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Posted 5 years agoBeen a while.
This year's been... stressful. I guess one could say we're seeing the results of all sorts of bad things coming to a head, in every possible way. I feel like I should write something long, eloquent, and convincing backed by evidence and statistics, etc. But the simple reality is I'm tired. I'm exhausted, and I'm not even someone who's life is particularly effected by all this mess. 99% of people on the street will see me and assume I'm a straight white cishet neurotypical male, so 99% of the time I get to cruise along on easy mode in modern America. I can't imagine how much worse this year has been to people who face so many more completely unwarranted challenges.
If you've been paying attention, if you've been listening to literally anyone other than the privately funded mouthpiece of billionaire's that don't give a shit about your lives and give foxes a bad name, you've seen what's gone on in the last few weeks and months in this country. Police, former police, etc. violating the rights and terminating the lives of marginalized people. Visiting terror, grievous injury, and death upon people accused of minor crimes, people jogging through the wrong neighborhood, or even upon people innocently sitting at home after a long day at work. And when people rightfully raise their voices in outrage and protest at this atrocious and inexcusable behavior, we've seen so many, too many, of those officers and their brethren become unhinged and indiscriminate in abusing their authority, catering to the whims of a petty self styled tyrant whose been egging them on for the better part of 4 years. The inexcusable abuse and cruelty has been utterly horrifying, in too many cases rivaling and even surpassing the kind of behavior too many of us had thought was relegated to an older, uglier time.
Against this, we've seen the reverse. Some of the most privileged people in the land, asked simply to stay at home and isolate, in the face of one of the deadliest pandemics seen in over a century, rose up armed to the teeth and stormed their capitals. And those police, who have sought to so brutally suppress other people, did almost nothing. Police who've shot people to death without remorse for the crime of having a cell phone in their hand, or a hand in their pocket, stood by as white men and women put their hands on holstered guns and their fingers on triggers. Police who've brutally beaten people for simply holding their ground at a protest, police who've arrested people and ruined their lives for the crime of disrespecting their vanity and imagined importance stood stoically and quietly as men and women hurled abuse at them and threatened the lives of legislators and government workers.
If you can't look at the stark and horrifying difference there and see something wrong, I don't know what to tell you. If you can watch what happened to George Floyd and Ahmaud Arbery, or read about Breonna Taylor, or read the news about the LITANY of other names of victims of unjustifiable uses of force. If you can watch the seemingly endless string of violent incitement and flagrant cruelty visited upon protestors in the last week, alongside everything else we've seen and not come to the conclusion that there are deep, long running, and horrific injustices in our society that MUST be changed NOW, then I don't know that there's anything I have left to say to you.
Black Lives Matter.
Police brutality is wrong.
We must address the horrific injustices in our communities that disadvantage, discriminate against, and abuse the most vulnerable and marginalized among us, and we must do it now.
One final note, on something within our own community.
It's one thing to be an idiot when you're young, stupid, and first discover that there are folks on the internet that won't stop you, or that will even cheer you on when you're being an absolute piece of human filth, degrading and tearing down the most vulnerable in our society.
It's far different matter that it happened last week, or yesterday, when you are in theory a fully functioning adult. It's a different matter when you only change your opinion when you get caught, and try to mask it as a joke, debate, or perhaps one of the world's shittiest ways to cope with stress.
If you do this, you are not welcome in this community. Unfollow me. Get out. Don't come back.
As for forgiveness. I grew up catholic. I left the church long ago, but I still believe in the power of forgiveness to heal and uplift. Redemption, however, is earned through changing who you are and how you behave. It is earned through penance, paid not just to demonstrate your heartfelt remorse, but also to address the things that you did wrong and show that you are taking an active and enthusiastic hand in making them [i]right[/].
Asking for forgiveness, seeking redemption, these things take time. But doing so is not a shield from the consequences of your actions. Saying you are seeking therapy, telling people that you are praying, dressing yourself up in the costume and pageantry of self improvement does not mean that people cannot justifiably take you to task for the horrific things that you said or did. Nor do these things, nor anything else that you choose to do require those you've wronged and those sickened and hurt by your actions to forgive you.
This year's been... stressful. I guess one could say we're seeing the results of all sorts of bad things coming to a head, in every possible way. I feel like I should write something long, eloquent, and convincing backed by evidence and statistics, etc. But the simple reality is I'm tired. I'm exhausted, and I'm not even someone who's life is particularly effected by all this mess. 99% of people on the street will see me and assume I'm a straight white cishet neurotypical male, so 99% of the time I get to cruise along on easy mode in modern America. I can't imagine how much worse this year has been to people who face so many more completely unwarranted challenges.
If you've been paying attention, if you've been listening to literally anyone other than the privately funded mouthpiece of billionaire's that don't give a shit about your lives and give foxes a bad name, you've seen what's gone on in the last few weeks and months in this country. Police, former police, etc. violating the rights and terminating the lives of marginalized people. Visiting terror, grievous injury, and death upon people accused of minor crimes, people jogging through the wrong neighborhood, or even upon people innocently sitting at home after a long day at work. And when people rightfully raise their voices in outrage and protest at this atrocious and inexcusable behavior, we've seen so many, too many, of those officers and their brethren become unhinged and indiscriminate in abusing their authority, catering to the whims of a petty self styled tyrant whose been egging them on for the better part of 4 years. The inexcusable abuse and cruelty has been utterly horrifying, in too many cases rivaling and even surpassing the kind of behavior too many of us had thought was relegated to an older, uglier time.
Against this, we've seen the reverse. Some of the most privileged people in the land, asked simply to stay at home and isolate, in the face of one of the deadliest pandemics seen in over a century, rose up armed to the teeth and stormed their capitals. And those police, who have sought to so brutally suppress other people, did almost nothing. Police who've shot people to death without remorse for the crime of having a cell phone in their hand, or a hand in their pocket, stood by as white men and women put their hands on holstered guns and their fingers on triggers. Police who've brutally beaten people for simply holding their ground at a protest, police who've arrested people and ruined their lives for the crime of disrespecting their vanity and imagined importance stood stoically and quietly as men and women hurled abuse at them and threatened the lives of legislators and government workers.
If you can't look at the stark and horrifying difference there and see something wrong, I don't know what to tell you. If you can watch what happened to George Floyd and Ahmaud Arbery, or read about Breonna Taylor, or read the news about the LITANY of other names of victims of unjustifiable uses of force. If you can watch the seemingly endless string of violent incitement and flagrant cruelty visited upon protestors in the last week, alongside everything else we've seen and not come to the conclusion that there are deep, long running, and horrific injustices in our society that MUST be changed NOW, then I don't know that there's anything I have left to say to you.
Black Lives Matter.
Police brutality is wrong.
We must address the horrific injustices in our communities that disadvantage, discriminate against, and abuse the most vulnerable and marginalized among us, and we must do it now.
One final note, on something within our own community.
It's one thing to be an idiot when you're young, stupid, and first discover that there are folks on the internet that won't stop you, or that will even cheer you on when you're being an absolute piece of human filth, degrading and tearing down the most vulnerable in our society.
It's far different matter that it happened last week, or yesterday, when you are in theory a fully functioning adult. It's a different matter when you only change your opinion when you get caught, and try to mask it as a joke, debate, or perhaps one of the world's shittiest ways to cope with stress.
If you do this, you are not welcome in this community. Unfollow me. Get out. Don't come back.
As for forgiveness. I grew up catholic. I left the church long ago, but I still believe in the power of forgiveness to heal and uplift. Redemption, however, is earned through changing who you are and how you behave. It is earned through penance, paid not just to demonstrate your heartfelt remorse, but also to address the things that you did wrong and show that you are taking an active and enthusiastic hand in making them [i]right[/].
Asking for forgiveness, seeking redemption, these things take time. But doing so is not a shield from the consequences of your actions. Saying you are seeking therapy, telling people that you are praying, dressing yourself up in the costume and pageantry of self improvement does not mean that people cannot justifiably take you to task for the horrific things that you said or did. Nor do these things, nor anything else that you choose to do require those you've wronged and those sickened and hurt by your actions to forgive you.
FWA and AC 2018 (how's it July already?)
Posted 7 years agoMan I really need to update this more often...
Ok, so 2018 has been an oddly busy year. I ended up having a mole removed on my back, and that had some irritating complication, but thankfully no lasting harm. Then we had our friend Mech up for the winter, then soon after that we went to FWA. It was a blast to see so many friends there and hang out with some people outside of just AC, and the con was a lot of fun. I really enjoyed it all, and just wish I'd had more time to hang with people.
Then spring was just crazy busy.
l0st ended up having to have his appendix out, thankfully it was an easy procedure with little trouble.
Not too long ago we went to AC. This year I had a neat cooling pack from permafrost systems so I could actually keep up with l0st in suiting duration. I also made myself a new head for my fursuit off of a base I bought from Water Dog Wharf at FWA. I'll put a thing up about that later, but I was really really pleased with that. As always I wish we'd had more time to hangout with people at the con, and more time to just chill, but it was a blast as always and thanks to the ever wonderful 
lordborel we've got some great pictures :D.
I'm finally getting over the awful con crud that l0st brought home and shared with me, thank the gods. The rest of the year will be pretty busy, and we're planning to make a short trip to MFF this year, so hopefully we'll get time to hang with all our friends heading there. :D
Ok, so 2018 has been an oddly busy year. I ended up having a mole removed on my back, and that had some irritating complication, but thankfully no lasting harm. Then we had our friend Mech up for the winter, then soon after that we went to FWA. It was a blast to see so many friends there and hang out with some people outside of just AC, and the con was a lot of fun. I really enjoyed it all, and just wish I'd had more time to hang with people.
Then spring was just crazy busy.
l0st ended up having to have his appendix out, thankfully it was an easy procedure with little trouble. Not too long ago we went to AC. This year I had a neat cooling pack from permafrost systems so I could actually keep up with
l0st in suiting duration. I also made myself a new head for my fursuit off of a base I bought from Water Dog Wharf at FWA. I'll put a thing up about that later, but I was really really pleased with that. As always I wish we'd had more time to hangout with people at the con, and more time to just chill, but it was a blast as always and thanks to the ever wonderful 
lordborel we've got some great pictures :D. I'm finally getting over the awful con crud that
l0st brought home and shared with me, thank the gods. The rest of the year will be pretty busy, and we're planning to make a short trip to MFF this year, so hopefully we'll get time to hang with all our friends heading there. :D 2017, and looking ahead to 2018.
Posted 7 years agoSo... This was a weird year. Tremendous highs, crushing lows. and lord did it seem to both rocket by but also felt like every week was a million years long in some deeply unsettling way. :/
Started off great, with a trip to Atlanta to hang with
ONightwish and 
Ranan at their new year's party. Rolled along to havung ONightwish: and lordborel up in march, which was wonderful even though I was sick. Then we got to surprise our friends by showing up at blfc, which was fun and interesting, if not always to my taste. Oh, and I got a body suit for my suit finished, and new handpaws made!
And then AC happened, and my grandfather died, right in the middle of it. I'm still sorting that out. It hurts, a lot. Especially these first holidays without him. I just wish I'd had, well. More time. More chances to do things with him, and learn from him, and to keep around more of the things that meant so much to him and my grandmother.
Lots of other personal drama surrounded this, but I'm coping now, to some extent.
We went to Vancouver to visit
cygnovum and 
jerbie, and got to visit with 
chiswickgryphon, 
nynn and Artimoverne too.
