"I used to think it was awful that life was so unfair. Then I thought, 'wouldn't it be much worse if life *were* fair, and all the terrible things that happen to us come because we actually deserve them?' So now I take great comfort in the general hostility and unfairness of the universe." - Marcus Cole, Babylon 5

I know your brain is telling you that.
But I need you to read this.
You are loved. And you being here, makes the difference. You matter to me my friend even if we dont talk all that much.
You aren't alone. And it can and will get better.