but my life really hasn't been the greatest, with so many things that have happened that make me upset when I remember them, even though i've tried to bury them deep inside me. Things that not another living soul knows about, things that really strike a nerve inside me and make me almost relive those events in my mind, feeling those terrible feelings once again, putting that extreme doubt into the forefront of my thoughts once again. It really hurts to think about, but some of these stories have me pulling those emotions out again... ripping them from my soul and shoving them into my face to make me see them again....

and I don't know how to deal with them... or if I even should.

I love stories that really pull you into them, but sometimes there's just a bit too much reality in them and I guess I wasn't expecting that.