Then there was a trip to Atlanta to see the eclipse while visiting ONightwish and Ranan, which was great. :3
lordborel moved here to Columbus around August, which has been great :3 Been really nice to have someone to regularly have around for gaming and hanging out. I think if we move somewhere else we might have to drag him with us. :3
A bittersweet moment came in the fall, when
Jousterl and 
Skytea moved out to California, but it was a good move for them, and we'll just have to make sure we try to hard to visit our friends in KY still.
More visits from ONightwish and Ranan in November for Thor, and then a whole boatload of people came up in December for "Woof Wars", including ONightwish: nynn 
sekh765, Cygnovum, 
Nandrattle, and 
frozenfox. It was a huge amount of fun, and seeing star wars with friends was really great. :3
And through it all, the crazy political shit, some personal health stuff, weird fandom drama, and me feeling older in ways I dislike. Also lots of flying. More flying than I've ever done before, actually. Which that's kinda not much fun, but it's worth it to see people you enjoy hanging out with. :3
Also some personal (read adult) discoveries about my interests, that definitely have helped me discover more stuff I enjoy, and be more willling to engage on it. That's been nice, and thanks to you know who you are for... well a lot of help there, honestly. I appreciate it in a lot of ways, more than just the obvious. And thanks for putting up with me being... well, me. I really appreciate it, and I'm trying to do better over time.
So next year we're gonna at least hit FWA, AC, and MFF at least for a couple days. Beyond that I definitely wanna visit friends some more, and we have some plans to do that already in the works, and some that need to be planned further. I'm hoping the political BS settles some, but I don't have much faith that it will. Also hoping my personal health stuff get less ridiculous but... we'll see.
Through it all I know L0st will be with me as best he can, and I'll be there for him as best I can.
Sometimes, that's all you can plan on.
Happy New Year to you all, and I hope your next year is a little friendlier, a little more peaceful, or at least maybe a bit better in some other small way that's meaningful. If nothing else, I hope you all stay warm tomorrow, it's frigid out there.
Started off great, with a trip to Atlanta to hang with
ONightwish and 
Ranan at their new year's party. Rolled along to havung ONightwish: and lordborel up in march, which was wonderful even though I was sick. Then we got to surprise our friends by showing up at blfc, which was fun and interesting, if not always to my taste. Oh, and I got a body suit for my suit finished, and new handpaws made!And then AC happened, and my grandfather died, right in the middle of it. I'm still sorting that out. It hurts, a lot. Especially these first holidays without him. I just wish I'd had, well. More time. More chances to do things with him, and learn from him, and to keep around more of the things that meant so much to him and my grandmother.
Lots of other personal drama surrounded this, but I'm coping now, to some extent.
We went to Vancouver to visit
cygnovum and 
jerbie, and got to visit with 
chiswickgryphon, 
nynn and Artimoverne too. Then there was a trip to Atlanta to see the eclipse while visiting
ONightwish and Ranan, which was great. :3 lordborel moved here to Columbus around August, which has been great :3 Been really nice to have someone to regularly have around for gaming and hanging out. I think if we move somewhere else we might have to drag him with us. :3A bittersweet moment came in the fall, when
Jousterl and 
Skytea moved out to California, but it was a good move for them, and we'll just have to make sure we try to hard to visit our friends in KY still. More visits from
ONightwish and Ranan in November for Thor, and then a whole boatload of people came up in December for "Woof Wars", including ONightwish: nynn 
sekh765, Cygnovum, 
Nandrattle, and 
frozenfox. It was a huge amount of fun, and seeing star wars with friends was really great. :3And through it all, the crazy political shit, some personal health stuff, weird fandom drama, and me feeling older in ways I dislike. Also lots of flying. More flying than I've ever done before, actually. Which that's kinda not much fun, but it's worth it to see people you enjoy hanging out with. :3
Also some personal (read adult) discoveries about my interests, that definitely have helped me discover more stuff I enjoy, and be more willling to engage on it. That's been nice, and thanks to you know who you are for... well a lot of help there, honestly. I appreciate it in a lot of ways, more than just the obvious. And thanks for putting up with me being... well, me. I really appreciate it, and I'm trying to do better over time.
So next year we're gonna at least hit FWA, AC, and MFF at least for a couple days. Beyond that I definitely wanna visit friends some more, and we have some plans to do that already in the works, and some that need to be planned further. I'm hoping the political BS settles some, but I don't have much faith that it will. Also hoping my personal health stuff get less ridiculous but... we'll see.
Through it all I know
L0st will be with me as best he can, and I'll be there for him as best I can. Sometimes, that's all you can plan on.
Happy New Year to you all, and I hope your next year is a little friendlier, a little more peaceful, or at least maybe a bit better in some other small way that's meaningful. If nothing else, I hope you all stay warm tomorrow, it's frigid out there.
BLFC, AC, and Family
Posted 8 years agoFeel like I should post some bit of wrap up for con stuff this year, considering how much happened in such a short span.
L0st and I have wanted to try going to BLFC for a while, and every year it's seemed like some horrible thing has nipped those plans in the bud. This year we just said fuck it and decided to go. We got a nice tax return and spent it.
We also basically hid it from all our friends. And spent about three months hamming up how we wouldn't be there, and wouldn't see people, and how sad they'd be, and how sad we were.
Then we waltzed in during dinner on the first night and surprised the shit out of people :D
It was great fun, and absolutely wonderful to see some of our friends that we hadn't seen in far too long again. The con itself was very interesting. The dances were awesome, as was the go karting. The con space was neat, though the wifi and cell service was abysmal, and that made keeping in touch a real chore. We roomed with some people we hadn't before, and that turned out really well, actually. :3
I also finished a bodysuit for my fursuit! It came out not too bad. Definitely a my first bodysuit, but it's really inspired me to keep doing stuff on that front, and I'm really happy about it all. It's definitely got me wanting to make a version 2.0 that's better. and I love the pics I've taken with it. Really makes it easier to get in character :D
The booze and gambling fell a bit flat with me, but I kind of expected that, and I honestly think I handled it better than I thought I would, though I did have a small emotional moment. But it passed, and I enjoyed my time. The con just felt very different. I think part of it was the jetlag, but a lot was having the big fursuiting thing on Friday. It kinda made Saturday and Sunday feel very chill in an interesting way. I'd definitely go again, and I can see why people love it so much, but I'm not sure I'd go every year. L0st basically broke even gambling, so that was good :3
So 3 weeks later came AC. And family heartbreak. The Sunday before AC my parents took my grandfather to the hospital. He'd been feeling very weak, and we were very concerned. I came down sick with a cold that Monday, and his docs recommended against me visiting. So we readied for AC and entertained friends while I worried. My grandfather and parents assured me things would be ok, and despite my misgivings we set off for AC that Thursday.
AC as usual was a huge amount of fun. Again we spent more time with friends, and it was heartwarming and wonderful to be in the only con where the whole city seems to welcome us. AC will still never be beat for feeling like a furry home away from home. (The roads getting there are still terrifying, though. WHO PUTS A STOP SIGN AT THE BOTTOM OF AN ON RAMP ONTO A FREEWAY?)
Intermixed with all the joy was more sorrow, though. My parents told me Friday that a colonoscopy had found a tumor in my grandfather, and that they'd be performing surgery Saturday morning. His Cardiac specialist said it wasn't high risk, and I was still getting over my cold, so I stayed in Pittsburgh and cheerfully wished him luck and sent my love, and my grandfather and parents told me not to worry and to try and have fun.
It's a decision that I'm not really sure I'll ever be able to look back on without tremendous regret.
Saturday morning, his surgery went amazingly well. They'd predicted 6 hours, and it finished in 2. The weather, after a brief shower, parted to a beautiful day, and I happily went to the fursuit parade in my new fullsuit, and enjoyed the day with a spring in my step. I got to hang out with some friends at an actual speak easy, which was a surprisingly lovely experience, and I attempted to dance the night away in full suit, which I found out is (strangely enough) insanely hot and oh my god that was a bad idea.
And then Sunday morning rolled around, and my mom told me my grandfather had crashed late that night, and the doctors couldn't stabilize him. He had died, surrounded by family.
He's gone. And I didn't get to see him one last time.
I'll be honest, Sunday and Monday were a blur of goodbyes, heartache, and returning home. The week that followed was another blur of funeral preparation and remembrance with family. and now for one short week things are back to normal, before we go winging off to visit friends in Canada.
I am... Ok. This year, and this summer, have been a whirlwind of highs and lows. I'm still tearing up to write this, and over countless little things that remind me of the pain. What I am glad for is that my grandfather didn't suffer. He was able to do what he loved till the moment he died. And as painful as it was to lose someone in that situation, it did help to be surrounded by friends in that moment.
I'll see how the rest of the year goes, I guess, but so far, it's been... a mix.
L0st and I have wanted to try going to BLFC for a while, and every year it's seemed like some horrible thing has nipped those plans in the bud. This year we just said fuck it and decided to go. We got a nice tax return and spent it. We also basically hid it from all our friends. And spent about three months hamming up how we wouldn't be there, and wouldn't see people, and how sad they'd be, and how sad we were.
Then we waltzed in during dinner on the first night and surprised the shit out of people :D
It was great fun, and absolutely wonderful to see some of our friends that we hadn't seen in far too long again. The con itself was very interesting. The dances were awesome, as was the go karting. The con space was neat, though the wifi and cell service was abysmal, and that made keeping in touch a real chore. We roomed with some people we hadn't before, and that turned out really well, actually. :3
I also finished a bodysuit for my fursuit! It came out not too bad. Definitely a my first bodysuit, but it's really inspired me to keep doing stuff on that front, and I'm really happy about it all. It's definitely got me wanting to make a version 2.0 that's better. and I love the pics I've taken with it. Really makes it easier to get in character :D
The booze and gambling fell a bit flat with me, but I kind of expected that, and I honestly think I handled it better than I thought I would, though I did have a small emotional moment. But it passed, and I enjoyed my time. The con just felt very different. I think part of it was the jetlag, but a lot was having the big fursuiting thing on Friday. It kinda made Saturday and Sunday feel very chill in an interesting way. I'd definitely go again, and I can see why people love it so much, but I'm not sure I'd go every year.
L0st basically broke even gambling, so that was good :3So 3 weeks later came AC. And family heartbreak. The Sunday before AC my parents took my grandfather to the hospital. He'd been feeling very weak, and we were very concerned. I came down sick with a cold that Monday, and his docs recommended against me visiting. So we readied for AC and entertained friends while I worried. My grandfather and parents assured me things would be ok, and despite my misgivings we set off for AC that Thursday.
AC as usual was a huge amount of fun. Again we spent more time with friends, and it was heartwarming and wonderful to be in the only con where the whole city seems to welcome us. AC will still never be beat for feeling like a furry home away from home. (The roads getting there are still terrifying, though. WHO PUTS A STOP SIGN AT THE BOTTOM OF AN ON RAMP ONTO A FREEWAY?)
Intermixed with all the joy was more sorrow, though. My parents told me Friday that a colonoscopy had found a tumor in my grandfather, and that they'd be performing surgery Saturday morning. His Cardiac specialist said it wasn't high risk, and I was still getting over my cold, so I stayed in Pittsburgh and cheerfully wished him luck and sent my love, and my grandfather and parents told me not to worry and to try and have fun.
It's a decision that I'm not really sure I'll ever be able to look back on without tremendous regret.
Saturday morning, his surgery went amazingly well. They'd predicted 6 hours, and it finished in 2. The weather, after a brief shower, parted to a beautiful day, and I happily went to the fursuit parade in my new fullsuit, and enjoyed the day with a spring in my step. I got to hang out with some friends at an actual speak easy, which was a surprisingly lovely experience, and I attempted to dance the night away in full suit, which I found out is (strangely enough) insanely hot and oh my god that was a bad idea.
