...so this is it.. Where it ends for me being a proud Kennedy cougar...I never thought it would end this early... But now it's gone.. The school that I basically grew up at.. The school where I was attach so greatly that I would die if I separate... But now Im officially dead... But most of the reason is because of band... Band is my escape from my problems... I know Almost every member in that band.. We were family.. And I can't belive I'm being broken from them... I don't want to go... Idc if Im the only furry.. But I made so much friends... So much... I actually felt I was involved... Band is the only reason why I'm so attached to there... Band is..my life... </3 *breaks down crying*....

*shrugs* ...been really jealous lately for some reason... Pisses me off...

I'm loosing motivation to draw.. Any ideas..? -3-

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4660888/
Come check it out! :3

Stolen from  jinxmike :3


WOULD YOU...
[_] Lock me in your room and take advantage of me?
[_] lick my cheek?
[_] miss me if we went out then broke up?
[_] dance with me?
[_] let me make you breakfast?
[_] tap me on the a**?
[_] help me with homework?
[_] tickle me to death?
[_] let me tickle you?
[_] stick up for me if i was being put down?
[_] caress my body?
[_] play strip poker with me?
[_] say yes if i asked you out?
[_] let me wear your pants?
[_] get wasted with me?
[_] instant message me?
[_] greet me in public?
[_] hang out with me?
[_] bring me around your friends?

DO YOU...
[_] think im cute?
[_] think im hot?
[_] want to kiss me?
[_] want to cuddle with me?
[_] want to hook up with me?

ARE WE...
[_] acquaintances?
[_] friends?
[_] in a relationship?
[_] gonna have kids?

AM I...
[_] smart?
[_] cute?
[_] funny?
[_] cool?
[_] lovable?
[_] adorable?
[_] compassionate?
[_] annoying?
[_] great to be with?
[_] attractive?
[_] mean?
[_] odd?

HAVE YOU EVER...
[_] thought about me?
[_] thought there might be an "us"?
[_] thought about hookin' up with me?
[_] found yourself wanting a kiss from me?
[_] wished i were there?
[_] grabbed me?
[_] had a crush on me?
[_] idolized me?
[_] wanted my number?
[_] had a dream about me?
[_] been distracted by me?

ARE YOU...
[_] happy you know me?
[_] mad at me?
[_] thinkin' bout me?
[_] going to repost this in your journal so that i will return the favor

I'm trying to find a really good artist who's open for requests.. I want to surprise my mate of giving him a gift.. But so far I had no luck v.=.v can someone help me find a person who is willing to do a request please.. Just don't tell android (he got grounded so I'm taking a advantage of it a little >.=.>... <.=.<...)x3

Well it's really a hard to control my breakdowns right now...so many things are happening all at once...all I can do is watch...watch them...no matter what I do people refuse my help...so I sit there and watch...slowly destroying me emotionally...I don't even know who I am anymore...to the point where I'm not even the same person who joined FA 6 months ago (with old account  hunt3rz)... Yeah sure I'm happy sometimes for only week or so but I'm back to the same when it wears off...idk what's happening to me..

I'm better now guys... My friend  xAndriodx helped me calm down...but who mostly did the comforting is my daddy  scorcher836 .... I love you so much daddy thank you both so much.. You guys are the best..^.=.^

Most likey no one will give a fuck... But I just want to say that I'm not doing well again.... I guess I'm back to my depression ^.=.^ I just try to be all happy and then something bad happens... Or I try to help someone but I just fuck it up
Even more!Or when i try to hang out with someone i just make it awkward! Woo I'm so fucking happy *crying but smiling* I love my fucking life!!! I love it!!! I want to live for ever...^.=.^ Im the most fucking happiest person on the planet!! I just love being alone and rejected!!!! I just love...Life...*crying and still smiling* (sarcasm)

Woop over 200 page views now! ;3

at the moment I'm starting to loose it...last night I once again had a emotional breakdown and sadly... I kinda... Did something that freaked me out this morning... I'm not going to say but it has to do with blood... And I'm saying and doing things that im regretting cause of me being emotionally unstable.., so I'm saying that right now I'm slowly becomeing insane again but at least I cought myself before it was too late... So just watch your self and please say something that I'm doing that is odd or saying something that is odd..... I'm sorry people... My emotions are taking over again... But right now I'm not unstable just probably later on...

Ehh I was bored so I did this .-. .... You should try it as well ^.=.^

[x] You have a boyfriend/girlfriend

[x] You have your own room.

[X] You own a cell phone.

[X] You have an ipod/ mp3 player. (iPhone o3o)

[] Your parents are still married.

[] You have more than 2 best friends.

[] There is a swimming pool in your backyard.

Total: 12

[X] You dress how you want to.

[x] You hang out with friends more than once a week.

[] There is a computer/ laptop in your room.

[] You have never been beaten up.

[x] You never cry more than twice a month.

[X] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.

[X] Your room is big enough for you.

[] People don't use you for something you have.

[] You have been to a concert.

Total: 27

[x] You have over 50 friends on Facebook.

[x] Your parents let you have a Facebook.

[] You get allowance.

[] You collect something normal.

[x] You look forward to going to school.(rarely because I'm in band)

[] You don't wish you were someone else

[] You play a sport

[X] You do something after school
(If I have practice)

Total: 39

[] You own a car. (cant drive it yet)

[] You usually don't fight with your parents.

[] You are happy with your appearance.

[] You aren't self-conscious at all.

[] You have never got a failing grade in your life.

[X] You have friends.

Total: 42

[] You know what is going on in the world.

[X] You care about so many people. (Well some people)

[] You are happy with your life. (Ehh not really)

[] You know more than one language.

[x] You have a screen name.

[X] You own a pet.

[X] You know the words to 5 songs

[] You don't have any enemies

[X] You are a generally nice person (well if dont mess with me then yes)

Total: 57

Now count your numbers and multiply by three.

Then title this journal "My life is ___% Happy"

For some reason I feel a little lonely... Empty like... Idk... Just plain like... Probably I need someone to talk to and have fun with...

Instead of people drawing nothing but porn I draw stuff that comes from my heart and emotions (what I have emotions! :O lol) and I'm drawing something dedicated to this song right here..

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Kw2Ic_2XdVQ

Woo! once again I gots over 100 views! In less than a month! Better than my last account :3

So I'm again going through deep depression...to the point that now I have dark circles under my eyes.... *sits alone and starts crying silently* ....