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The last 6 months
4 years ago
As most of you who know me know. My life is always some fucking shit show. The last 6months was and still is no exception. So I am moved into my new place. My boyfriend, now ex. Who I was with for the last 3years is a complete toxic narcissist schizophrenic asshole. With some of the best dick of my life. I have no shame in admitting that. However he really swallowed up my life and as a people pleaser, I gave too much to him. So most of my last 6 months was between trying to get my life in order. And trying to help my now ex, the colossal fuck up that he is, fix himself. Which btw he didnt fix. Which is where I draw my absolute line and definitely gtfo. Because allowing myself to get domestic abuse is not going to happen. Going cold Turkey from him is going to be rough. As all toxic relationships have an addictive quality to them that is hard to break. Not to mention his devil dick that truly kept me running back. I almost hate myself for being so weak in that. But I deserve better. And I want to move forward with my art life.
I am currently okay, dispite many obstacles that have been in my way. Ya girl is still here. I am working my way through the art that I owe. Of that I feel like absolute shit for not cutting that asshole off sooner so I could refocus on my life and art. Especially after my mom passed away, But I digress.
I am making money, and living alone. I was living with my cat. But ita been 2 days since I let her out and she hasn't returned. I dont feel my best but I am making the best of my situation. One day at a time. Of which I wont make more excuses for my lack of appearance here.
I know I say that more art is coming. But literally there is zero distractions now. No boyfriend, no sick mom [RIP mom ] , no animals, the Bill's are paid for this month. So fucking finally for the first time in 1 year since my mom's passing. I can breath and I am making art again. It has been a long and very rough road. But I'm alright and I'm still here.
As always bless everyone who had been showing me love. And enjoying my work. I love you all dearly. I just want to say for people who feel like their life is just a whirlwind of shit. I promise you bb, it does get better. And you can survive it. Stay strong my fur family
Much love as always
- ee
I am currently okay, dispite many obstacles that have been in my way. Ya girl is still here. I am working my way through the art that I owe. Of that I feel like absolute shit for not cutting that asshole off sooner so I could refocus on my life and art. Especially after my mom passed away, But I digress.
I am making money, and living alone. I was living with my cat. But ita been 2 days since I let her out and she hasn't returned. I dont feel my best but I am making the best of my situation. One day at a time. Of which I wont make more excuses for my lack of appearance here.
I know I say that more art is coming. But literally there is zero distractions now. No boyfriend, no sick mom [RIP mom ] , no animals, the Bill's are paid for this month. So fucking finally for the first time in 1 year since my mom's passing. I can breath and I am making art again. It has been a long and very rough road. But I'm alright and I'm still here.
As always bless everyone who had been showing me love. And enjoying my work. I love you all dearly. I just want to say for people who feel like their life is just a whirlwind of shit. I promise you bb, it does get better. And you can survive it. Stay strong my fur family
Much love as always
- ee
You're a good person, and you're smart. You tried, but you knew when it was time to move on. You're lucky that you're strong enough and had the self awareness to do this. A lot of folks stay stuck in these situations for one reason or another. You're also lucky that you were in a situation where you could. So good for you! Keep being strong and things will keep getting better!
I also really hope your kitty returned.