And then Sunday morning rolled around, and my mom told me my grandfather had crashed late that night, and the doctors couldn't stabilize him. He had died, surrounded by family.
He's gone. And I didn't get to see him one last time.
I'll be honest, Sunday and Monday were a blur of goodbyes, heartache, and returning home. The week that followed was another blur of funeral preparation and remembrance with family. and now for one short week things are back to normal, before we go winging off to visit friends in Canada.
I am... Ok. This year, and this summer, have been a whirlwind of highs and lows. I'm still tearing up to write this, and over countless little things that remind me of the pain. What I am glad for is that my grandfather didn't suffer. He was able to do what he loved till the moment he died. And as painful as it was to lose someone in that situation, it did help to be surrounded by friends in that moment.
I'll see how the rest of the year goes, I guess, but so far, it's been... a mix.
Merry Christmas
Posted 8 years agoYiffmas murry... lol.
slightly drunk atm. Have to bake in the morning. Lord
slightly drunk atm. Have to bake in the morning. Lord
Not really interested in talking about what happened
Posted 9 years agoEveryone feels how they feel about it. I feel scared for my future, even as I'm determined to fight for it. I don't really know what else to say.
May be quiet for a while. Need to do what I can to set up contingencies as needed for the days ahead, and see where I can pitch in to help hold the line.
May be quiet for a while. Need to do what I can to set up contingencies as needed for the days ahead, and see where I can pitch in to help hold the line.
Married
Posted 9 years ago l0st and I got married today. Our families and many friends came, and many more wished us well from online. It was a perfect day, and everything went beautifully. So many wonderful people came together to join our celebration. It was truly the kind of magical, lovely day I had dreamed of. Now I'm surrounded by friends enjoying a fun evening, before
l0st and I take a short trip to a quiet cabin in a state park for a few days of rest. I am truly, deeply happy, tonight.
Post AC 2016
Posted 9 years agoI normally write long, detailed journals about AC. Not doing that this year. The con was lovely and I saw and hung out with a lot of people I love, and had a blast in the parade and on the dance floor and running around in suit. Got some nice stuff too. But I also had some nasty depression hit me Friday and some stomach trouble Sunday. Made some mistakes in how I treated people, and let some things get to me I shouldn't have.
Overall it was a good con, but I clearly still need to work on how I deal with people and myself at a con.
Overall it was a good con, but I clearly still need to work on how I deal with people and myself at a con.
AC Meme
Posted 9 years agoWhere are you staying?
The Courtyard
What day are you getting there?
Wednesday afternoon, I think
How are you traveling?
By car with l0st & frozenfox probably caravaning with jousterl and skytea
Who will you be rooming with?
l0st, frozenfox, 
saidan and 
mechanicalchicken
How is the best way to find you?
Tweet me, catch me on telegram, or txt me if you have my number. I’ll be running around all over as usual trying to see all my friends and such. Or just look for me in my fursuit :D
Are there any panels you might be attending?
I will probably try to sit in on some art panels if I can, and some fursuiting panels. What this means is I’ll look at the schedule and see that exactly none of them fit, and feel bad and then go hang with friends :p
What do you look like?
A gray wolf with a white splotch on the top of my tail.
Alternatively, a tall heavy set white guy with glasses and a backpack. Totally easy to spot in a crowd of furries right?
Will you be suiting?
Yup!
Do you do free art?
No.
Do you do trades?
Noop
Do you do badges?
Noop
What is your gender?
Male
Can I talk to you?
Sure, but introduce yourself and whatnot, and don’t expect much, I’m really very shy and I have a hard time talking to people at all. Sorry.
Can I touch you?
Ask first.
Can I visit your room?
Not unless we invite you in, no.
Can I buy you drinks?
No I usually prefer to get my own,and I don't really like most drinks anyways.
Can I give you stuff?
Um, that might be weird if I don’t know you.
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
That's something I reserve for certain people. If I'm in suit though just ask.
Are you nice?
Um, I guess so. Mostly I feel like I’m pretty quiet just cause I get kinda overwhelmed from all the social stuff at big cons.
How long are you going?
We’re staying till Monday morning and heading home then.
Do you have an artist table?
Noop
Will you be going to parties?
Um, not really planning to, never been invited to any before anyways. I guess if it came up and l0st was invited and we didn’t have other stuff going on we might.
If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Say hi, introduce yourself, etc.
Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
God only knows. AC is insanely nuts.
What/where will you be eating?
With friends, when I get hungry.
Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
If you're invited.
Can I take your picture?
Um, if I’m in suit sure as long as I don’t look like a total idiot. Out of suit please ask.
What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
Visit with people that I don’t get to meet that often, play around in my suit and enjoy the hell out of it, be social as much as I can bring myself to me, and just have fun.
The Courtyard
What day are you getting there?
Wednesday afternoon, I think
How are you traveling?
By car with
l0st & frozenfox probably caravaning with jousterl and skyteaWho will you be rooming with?
l0st, frozenfox, 
saidan and 
mechanicalchicken How is the best way to find you?
Tweet me, catch me on telegram, or txt me if you have my number. I’ll be running around all over as usual trying to see all my friends and such. Or just look for me in my fursuit :D
Are there any panels you might be attending?
I will probably try to sit in on some art panels if I can, and some fursuiting panels. What this means is I’ll look at the schedule and see that exactly none of them fit, and feel bad and then go hang with friends :p
What do you look like?
A gray wolf with a white splotch on the top of my tail.
Alternatively, a tall heavy set white guy with glasses and a backpack. Totally easy to spot in a crowd of furries right?
Will you be suiting?
Yup!
Do you do free art?
No.
Do you do trades?
Noop
Do you do badges?
Noop
What is your gender?
Male
Can I talk to you?
Sure, but introduce yourself and whatnot, and don’t expect much, I’m really very shy and I have a hard time talking to people at all. Sorry.
Can I touch you?
Ask first.
Can I visit your room?
Not unless we invite you in, no.
Can I buy you drinks?
No I usually prefer to get my own,and I don't really like most drinks anyways.
Can I give you stuff?
Um, that might be weird if I don’t know you.
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
That's something I reserve for certain people. If I'm in suit though just ask.
Are you nice?
Um, I guess so. Mostly I feel like I’m pretty quiet just cause I get kinda overwhelmed from all the social stuff at big cons.
How long are you going?
We’re staying till Monday morning and heading home then.
Do you have an artist table?
Noop
Will you be going to parties?
Um, not really planning to, never been invited to any before anyways. I guess if it came up and
l0st was invited and we didn’t have other stuff going on we might.If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Say hi, introduce yourself, etc.
Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
God only knows. AC is insanely nuts.
What/where will you be eating?
With friends, when I get hungry.
Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
If you're invited.
Can I take your picture?
Um, if I’m in suit sure as long as I don’t look like a total idiot. Out of suit please ask.
What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
Visit with people that I don’t get to meet that often, play around in my suit and enjoy the hell out of it, be social as much as I can bring myself to me, and just have fun.
AC 2015 reflections
Posted 10 years agoAs usual with these journals, if I forget, remember incorrectly, or leave something/someone out of things, please allow me to beg forgiveness. Cons are nuts, my memory is occasionally poor, and in this case, I was hopped up on meds for a significant portion of the con. I mean no offense nor intend any slight with such errors.
(I’ll use people’s icon thing once in this journal, then use their name, just cause otherwise it’ll be dumb)
So, this years AC was somewhat different than previous. It was still amazingly great, but came very close to being heartbreakingly bad.
To start out with frozenfox flew in from Chicago to ride out with l0st and I, since it was cheaper than flying direct to Pittsburgh. JousterL and Skytea also drove up Tuesday night so we could caravan out Wednesday, so we went out for sushi and frozen yogurt that night. :3
Wednesday we left in Lost’s new car, and caravaned out to AC. All in all it was a quiet smooth ride, and we much appreciated the extra room. We got in a bit after lunch, and met up with some of our friends. Unfortunately many people’s flights were delayed because of the United mess up that day, but pretty much everyone who wanted to be in by Wednesday made it, with a few exceptions.
We went to the national aviary with sekh765 cygnovum Lost, Frozen, Jouster, Sky, and myself. It was a bit of a tight squeeze but we made it work. The aviary itself was really amazing, and Sekh got to feed a mot mot from his hand, which was cool to see.
We ate with a decent sized group at tenpenny for dinner, then we went to the old zoo and got drunk and played games. I managed to overpour for myself a bit, and got far drunker than I have ever been before. While it was a bit fun, it’s not something I’d want to do again, so I think I’ll have to work out a better system for that. Maybe just mix up a bottle of my usual for each night and nurse that through? I dunno.
Thursday we woke up kinda late, and spent the day chilling with friends. Lost and I were a bit hungover. :p I found out to my chagrin that I'd either forgotten to pre reg, or my attempt hadn't gone through, so I spent a while in the reg line, then needed to chill for a while from being around so many people for so long. (Crowds I don't know still kinda do me in a bit. Next year, I'll be sure to ping the AC staff if the email confirmation doesn't appear. Lesson learned.) Thursday night was the big group dinner at sharp edge, and was a huge amount of fun, but also sorta loud and crazy. I ended up suiting up to hit the dance for a while, then I went to join my friends gaming, then finally I went to bed, exhausted.
Friday was the start of the con, and the start of the problems. saidan had come in with a bit of a stomach bug, and it turns out Lost and I had caught it. I normally take phenergan for stomach trouble, but the problem is it acts as a sedative. So I didn’t throw up, but the entire day I was sort of shambling around like a zombie or sleeping in my room, and I barely ate. It was really heartbreaking to not have the energy to dance Friday night, and Lost and I ended up pretty emotionally broken down at various points that day and evening. I did try to go to the dance while Lost and Sekh went suiting, but I just couldn't do it.
Saturday I woke and finally just fell apart completely, cause I still wasn’t feeling better. The thought of missing the biggest two days of the con to being sick, in a year when we’d had to give up hitting any other big cons, was just far too much. But I went ahead and took some phenergan, and did the parade. I was determined to at least make it through the photoshoot prior.
Amazingly, putting on my fursuit and going out in it perked me up like nothing else had. I was hugely cheered up and feeling better, and made it through the amazing parade that Anthrocon put on that let us go outside in front of a huge and amazingly enthusiastic and happy crowd. After that I went to take a short nap, before meeting up with other :kilcodocostumes: fursuiters put together by
elbi It was great to see some other suiters from my maker, and I can’t wait to see the pics from that.
After that I went and found my Lost, Sekh,
ryujikimura 
zennyfox and other waiting to act as backup dancers for 
ledoux in the masquerade. I asked if I could join in, and they let me! So I went up on stage and dance to the rubber band song with them and tossed rubber bands at the crowd. :D (side note, it’s really hard to shoot them off your fingers when wearing paws!) If nothing else, it looked like Uncle Kage was picking them up to use as ammo, so I think we entertained people one way or another.
So then I rested a bit, and dragged Lost to the dance with me. I was gonna be damned if I missed dancing in suit with my mate for an entire con. The DJ from 12 to 1 AM (dragonboy?) was absolutely amazing, and it was probably one of the best dances in my life. I couldn't believe I had enough energy to dance for so long in suit, but I was just having such an amazing time I didn’t want to stop, especially as more of our friends showed up. :D If nothing else, Saturday definitely made up for missing Friday. Finally, I went to bed totally exhausted, and slept late into Sunday.
I made some more passes of the dealers den and artists alley, and did some more suiting that afternoon before closing ceremonies. After closing we hit up the Mercato Meatball joint across from the courtyard with a small group, and I finally chowed down after barely eating all weekend. I was tired but feeling good as we settled into game for a while near the old zoo, then Lost and Chiswick decided to trade suits, so I suited up along with Sekh, and with Frozen and lordborel in tow we ran around the Westin for a while. Again, as late as we could stand, we finally fell asleep exhausted.
Monday was the normal sad wake up, trudge to Brueggers, and exchange goodbyes as we packed up and left. It was sad to leave our friends behind, and the weather seemed to reflect that as we got home and dropped off Frozen in the rain.
Thankfully as of this writing all but one friend is home safe, and he’s currently winging home, so, (knock on wood), he’ll be home safe tomorrow.
I do want to thank all the friends who reached out to check on me and help out at various points to try and make the con as best it could be despite my illness. It was heartwarming and really did help, even if I didn't always look like it did.
All in all this AC was an amazing and wonderful experience where I met new people, had an amazing time, and did things I never thought I’d do. (be in a parade in front of 5000 people in suit, be on stage in front of hundreds of people in suit). It was incredibly saddening that I missed out on so much Friday, and part of Thursday and Saturday, but I’m going to take it as a learning experience on how to deal with losing out on time at a con, and try to handle it better in the future. I have some commissions to look forward to in the future, but for now I need to hit the rack and get back to the real world.
I hope those of you who went had a good time, and those that did not had a decent weekend at least in the meantime.
(I’ll use people’s icon thing once in this journal, then use their name, just cause otherwise it’ll be dumb)
So, this years AC was somewhat different than previous. It was still amazingly great, but came very close to being heartbreakingly bad.
To start out with
frozenfox flew in from Chicago to ride out with l0st and I, since it was cheaper than flying direct to Pittsburgh. JousterL and Skytea also drove up Tuesday night so we could caravan out Wednesday, so we went out for sushi and frozen yogurt that night. :3Wednesday we left in Lost’s new car, and caravaned out to AC. All in all it was a quiet smooth ride, and we much appreciated the extra room. We got in a bit after lunch, and met up with some of our friends. Unfortunately many people’s flights were delayed because of the United mess up that day, but pretty much everyone who wanted to be in by Wednesday made it, with a few exceptions.
We went to the national aviary with
sekh765 cygnovum Lost, Frozen, Jouster, Sky, and myself. It was a bit of a tight squeeze but we made it work. The aviary itself was really amazing, and Sekh got to feed a mot mot from his hand, which was cool to see. We ate with a decent sized group at tenpenny for dinner, then we went to the old zoo and got drunk and played games. I managed to overpour for myself a bit, and got far drunker than I have ever been before. While it was a bit fun, it’s not something I’d want to do again, so I think I’ll have to work out a better system for that. Maybe just mix up a bottle of my usual for each night and nurse that through? I dunno.
Thursday we woke up kinda late, and spent the day chilling with friends. Lost and I were a bit hungover. :p I found out to my chagrin that I'd either forgotten to pre reg, or my attempt hadn't gone through, so I spent a while in the reg line, then needed to chill for a while from being around so many people for so long. (Crowds I don't know still kinda do me in a bit. Next year, I'll be sure to ping the AC staff if the email confirmation doesn't appear. Lesson learned.) Thursday night was the big group dinner at sharp edge, and was a huge amount of fun, but also sorta loud and crazy. I ended up suiting up to hit the dance for a while, then I went to join my friends gaming, then finally I went to bed, exhausted.
Friday was the start of the con, and the start of the problems.
saidan had come in with a bit of a stomach bug, and it turns out Lost and I had caught it. I normally take phenergan for stomach trouble, but the problem is it acts as a sedative. So I didn’t throw up, but the entire day I was sort of shambling around like a zombie or sleeping in my room, and I barely ate. It was really heartbreaking to not have the energy to dance Friday night, and Lost and I ended up pretty emotionally broken down at various points that day and evening. I did try to go to the dance while Lost and Sekh went suiting, but I just couldn't do it. Saturday I woke and finally just fell apart completely, cause I still wasn’t feeling better. The thought of missing the biggest two days of the con to being sick, in a year when we’d had to give up hitting any other big cons, was just far too much. But I went ahead and took some phenergan, and did the parade. I was determined to at least make it through the photoshoot prior.
Amazingly, putting on my fursuit and going out in it perked me up like nothing else had. I was hugely cheered up and feeling better, and made it through the amazing parade that Anthrocon put on that let us go outside in front of a huge and amazingly enthusiastic and happy crowd. After that I went to take a short nap, before meeting up with other :kilcodocostumes: fursuiters put together by
elbi It was great to see some other suiters from my maker, and I can’t wait to see the pics from that. After that I went and found my Lost, Sekh,
ryujikimura 
zennyfox and other waiting to act as backup dancers for 
ledoux in the masquerade. I asked if I could join in, and they let me! So I went up on stage and dance to the rubber band song with them and tossed rubber bands at the crowd. :D (side note, it’s really hard to shoot them off your fingers when wearing paws!) If nothing else, it looked like Uncle Kage was picking them up to use as ammo, so I think we entertained people one way or another. So then I rested a bit, and dragged Lost to the dance with me. I was gonna be damned if I missed dancing in suit with my mate for an entire con. The DJ from 12 to 1 AM (dragonboy?) was absolutely amazing, and it was probably one of the best dances in my life. I couldn't believe I had enough energy to dance for so long in suit, but I was just having such an amazing time I didn’t want to stop, especially as more of our friends showed up. :D If nothing else, Saturday definitely made up for missing Friday. Finally, I went to bed totally exhausted, and slept late into Sunday.
I made some more passes of the dealers den and artists alley, and did some more suiting that afternoon before closing ceremonies. After closing we hit up the Mercato Meatball joint across from the courtyard with a small group, and I finally chowed down after barely eating all weekend. I was tired but feeling good as we settled into game for a while near the old zoo, then Lost and Chiswick decided to trade suits, so I suited up along with Sekh, and with Frozen and
lordborel in tow we ran around the Westin for a while. Again, as late as we could stand, we finally fell asleep exhausted. Monday was the normal sad wake up, trudge to Brueggers, and exchange goodbyes as we packed up and left. It was sad to leave our friends behind, and the weather seemed to reflect that as we got home and dropped off Frozen in the rain.
Thankfully as of this writing all but one friend is home safe, and he’s currently winging home, so, (knock on wood), he’ll be home safe tomorrow.
I do want to thank all the friends who reached out to check on me and help out at various points to try and make the con as best it could be despite my illness. It was heartwarming and really did help, even if I didn't always look like it did.
All in all this AC was an amazing and wonderful experience where I met new people, had an amazing time, and did things I never thought I’d do. (be in a parade in front of 5000 people in suit, be on stage in front of hundreds of people in suit). It was incredibly saddening that I missed out on so much Friday, and part of Thursday and Saturday, but I’m going to take it as a learning experience on how to deal with losing out on time at a con, and try to handle it better in the future. I have some commissions to look forward to in the future, but for now I need to hit the rack and get back to the real world.
I hope those of you who went had a good time, and those that did not had a decent weekend at least in the meantime.
AC 2015
Posted 10 years agoWhere are you staying?
The Courtyard
What day are you getting there?
Wednesday afternoon, I think
How are you traveling?
By car with l0st & frozenfox probably caravaning with jousterl and skytea
Who will you be rooming with?
l0st, frozenfox, saidan and mechanicalchicken
How is the best way to find you?
Tweet me, or txt me if you have my number. I’ll be running around all over as usual trying to see all my friends and such. Or just look for me in my fursuit :D
Are there any panels you might be attending?
I will probably try to sit in on some art panels if I can, and some fursuiting panels. What this means is I’ll look at the schedule and see that exactly none of them fit, and feel bad and then go hang with friends :p
What do you look like?
A gray wolf with a white splotch on the top of my tail.
Alternatively, a tall heavy set white guy with glasses and a backpack. Totally easy to spot in a crowd of furries right?
Will you be suiting?
Yup!
Do you do free art?
No.
Do you do trades?
Noop
Do you do badges?
Noop
What is your gender?
Male
Can I talk to you?
Sure, but introduce yourself and whatnot, and don’t expect much, I’m really very shy and I have a hard time talking to people at all. Sorry.
Can I touch you?
Ask first.
Can I visit your room?
Not unless we invite you in, no.
Can I buy you drinks?
No I usually prefer to get my own,and I don't really like most drinks anyways.
Can I give you stuff?
Um, that might be weird if I don’t know you.
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
That's something I reserve for certain people. If I'm in suit though just ask.
Are you nice?
Um, I guess so. Mostly I feel like I’m pretty quiet just cause I get kinda overwhelmed from all the social stuff at big cons.
How long are you going?
We’re staying till Monday morning and heading home then.
Do you have an artist table?
Noop
Will you be going to parties?
Um, not really planning to, never been invited to any before anyways. I guess if it came up and l0st was invited and we didn’t have other stuff going on we might.
If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Say hi, introduce yourself, etc.
Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
God only knows. AC is insanely nuts.
What/where will you be eating?
With friends, when I get hungry.
Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
If you're invited.
Can I take your picture?
Um, if I’m in suit sure as long as I don’t look like a total idiot. Out of suit please ask.
What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
Visit with people that I don’t get to meet that often, play around in my suit and enjoy the hell out of it, be social as much as I can bring myself to me, and just have fun.
The Courtyard
What day are you getting there?
Wednesday afternoon, I think
How are you traveling?
By car with
l0st & frozenfox probably caravaning with jousterl and skyteaWho will you be rooming with?
l0st, frozenfox, saidan and mechanicalchicken How is the best way to find you?
Tweet me, or txt me if you have my number. I’ll be running around all over as usual trying to see all my friends and such. Or just look for me in my fursuit :D
Are there any panels you might be attending?
I will probably try to sit in on some art panels if I can, and some fursuiting panels. What this means is I’ll look at the schedule and see that exactly none of them fit, and feel bad and then go hang with friends :p
What do you look like?
A gray wolf with a white splotch on the top of my tail.
Alternatively, a tall heavy set white guy with glasses and a backpack. Totally easy to spot in a crowd of furries right?
Will you be suiting?
Yup!
Do you do free art?
No.
Do you do trades?
Noop
Do you do badges?
Noop
What is your gender?
Male
Can I talk to you?
Sure, but introduce yourself and whatnot, and don’t expect much, I’m really very shy and I have a hard time talking to people at all. Sorry.
Can I touch you?
Ask first.
Can I visit your room?
Not unless we invite you in, no.
Can I buy you drinks?
No I usually prefer to get my own,and I don't really like most drinks anyways.
Can I give you stuff?
Um, that might be weird if I don’t know you.
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
That's something I reserve for certain people. If I'm in suit though just ask.
Are you nice?
Um, I guess so. Mostly I feel like I’m pretty quiet just cause I get kinda overwhelmed from all the social stuff at big cons.
How long are you going?
We’re staying till Monday morning and heading home then.
Do you have an artist table?
Noop
Will you be going to parties?
Um, not really planning to, never been invited to any before anyways. I guess if it came up and
l0st was invited and we didn’t have other stuff going on we might.If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Say hi, introduce yourself, etc.
Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
God only knows. AC is insanely nuts.
What/where will you be eating?
With friends, when I get hungry.
Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
If you're invited.
Can I take your picture?
Um, if I’m in suit sure as long as I don’t look like a total idiot. Out of suit please ask.
What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
Visit with people that I don’t get to meet that often, play around in my suit and enjoy the hell out of it, be social as much as I can bring myself to me, and just have fun.
OMG This is driving me crazy
Posted 10 years agoBack in mid to late spring of 2013 I commissioned somebody who had just gotten a vinyl cutting thingy to make Lost and I stickers showing headshots of our characters, to be picked up at AC. I cannot for the life of me figure out who the hell it was.
Here's a link to a scan of the one Lost got.
http://imgur.com/2xRN8qE
Anyone recognize who mighta done this? It runs in my mind it was someone who lived in Ohio, or who had a table with someone that lived in ohio at AC but I cannot bloody remember. And I know I sat in the damn stream while they drew it, but I've checked the few I can think of that run in my mind as being likely and they don't have anything about it in old scrap or journals. I can't believe I never bothered to write that down.
It's bugging the hell out of me, any help is appreciated.
Anyways I'm just asking cause Lost decided to put his on his new DS and I was like "I should put mine on something finally and then post pics and credit the artist" and then I was like "the artist... who is..." :/
So yeah. um... anybody?
Here's a link to a scan of the one Lost got.
http://imgur.com/2xRN8qE
Anyone recognize who mighta done this? It runs in my mind it was someone who lived in Ohio, or who had a table with someone that lived in ohio at AC but I cannot bloody remember. And I know I sat in the damn stream while they drew it, but I've checked the few I can think of that run in my mind as being likely and they don't have anything about it in old scrap or journals. I can't believe I never bothered to write that down.
It's bugging the hell out of me, any help is appreciated.
Anyways I'm just asking cause Lost decided to put his on his new DS and I was like "I should put mine on something finally and then post pics and credit the artist" and then I was like "the artist... who is..." :/
So yeah. um... anybody?
bday and new year
Posted 10 years agoYesterday (the 3rd) was my birthday. Also start of a nrew year just before that.
2014 was an ok year for me, though I'm hoping 2015 will be better. Still a lot to learn in life and such, and I guess last year was learning what I need to be better at, and what my limits are.
Hope your new years are starting off ok, and heres to an improving 2015.
2014 was an ok year for me, though I'm hoping 2015 will be better. Still a lot to learn in life and such, and I guess last year was learning what I need to be better at, and what my limits are.
Hope your new years are starting off ok, and heres to an improving 2015.
mff was kinda crazy.
Posted 11 years agoWill try to sum things up when I can gather my thoughts better. For now l0st and I are home safe, though both a bit under the weather. I have a great deal to think on in the next little while, and work to do back in the real world.
Also pcd sucks.
l0st and I are home safe, though both a bit under the weather. I have a great deal to think on in the next little while, and work to do back in the real world. Also pcd sucks.
Character Meme, Ferinoch
Posted 11 years agoTagged by l0st Blame him for this silliness.
D:
RULES :
1. Pick one of your OCs. or how many you want
2. Fill in the questions/statements as if you were your OC.
3. Tag at least four people to do this meme!
4. Tell people that they been tagged with a link from your journal
Answer as your OC/keep in character.
Ferinoch
1. What is your name?
Ferinoch, right now. More formally, Capt Declin Mactire, master of the airship Freedom's Price.
2. Do you know why you were named that?
I took a new name when I left my home world, and was stranded far across the multiverse.
3. Single or taken?
Taken, by my beloved l0st
4. Have any abilities or powers?
I'm a mage, as are all airshipmen on my world. Recently I began tinkering with my mate's electronic technology. I swear most of the time it end perfectly fine... Most of the time...
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12509972/
5. Stop being a Mary Sue!
Not sure I get that reference.
6. What's your eye color?
Teal
7. How about hair color?
Gray fur. Hopefully it doesn't go white too fast.
8. Have you any family members?
My parents, I hope, are still alive on my home world. Some extended family too. No siblings.
9. Oh? How about pets?
Not at the moment, though from time to time I've wondered if my crew should be considered such. :/
10. That's cool, I guess. Now tell me something you don't like.
People who abuse their authority.
11. Do you have any activities/hobbies that you like to do?
I've been enjoying learning about electronics technology and exploring my mate's ship. It's impressive. Not as elegant as mine, but impressive.
12. Have you ever hurt anyone in any way before?
I fought in a war to overthrow the corrupt Empress and Princes of my homeland, and have defended myself as needed. I don't go out of my way to start a fight, but I damn well will finish it.
13. Ever… killed anyone before?
When I've been left with no other choice, yes.
14. What kind of animal are you?
You'd consider me closest to a wolf, I suppose.
15. Name your worst habits.
I'm occasionally lazy, and I don't like crowds.
16. Do you look up to anyone at all?
My friends, my mate, my parents.
17. Are you gay, straight, or bisexual?
I suppose gay is the best term, though my people never made such a fuss over it.
18. Do you go to school?
I haven't been to school in a long time.
19. Ever want to marry and have kids one day?
Some day, probably sooner than later.
20. Do you have fangirls/fanboys?
Not that I know of.
21. What are you most afraid of?
Too many things.
22. What do you usually wear?
Typically I wear pants and a light shirt along with my glasses, and a jacket when it's cold enough. I have goggles for when I'm flying.
23. What's one food that tempts you?
Sweets. I need to work on that.
24. What class are you (low class, middle class, high class)?
From what I've read, I suppose my parents would have been considered part of the early middle class on my home world. At the moment, I suppose I don't really have a class, considering I ride around at a whim on my mate's ship.
25. How many friends do you have?
A few very close ones, several good ones, and a few more distant ones.
26. What are your thoughts on pie?
Any particular type? Hardly a useful question.
27. Favorite drink?
Apple cider, with some liquer in it.
28. What's your favorite place?
Any cool, quiet forest, with a good place to launch my ship from. There was a lovely glade near outside the city my parents lived in that I loved quite dearly. I've tried to find some place like it. For now I suppose the bedroom my mate and I share is a good substitute. It's quiet there, and the view is often quite lovely.
29. Are you interested in anyone~?
My mate, if that's what you're going for.
30. Would you rather swim in a lake or the ocean?
My home world didn't have any real oceans, the way you know them. At least none that my people had access to. I suppose I prefer a lake, the water's not too brackish to drink, and I need't worry about large predators for the most part.
31. What's your type?
I suppose someone that's comfortable taking charge at times. Someone intelligent enough to carry a decent conversation, and who can enjoy a companionable silence from time to time.
32. Any fetishes?
Ask me when I know you better.
33. Seme or uke?
I don't really care for those terms.
34. Camping or indoors?
I still enjoy the outdoors, but I'll admit that the climate control on my mate's ship has spoiled me a bit. That and so many worlds are far too warm for my thick fur. I'll take the indoors if I have a choice.
35. Tag People!
cygnovum lordborel mechanicalchicken 
andreus
l0st Blame him for this silliness. D:
RULES :
1. Pick one of your OCs. or how many you want
2. Fill in the questions/statements as if you were your OC.
3. Tag at least four people to do this meme!
4. Tell people that they been tagged with a link from your journal
Answer as your OC/keep in character.
Ferinoch
1. What is your name?
Ferinoch, right now. More formally, Capt Declin Mactire, master of the airship Freedom's Price.
2. Do you know why you were named that?
I took a new name when I left my home world, and was stranded far across the multiverse.
3. Single or taken?
Taken, by my beloved
l0st4. Have any abilities or powers?
I'm a mage, as are all airshipmen on my world. Recently I began tinkering with my mate's electronic technology. I swear most of the time it end perfectly fine... Most of the time...
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12509972/
5. Stop being a Mary Sue!
Not sure I get that reference.
6. What's your eye color?
Teal
7. How about hair color?
Gray fur. Hopefully it doesn't go white too fast.
8. Have you any family members?
My parents, I hope, are still alive on my home world. Some extended family too. No siblings.
9. Oh? How about pets?
Not at the moment, though from time to time I've wondered if my crew should be considered such. :/
10. That's cool, I guess. Now tell me something you don't like.
People who abuse their authority.
11. Do you have any activities/hobbies that you like to do?
I've been enjoying learning about electronics technology and exploring my mate's ship. It's impressive. Not as elegant as mine, but impressive.
12. Have you ever hurt anyone in any way before?
I fought in a war to overthrow the corrupt Empress and Princes of my homeland, and have defended myself as needed. I don't go out of my way to start a fight, but I damn well will finish it.
13. Ever… killed anyone before?
When I've been left with no other choice, yes.
14. What kind of animal are you?
You'd consider me closest to a wolf, I suppose.
15. Name your worst habits.
I'm occasionally lazy, and I don't like crowds.
16. Do you look up to anyone at all?
My friends, my mate, my parents.
17. Are you gay, straight, or bisexual?
I suppose gay is the best term, though my people never made such a fuss over it.
18. Do you go to school?
I haven't been to school in a long time.
19. Ever want to marry and have kids one day?
Some day, probably sooner than later.
20. Do you have fangirls/fanboys?
Not that I know of.
21. What are you most afraid of?
Too many things.
22. What do you usually wear?
Typically I wear pants and a light shirt along with my glasses, and a jacket when it's cold enough. I have goggles for when I'm flying.
23. What's one food that tempts you?
Sweets. I need to work on that.
24. What class are you (low class, middle class, high class)?
From what I've read, I suppose my parents would have been considered part of the early middle class on my home world. At the moment, I suppose I don't really have a class, considering I ride around at a whim on my mate's ship.
25. How many friends do you have?
A few very close ones, several good ones, and a few more distant ones.
26. What are your thoughts on pie?
Any particular type? Hardly a useful question.
27. Favorite drink?
Apple cider, with some liquer in it.
28. What's your favorite place?
Any cool, quiet forest, with a good place to launch my ship from. There was a lovely glade near outside the city my parents lived in that I loved quite dearly. I've tried to find some place like it. For now I suppose the bedroom my mate and I share is a good substitute. It's quiet there, and the view is often quite lovely.
29. Are you interested in anyone~?
My mate, if that's what you're going for.
30. Would you rather swim in a lake or the ocean?
My home world didn't have any real oceans, the way you know them. At least none that my people had access to. I suppose I prefer a lake, the water's not too brackish to drink, and I need't worry about large predators for the most part.
31. What's your type?
I suppose someone that's comfortable taking charge at times. Someone intelligent enough to carry a decent conversation, and who can enjoy a companionable silence from time to time.
32. Any fetishes?
Ask me when I know you better.
33. Seme or uke?
I don't really care for those terms.
34. Camping or indoors?
I still enjoy the outdoors, but I'll admit that the climate control on my mate's ship has spoiled me a bit. That and so many worlds are far too warm for my thick fur. I'll take the indoors if I have a choice.
35. Tag People!
cygnovum lordborel mechanicalchicken 
andreusAssume away
Posted 11 years agoWell l0st did it, so what the hell. TMI Tuesady journals don't get much play over here. Tell me your assumptions about me, and I'll like.. tell you if their wrong or whatever I guess.
l0st did it, so what the hell. TMI Tuesady journals don't get much play over here. Tell me your assumptions about me, and I'll like.. tell you if their wrong or whatever I guess. AC 2014
Posted 11 years agoSo, finally organized all my thoughts for the usual grand AC journal.
I'm only gonna do the icon thing once per person cause we met up with a crapload of people and if I do it too much it's gonna error out by the end. :p Also apologies to people I leave out, or for anything I get wrong. It was a whirlwind weekend. I know I had fun, but some of it has already blurred together.
l0st and I caravaned in to Pittsburgh with jousterl Along the way we picked up mechanicalchicken and frozenfox at the airport. The trip was uneventful, but having walkie talkies to chat between cars made it go nice and quick.
Once we got settled in the courtyard hotel, we wandered over to the zoo, eventually our whole group met there and we went to dinner with (deep breath) sekh765 andreus 
enixh lordborel 
reverendbrowning 
faust_the_closet_fur 
lone.companion saidan cygnovum 
ben56 
felixfox nandrattle. I think there may have been others. We had like twenty people. So we went to dinner.
First dinner was at a fantastic Belgian styled beer and dinner place called Sharp Edge. Incredible food, great beer selection. After that it was to the zoo to hang. Unfortunately the air conditioning hadn't been cycled up enough, so I was kinda fying in the heat, especially cause I went suiting a bit to test things out. I ended up retreating to bed about midnight.
We woke the next morning and hung out for most of the day, hitting the reg line when it opened to get our badges. A few people in our horde didn't pre reg and ended up waiting a while, but even with the computers going down for a bit it wasn't too bad considering the number of people in line. I think on that day we also met up with
micksam7 
twilight_saint 
pathia 
procyonid and some others. We had some good fun, and I think we might have suited a bit to play around? We ended the night in the zoo playing room party I think, then went to the dance in suit, which was a blast. :D
Friday we hit the line for our fursuiting badges from ops, which was fun thought a bit long. After that we hit the dealers den, then went to our usual group outing to August Henry's. Fantastic food and service there, totally worth hitting it up when you have time.
Friday night I went dancing again, and I believe we ended the night in the zoo playing some game or another. I think that was the night Sekh and Felix brought out Booze Cube, a drinking game variant on Magic the Gathering. Or that may have been Satuday. I know early on we went suiting and saw the fireworks on the roof of the convention center, enjoying the beauty and teasing Andreus by wishing him a "happy treason day" :D
Saturday was more time in the dealer's den, and followed by my first fursuit group photo and parade. Andreus in
vexfursuit and I ended up heading up a flock of birdbrains including Jouster, Lost, and ryujikimura. and we're basically dead center in the group picture. :D
After the parade we desuited and chilled some, then did dinner and ended went drinking for a bit before going to Whose Lion is it anyways. Only weird thing of the whole con was some of our dinner group got a little more hammered than usual from the $6 long islands they had at dinner at August Henry's I guess unfortunately when they make big batches some end up pretty strong. So some minor issues occurred finding places for people to safely sleep it off, but no real harm done. I danced some more before Drinking and Whose Lion too. :D
Sunday was a final round of the dealer's den. I ended up commissioning Ben56 for some pics while before he left, and also got a commission in the artist alley, along with some prints and other things. Sunday night we had dinner at Sharp Edge again, who had discovered to their horror that furries eat. A lot. They literally ran out of french fries and sweet potato fries while we were there, and were down to their last bin of salad. Our waiter that night though was super cool and fun, and we had a good time. Sunday night we ended the night gaming in the zoo, and I was so beat I turned in early.
Monday morning we got packed up, and carvand back to Columbus with Jouster, dropping Frozenfox and MechanicalChicken back at the airport as we left.
Overall Highs -
Suiting, especially dancning in suit, was amazing, incredible fun, and I can't wait to do it again. I'm hugely in love with suiting and hugely, terrifically happy with the suit I got from
kilcodocostumes
Getting to see and spend time with all my friends from online was an amazing and wonderful rush, and something I cherish deeply. It was so great to have the opportunity to talk to everyone face to face, and revel in just being togther and having fun for nearly a week. For as long as I live, I will always love those moments.
AC itself was as wonderfully well run and the city as amazingly friendly as it could possibly be. It's always such a tremendous thing to see the local businesses and people be so amazingly accommodating and welcoming. it truly feels like coming home every time we're there.
The few lows -
Fursuiting is very warm - Even with the nice weather there were definitely times I struggled in suit a bit. I really need to lose some weight and improve my endurance. I also need more heat gear leggings and shirts to wear under my suit, those were really, really helpful. That said, I was happy with the time i was able to spend in suit, I think it's honestly far more fun and uplifting than I thought it could be. I was also majorly pleased that getting partial worked out really well for me, since I could drop off the sleeves and leggings in favor of long shirt and pants instead to stay cooler as needed.
The new zoo wasn't the greatest - It was an experiment on AC's part, and I applaud them for trying something they knew might end up not working. While the extra space was great, the location didn't work well for suiters, and felt very cafeteria-esque. Not nearly as inviting and warm and friendly as the Westin room it was normally in. Hopefully the staff can make it work better or make the old zoo location work a bit better for the number of people we have.
PCD - Damn I got hit hard. Just getting up Monday morning and knowing what it meant I was tearing up, and I basically broke down crying for a bit after we left the airport and were back on the road home. I've had some mild PCD before, but this year it hit me like a truck full of bombs. Honestly I think a big part of it was knowing it'd be a while till I could suit again, and having so many close and wonderful friends that I knew I wouldn't see until next year. Con's are amazing and heady highs but the downside is coming back to real life is just a huge crash when you come back to the normal world.
I'm only gonna do the icon thing once per person cause we met up with a crapload of people and if I do it too much it's gonna error out by the end. :p Also apologies to people I leave out, or for anything I get wrong. It was a whirlwind weekend. I know I had fun, but some of it has already blurred together.
l0st and I caravaned in to Pittsburgh with jousterl Along the way we picked up mechanicalchicken and frozenfox at the airport. The trip was uneventful, but having walkie talkies to chat between cars made it go nice and quick. Once we got settled in the courtyard hotel, we wandered over to the zoo, eventually our whole group met there and we went to dinner with (deep breath)
sekh765 andreus 
enixh lordborel 
reverendbrowning 
faust_the_closet_fur 
lone.companion saidan cygnovum 
ben56 
felixfox nandrattle. I think there may have been others. We had like twenty people. So we went to dinner. First dinner was at a fantastic Belgian styled beer and dinner place called Sharp Edge. Incredible food, great beer selection. After that it was to the zoo to hang. Unfortunately the air conditioning hadn't been cycled up enough, so I was kinda fying in the heat, especially cause I went suiting a bit to test things out. I ended up retreating to bed about midnight.
We woke the next morning and hung out for most of the day, hitting the reg line when it opened to get our badges. A few people in our horde didn't pre reg and ended up waiting a while, but even with the computers going down for a bit it wasn't too bad considering the number of people in line. I think on that day we also met up with
micksam7 
twilight_saint 
pathia 
procyonid and some others. We had some good fun, and I think we might have suited a bit to play around? We ended the night in the zoo playing room party I think, then went to the dance in suit, which was a blast. :DFriday we hit the line for our fursuiting badges from ops, which was fun thought a bit long. After that we hit the dealers den, then went to our usual group outing to August Henry's. Fantastic food and service there, totally worth hitting it up when you have time.
Friday night I went dancing again, and I believe we ended the night in the zoo playing some game or another. I think that was the night Sekh and Felix brought out Booze Cube, a drinking game variant on Magic the Gathering. Or that may have been Satuday. I know early on we went suiting and saw the fireworks on the roof of the convention center, enjoying the beauty and teasing Andreus by wishing him a "happy treason day" :D
Saturday was more time in the dealer's den, and followed by my first fursuit group photo and parade. Andreus in
vexfursuit and I ended up heading up a flock of birdbrains including Jouster, Lost, and ryujikimura. and we're basically dead center in the group picture. :DAfter the parade we desuited and chilled some, then did dinner and ended went drinking for a bit before going to Whose Lion is it anyways. Only weird thing of the whole con was some of our dinner group got a little more hammered than usual from the $6 long islands they had at dinner at August Henry's I guess unfortunately when they make big batches some end up pretty strong. So some minor issues occurred finding places for people to safely sleep it off, but no real harm done. I danced some more before Drinking and Whose Lion too. :D
Sunday was a final round of the dealer's den. I ended up commissioning Ben56 for some pics while before he left, and also got a commission in the artist alley, along with some prints and other things. Sunday night we had dinner at Sharp Edge again, who had discovered to their horror that furries eat. A lot. They literally ran out of french fries and sweet potato fries while we were there, and were down to their last bin of salad. Our waiter that night though was super cool and fun, and we had a good time. Sunday night we ended the night gaming in the zoo, and I was so beat I turned in early.
Monday morning we got packed up, and carvand back to Columbus with Jouster, dropping Frozenfox and MechanicalChicken back at the airport as we left.
Overall Highs -
Suiting, especially dancning in suit, was amazing, incredible fun, and I can't wait to do it again. I'm hugely in love with suiting and hugely, terrifically happy with the suit I got from
kilcodocostumesGetting to see and spend time with all my friends from online was an amazing and wonderful rush, and something I cherish deeply. It was so great to have the opportunity to talk to everyone face to face, and revel in just being togther and having fun for nearly a week. For as long as I live, I will always love those moments.
AC itself was as wonderfully well run and the city as amazingly friendly as it could possibly be. It's always such a tremendous thing to see the local businesses and people be so amazingly accommodating and welcoming. it truly feels like coming home every time we're there.
The few lows -
Fursuiting is very warm - Even with the nice weather there were definitely times I struggled in suit a bit. I really need to lose some weight and improve my endurance. I also need more heat gear leggings and shirts to wear under my suit, those were really, really helpful. That said, I was happy with the time i was able to spend in suit, I think it's honestly far more fun and uplifting than I thought it could be. I was also majorly pleased that getting partial worked out really well for me, since I could drop off the sleeves and leggings in favor of long shirt and pants instead to stay cooler as needed.
The new zoo wasn't the greatest - It was an experiment on AC's part, and I applaud them for trying something they knew might end up not working. While the extra space was great, the location didn't work well for suiters, and felt very cafeteria-esque. Not nearly as inviting and warm and friendly as the Westin room it was normally in. Hopefully the staff can make it work better or make the old zoo location work a bit better for the number of people we have.
PCD - Damn I got hit hard. Just getting up Monday morning and knowing what it meant I was tearing up, and I basically broke down crying for a bit after we left the airport and were back on the road home. I've had some mild PCD before, but this year it hit me like a truck full of bombs. Honestly I think a big part of it was knowing it'd be a while till I could suit again, and having so many close and wonderful friends that I knew I wouldn't see until next year. Con's are amazing and heady highs but the downside is coming back to real life is just a huge crash when you come back to the normal world.
Post AC journal coming eventually
Posted 11 years agoMyself, l0st, and all our friends are all home safe, and the con was a blast. I will write up something more detailed a bit later, when I'm slightly more energetic. Still recovering from burning so much energy :D
l0st, and all our friends are all home safe, and the con was a blast. I will write up something more detailed a bit later, when I'm slightly more energetic. Still recovering from burning so much energy :DAC Meme 2014
Posted 11 years agoWhere are you staying?
The Courtyard
What day are you getting there?
Wednesday noonish, I think
How are you traveling?
By car with l0st probably caravaning with jousterl
Who will you be rooming with?
l0st, frozenfox, and mechanicalchicken
How is the best way to find you?
Tweet me, or txt me if you have my number. I’ll be running around all over as usual trying to see all my friends and such. Or just look for me in my fursuit :D
I’ll probably be hanging out with at least some of these people:
andreus, sekh765 enixh lordborel, faust_the_closet_fur, lone.companion reverendbrowning, jousterl, saidan, cygnovum, l0st, frozenfox, and mechanicalchicken among many others.
Are there any panels you might be attending?
I will probably try to sit in on some art panels if I can, and some fursuiting panels. What this means is I’ll look at the schedule and see that exactly none of them fit, and feel bad and then go hang with friends :p
What do you look like?
A gray wolf with a white splotch on the top of my tail.
Alternatively, a tall heavy set white guy with glasses and a backpack. Totally easy to spot in a crowd of furries right?
Will you be suiting?
Yes! My suit by kilcodocostumes is ready, I love it dearly and I am so ready to go suiting I’m fit to burst.
Do you do free art?
Uh, I can draw you a stick figure very badly.
Do you do trades?
Noop
Do you do badges?
Noop
What is your gender?
I’m male
Can I talk to you?
Sure, but like, introduce yourself and whatnot, and don’t expect much, I’m really very shy and I have a hard time talking to people at all. Sorry.
Can I touch you?
Um, like, ask first or whatever if I don’t know you ok.
Can I visit your room?
Not unless we invite you in, no.
Can I buy you drinks?
No I usually prefer to get my own.
Can I give you stuff?
Um, that might be weird if I don’t know you but I guess yeah. As long as stuff is defined as like… good things and not you know, creepy not good things.
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Um, hugs are ok if we’ve met and such, snuggles are only for certain people.
Are you nice?
Um, I guess so. mostly I feel like I’m pretty quiet just cause I get kinda overwhelmed from all the social stuff at big cons.
How long are you going?
We’re staying till Monday morning and heading home then.
Do you have an artist table?
Noop
Will you be going to parties?
Um, not really planning to, never been invited to any before anyways. I guess if it came up and l0st was invited and we didn’t have other stuff going on we might sure.
If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Say hi, introduce yourself, etc.
Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
God only knows. Seriously, I think I walked like 10 miles a day just going to meet all the people at AC last year, it was nuts and this will probably be even more crazy, lol. Prolly mostly in the zoo, the alley/den, and suiting all over the damn place :3
What/where will you be eating?
Mostly subway, bruegers, and some select restaurants. No grease for me anymore means my options are limited :(
Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
Um, for breakfast sure, but mostly for lunch and dinner we’re gonna be with people so you can ask but prolly we’ll be full up or whatever.
Can I take your picture?
Um, if I’m in suit sure as long as I don’t look like a total idiot. Out of suit please ask.
What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
Visit with people that I don’t get to meet that often, play around in my suit and enjoy the hell out of it, be social as much as I can bring myself to me, and just have fun.
The Courtyard
What day are you getting there?
Wednesday noonish, I think
How are you traveling?
By car with
l0st probably caravaning with jousterl Who will you be rooming with?
l0st, frozenfox, and mechanicalchicken How is the best way to find you?
Tweet me, or txt me if you have my number. I’ll be running around all over as usual trying to see all my friends and such. Or just look for me in my fursuit :D
I’ll probably be hanging out with at least some of these people:
andreus, sekh765 enixh lordborel, faust_the_closet_fur, lone.companion reverendbrowning, jousterl, saidan, cygnovum, l0st, frozenfox, and mechanicalchicken among many others. Are there any panels you might be attending?
I will probably try to sit in on some art panels if I can, and some fursuiting panels. What this means is I’ll look at the schedule and see that exactly none of them fit, and feel bad and then go hang with friends :p
What do you look like?
A gray wolf with a white splotch on the top of my tail.
Alternatively, a tall heavy set white guy with glasses and a backpack. Totally easy to spot in a crowd of furries right?
Will you be suiting?
Yes! My suit by
kilcodocostumes is ready, I love it dearly and I am so ready to go suiting I’m fit to burst. Do you do free art?
Uh, I can draw you a stick figure very badly.
Do you do trades?
Noop
Do you do badges?
Noop
What is your gender?
I’m male
Can I talk to you?
Sure, but like, introduce yourself and whatnot, and don’t expect much, I’m really very shy and I have a hard time talking to people at all. Sorry.
Can I touch you?
Um, like, ask first or whatever if I don’t know you ok.
Can I visit your room?
Not unless we invite you in, no.
Can I buy you drinks?
No I usually prefer to get my own.
Can I give you stuff?
Um, that might be weird if I don’t know you but I guess yeah. As long as stuff is defined as like… good things and not you know, creepy not good things.
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Um, hugs are ok if we’ve met and such, snuggles are only for certain people.
Are you nice?
Um, I guess so. mostly I feel like I’m pretty quiet just cause I get kinda overwhelmed from all the social stuff at big cons.
How long are you going?
We’re staying till Monday morning and heading home then.
Do you have an artist table?
Noop
Will you be going to parties?
Um, not really planning to, never been invited to any before anyways. I guess if it came up and
l0st was invited and we didn’t have other stuff going on we might sure. If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Say hi, introduce yourself, etc.
Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
God only knows. Seriously, I think I walked like 10 miles a day just going to meet all the people at AC last year, it was nuts and this will probably be even more crazy, lol. Prolly mostly in the zoo, the alley/den, and suiting all over the damn place :3
What/where will you be eating?
Mostly subway, bruegers, and some select restaurants. No grease for me anymore means my options are limited :(
Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
Um, for breakfast sure, but mostly for lunch and dinner we’re gonna be with people so you can ask but prolly we’ll be full up or whatever.
Can I take your picture?
Um, if I’m in suit sure as long as I don’t look like a total idiot. Out of suit please ask.
What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
Visit with people that I don’t get to meet that often, play around in my suit and enjoy the hell out of it, be social as much as I can bring myself to me, and just have fun.
Tmi Tuesday and FWA 2014
Posted 11 years agoFirst off, it’s that time again, and so feel free to ask me stuff. This journal will also contain some potential TMI stuff, so be forewarned.
Second, apologies for any inaccuracies or people I left out. totally unintended, just was a very busy and exciting weekend.
Well, this was my first time at FWA, and my first real con experience outside AC. I went with l0st and jousterl, we all roomed with 
pythonthesnake
We drove down from Cbus on Wednesday night, staying with Jouster for the night, and left for Atlanta the following morning. We got there about 3 that afternoon, and got checked in. We hooked up with sekh765, : reverendbrowning, 
sarki, procyonid, onightwish, and a few others whose names I can’t remember (Sorry! ). We went to a fantastic Brazillian steak place called Fogo de Chao. Never been to that kind of place, they serve you by bringing meat out on skewers and carving it right at your plate. Expensive, but really really worth it.
That night we played some cards against humanity and other games and kinda lounged. I tried to meet with
jimmywolf to say hi, and kinda had my first real crash and burn of the con in terms of trying to meet people. I ended up having sort of a.. panic attack I guess, and just completely blanked while trying to talk and be a decent person and all. I felt awful, and just couldn’t recover from it at all. Totally my fault, I just kind of expected I would… I dunno. feel better about it all, and when I didn’t I just fell apart. I really hadn’t expected that, and it really hurt me to realize I still haven’t figured out how to be as social and open as I would like to be.
We also got to meet up with Zennyfox 
archeus68, 
Artic and some more friends from Louisville, and hung with them throughout the con. That was awesome too
We went to sleep late, and the next morning woke up and hit the dealer’s den and artist alley. Lots of fun stuff in there, and I ended up getting a number of fun things. First, a fox job toy from Fetish Zone. Very nice toy, lots of fun.
I also got a set of leather cuffs and collar and leashes from lagarto leather. Been wanting a nice set for a while now, and will prolly get a matching harness for it soon. Made me feel really sexy, and Lost and I have already put them to quite wonderful use since we got home.
I got some beautiful art prints from some great artists, and some commissions that I’ve posted, or will post ASAP.
We had lunch and dinner at the pub in the hotel and hung with a bunch of friends. We met
reinbourne/
amaterasu1 and had lunch with him. He was very cool and recently got an absolutely beautiful gryphon suit head.
Lost and Jouster suited for a while, and got pics at the furshoot stuido. Jouster had a tooth rip from his zipper on his suit, and while he was thankfully able to get it repaired that night, it was a bit of a rough patch.
Before dancing we ended up playing a shadowrun one shot that sekh put together, and it was a lot of fun. Thankfully certain hippos didn’t kidnap any bellhops so things stayed relatively well in hand. One very cool thing as that
vingette saw Sekh had got us all Kamikazes as part of the plot of the game, and bought our tablea round. Very nice guy, and we all enjoyed them immensely. :D
That night we went to the dance, and I had an enormously wonderful time with that. Got to test the first of my LED tails I brought with me. It worked well, but I will probably be making some extensive modifications to it soon based on what I learned.
Before dancing we ended up playing a shadowrun one shot that sekh put together, and it was a lot of fun. Thankfully certain hippos didn’t kidnap any bellhops so things stayed relatively well in hand. One very cool thing as that
vignette saw Sekh had got us all Kamikazes as part of the plot of the game, and bought our table a round. Very nice guy, and we all enjoyed them immensely. :D Thanks again for that, you are a truly awesome guy, and so was your shy deer friend. :p
Saturday we had the parade, so we got up early to hit the den and then do that. I took pictures with Lost’s camera. We remembered the tripod this year, but I forgot to attached the damned baseplate to it so I still ended up with sore arms from holding the bloody thing.
After the parade the KYfurs got some great pics together in suit, I’m sure you’ll see them soon. :D
For lunch we met up with
Meuhwuu and some of his friends (sorry I can't remember everyone’s names! ). We went to lunch at the Brick Store pub in Decatur, which had incredibly delicious food and and amazing beer list.
I had to leave a bit early from that, ended up feeling a bit tired from overdoing it that day.
Thankfully by Saturday I had recovered my nerves somewhat and made an effort to go out and meet a few more people. I was fortunate to meet with
camcartoonfanatic who was incredibly nice and cool to talk to, and briefly with 
timsap51 at the artist alley. Both of you were a delight and thanks for being so nice to me
We got to hit the star citizen meetup that
twile threw in his room. It was very cool to meet some fellow pilots and chat for a bit, I really enjoyed talking to people there.
We had dinner with the KY furs, then went to the dance competition. Lost got roped by a certain burd into helping with the entire show, but luckily I was able to meet with
dalmydog and chat a bit, so I wasn’t terribly lonely all evening :p Thanks to you Dalmy, it was very cool to meet you and we’ll have to hang out at some point.
I really wanted to try and meet with Oddjob at the AV booth afterwards before the dance, but ended up having an absolutely killer headache develop towards the end. I went up to my room and took some advil which cleared it up, but sadly I wasn’t able to say hi. Sorry about that, I’ll try to catch you at another time.
I did recover eventually and took my second LED tail out for testing. It was another huge success, but I will probably sell it to a friend since it was my first prototype and not really suited to my colors, after I make some minor improvements.
I had a great time dancing again, and we ended up heading off to chill with Sekh and the rest of our friends for a while before hitting the rack.
Sunday was a bit more frantic than I wanted it to be, and so I only had a very brief time to speak with
glennjam before I had to run off again. I wanted to say I was sorry for that, I wish I could have had some more time to talk with you and visit.
We ended up having lunch with most of our friends at the mexican place nearby, then watching part of the talent show before we finally had to leave.
Final thoughts:
This con was very awesome, even if the elevators were quite slow. I enjoyed myself immensely, and it felt very different than AC, but still wonderful.
It also made it painfully, abundantly clear that I am much much shyer and socially anxious than I had hoped I was, and that being around people generally, and in big social gatherings specifically, really wears me down fast.
I want to apologize again for those I wanted to meet and potentially get to know much better, first for not spelling that and other things out as well as I should have, and second for not being able to overcome my own issues enough to properly be social and outgoing. It’s something I’m working hard to correct, but it’s taking longer than I’d like. I wish I could speed things up, because I’d like to be more outgoing and adventurous, but I guess there’s only so much I can do. Thanks for those of you who were so patient and nice to me, and I hope in the future I won’t be such a spazz about being around people as much.
On the brighter side the LED tails I made worked well, and I have some good ideas for improvements to make to them, so I feel like my electronics projects were a huge success. The LED belt I made for Lost was also quite well received, and he’s asked me to modify the harness he ordered to use the same light up stuff when it comes in. That should be a lot of fun.
I was also able to at least meet and talk to some people, so that’s an improvement over my first complete failure Thursday night.
Finally, the con was very very cool, and I plan to go back again next year. Too much fun and cool stuff to miss. I hope the new hotel works out well, and I really hope that I can improve myself to be even more outgoing with people that I want to meet and get to know and hang out with as well.
Again sorry if I missed anybody or left anything out or messed up describing things at all. It was a hell of a con and kind of all blurs together a bit in my head looking back.
Again, feel free to comment or ask questions as you wish, I’m hoping to be more outgoing, and learning to talk to people even through FA journals can help. :D
Second, apologies for any inaccuracies or people I left out. totally unintended, just was a very busy and exciting weekend.
Well, this was my first time at FWA, and my first real con experience outside AC. I went with
l0st and jousterl, we all roomed with 
pythonthesnakeWe drove down from Cbus on Wednesday night, staying with Jouster for the night, and left for Atlanta the following morning. We got there about 3 that afternoon, and got checked in. We hooked up with
sekh765, : reverendbrowning, 
sarki, procyonid, onightwish, and a few others whose names I can’t remember (Sorry! ). We went to a fantastic Brazillian steak place called Fogo de Chao. Never been to that kind of place, they serve you by bringing meat out on skewers and carving it right at your plate. Expensive, but really really worth it. That night we played some cards against humanity and other games and kinda lounged. I tried to meet with
jimmywolf to say hi, and kinda had my first real crash and burn of the con in terms of trying to meet people. I ended up having sort of a.. panic attack I guess, and just completely blanked while trying to talk and be a decent person and all. I felt awful, and just couldn’t recover from it at all. Totally my fault, I just kind of expected I would… I dunno. feel better about it all, and when I didn’t I just fell apart. I really hadn’t expected that, and it really hurt me to realize I still haven’t figured out how to be as social and open as I would like to be. We also got to meet up with
Zennyfox 
archeus68, 
Artic and some more friends from Louisville, and hung with them throughout the con. That was awesome too We went to sleep late, and the next morning woke up and hit the dealer’s den and artist alley. Lots of fun stuff in there, and I ended up getting a number of fun things. First, a fox job toy from Fetish Zone. Very nice toy, lots of fun.
I also got a set of leather cuffs and collar and leashes from lagarto leather. Been wanting a nice set for a while now, and will prolly get a matching harness for it soon. Made me feel really sexy, and Lost and I have already put them to quite wonderful use since we got home.
I got some beautiful art prints from some great artists, and some commissions that I’ve posted, or will post ASAP.
We had lunch and dinner at the pub in the hotel and hung with a bunch of friends. We met
reinbourne/
amaterasu1 and had lunch with him. He was very cool and recently got an absolutely beautiful gryphon suit head. Lost and Jouster suited for a while, and got pics at the furshoot stuido. Jouster had a tooth rip from his zipper on his suit, and while he was thankfully able to get it repaired that night, it was a bit of a rough patch.
Before dancing we ended up playing a shadowrun one shot that sekh put together, and it was a lot of fun. Thankfully certain hippos didn’t kidnap any bellhops so things stayed relatively well in hand. One very cool thing as that
vingette saw Sekh had got us all Kamikazes as part of the plot of the game, and bought our tablea round. Very nice guy, and we all enjoyed them immensely. :DThat night we went to the dance, and I had an enormously wonderful time with that. Got to test the first of my LED tails I brought with me. It worked well, but I will probably be making some extensive modifications to it soon based on what I learned.
Before dancing we ended up playing a shadowrun one shot that sekh put together, and it was a lot of fun. Thankfully certain hippos didn’t kidnap any bellhops so things stayed relatively well in hand. One very cool thing as that
vignette saw Sekh had got us all Kamikazes as part of the plot of the game, and bought our table a round. Very nice guy, and we all enjoyed them immensely. :D Thanks again for that, you are a truly awesome guy, and so was your shy deer friend. :pSaturday we had the parade, so we got up early to hit the den and then do that. I took pictures with Lost’s camera. We remembered the tripod this year, but I forgot to attached the damned baseplate to it so I still ended up with sore arms from holding the bloody thing.
After the parade the KYfurs got some great pics together in suit, I’m sure you’ll see them soon. :D
For lunch we met up with
Meuhwuu and some of his friends (sorry I can't remember everyone’s names! ). We went to lunch at the Brick Store pub in Decatur, which had incredibly delicious food and and amazing beer list. I had to leave a bit early from that, ended up feeling a bit tired from overdoing it that day.
Thankfully by Saturday I had recovered my nerves somewhat and made an effort to go out and meet a few more people. I was fortunate to meet with
camcartoonfanatic who was incredibly nice and cool to talk to, and briefly with 
timsap51 at the artist alley. Both of you were a delight and thanks for being so nice to me We got to hit the star citizen meetup that
twile threw in his room. It was very cool to meet some fellow pilots and chat for a bit, I really enjoyed talking to people there. We had dinner with the KY furs, then went to the dance competition. Lost got roped by a certain burd into helping with the entire show, but luckily I was able to meet with
dalmydog and chat a bit, so I wasn’t terribly lonely all evening :p Thanks to you Dalmy, it was very cool to meet you and we’ll have to hang out at some point. I really wanted to try and meet with Oddjob at the AV booth afterwards before the dance, but ended up having an absolutely killer headache develop towards the end. I went up to my room and took some advil which cleared it up, but sadly I wasn’t able to say hi. Sorry about that, I’ll try to catch you at another time.
I did recover eventually and took my second LED tail out for testing. It was another huge success, but I will probably sell it to a friend since it was my first prototype and not really suited to my colors, after I make some minor improvements.
I had a great time dancing again, and we ended up heading off to chill with Sekh and the rest of our friends for a while before hitting the rack.
Sunday was a bit more frantic than I wanted it to be, and so I only had a very brief time to speak with
glennjam before I had to run off again. I wanted to say I was sorry for that, I wish I could have had some more time to talk with you and visit. We ended up having lunch with most of our friends at the mexican place nearby, then watching part of the talent show before we finally had to leave.
Final thoughts:
This con was very awesome, even if the elevators were quite slow. I enjoyed myself immensely, and it felt very different than AC, but still wonderful.
It also made it painfully, abundantly clear that I am much much shyer and socially anxious than I had hoped I was, and that being around people generally, and in big social gatherings specifically, really wears me down fast.
I want to apologize again for those I wanted to meet and potentially get to know much better, first for not spelling that and other things out as well as I should have, and second for not being able to overcome my own issues enough to properly be social and outgoing. It’s something I’m working hard to correct, but it’s taking longer than I’d like. I wish I could speed things up, because I’d like to be more outgoing and adventurous, but I guess there’s only so much I can do. Thanks for those of you who were so patient and nice to me, and I hope in the future I won’t be such a spazz about being around people as much.
On the brighter side the LED tails I made worked well, and I have some good ideas for improvements to make to them, so I feel like my electronics projects were a huge success. The LED belt I made for Lost was also quite well received, and he’s asked me to modify the harness he ordered to use the same light up stuff when it comes in. That should be a lot of fun.
I was also able to at least meet and talk to some people, so that’s an improvement over my first complete failure Thursday night.
Finally, the con was very very cool, and I plan to go back again next year. Too much fun and cool stuff to miss. I hope the new hotel works out well, and I really hope that I can improve myself to be even more outgoing with people that I want to meet and get to know and hang out with as well.
Again sorry if I missed anybody or left anything out or messed up describing things at all. It was a hell of a con and kind of all blurs together a bit in my head looking back.
Again, feel free to comment or ask questions as you wish, I’m hoping to be more outgoing, and learning to talk to people even through FA journals can help. :D
Back
Posted 11 years agoBack from the con, will post a journal tomorrow with everything. Still sorting all my memories out, lol. It was, in brief, very fun.
FWA Meme
Posted 11 years agoStoleen from sekh765
Where are you staying?
main hotel I think
What day are you getting there?
Thursday afternoon
Who will you be rooming with?
jousterl l0st and python.
Who will you hang out with during the convention?
sekh765 reverendbrowning sarki nynn and felix mebbe? and maybe some ppl from twatter.
Will you be suiting?
Not yet, will have a suit by the end of may (fingers crossed, knock on wood, ward off murphy)
What is your gender?
Male
How tall are you?
6'3"
Can I talk to you?
I'm very quiet and tend to be pretty shy, but yeah you can talk to me, I just may not have much to say.
Can I touch you?
Um... mebbe talk to me first.
How can I find you?
I'll have a a gray wolf tail on with blinky lights in a white spot on it. Or I'll have my yarn tail on. When in doubt look for a my mate in his big blue gryphon suit :3
Can I buy you drinks?
I don't drink, sadly. meds and personal taste prevent it.
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Um... talk to me first. I like to snuggle but only with people I know and um... like.
Are you nice?
I guess so. I dunno. I'm mostly just shy in social settings like this. I try to be nice.
Do you have an artist table?
Nope
Will you be going to parties?
Um... not planning to, but I guess if one came up that fit I might go.
Will you be performing?
Nope
If I see you, how should I get your attention?
say hi. say where you know me from.
What/where will you be eating?
apparently some brazillian place on thursday. I dunno. my stomach doesn't do well with grease so probably anywhere I can get salad and grilled chicken and non greasy stuff. Subway tends to go over well for me.
Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
If you're headed to the same place doesn't matter to me. If you're trying to glom onto a group you really should like... ask to be invited to join or whatever.
Can I draw in your sketchbook?
Don't carry one for that. I mean I have one it's just for my use not for like, getting stuff in.
Can I take your picture?
Um... if you really want to I guess.
What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
Have a fun time, be less busy than at AC, try to relax. Mebbe meet some special people I've met online this year and see where things go. :3
sekh765Where are you staying?
main hotel I think
What day are you getting there?
Thursday afternoon
Who will you be rooming with?
jousterl l0st and python. Who will you hang out with during the convention?
sekh765 reverendbrowning sarki nynn and felix mebbe? and maybe some ppl from twatter. Will you be suiting?
Not yet, will have a suit by the end of may (fingers crossed, knock on wood, ward off murphy)
What is your gender?
Male
How tall are you?
6'3"
Can I talk to you?
I'm very quiet and tend to be pretty shy, but yeah you can talk to me, I just may not have much to say.
Can I touch you?
Um... mebbe talk to me first.
How can I find you?
I'll have a a gray wolf tail on with blinky lights in a white spot on it. Or I'll have my yarn tail on. When in doubt look for a my mate in his big blue gryphon suit :3
Can I buy you drinks?
I don't drink, sadly. meds and personal taste prevent it.
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Um... talk to me first. I like to snuggle but only with people I know and um... like.
Are you nice?
I guess so. I dunno. I'm mostly just shy in social settings like this. I try to be nice.
Do you have an artist table?
Nope
Will you be going to parties?
Um... not planning to, but I guess if one came up that fit I might go.
Will you be performing?
Nope
If I see you, how should I get your attention?
say hi. say where you know me from.
What/where will you be eating?
apparently some brazillian place on thursday. I dunno. my stomach doesn't do well with grease so probably anywhere I can get salad and grilled chicken and non greasy stuff. Subway tends to go over well for me.
Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
If you're headed to the same place doesn't matter to me. If you're trying to glom onto a group you really should like... ask to be invited to join or whatever.
Can I draw in your sketchbook?
Don't carry one for that. I mean I have one it's just for my use not for like, getting stuff in.
Can I take your picture?
Um... if you really want to I guess.
What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
Have a fun time, be less busy than at AC, try to relax. Mebbe meet some special people I've met online this year and see where things go. :3
Fursona question thingie
Posted 11 years agoWhat made you choose the species of your main fursona?
I dunno. I always loved wolves, and I guess it just felt right.
Is your fursona just like you, or how you want to be?
A little of both. He's who I want to be, but also based much on who I am still.
Does your fursona have the same personality you have?
Yeah, though he's not as flustered in social stuff and has an easier time talking about sexual stuff.
Does your fursona have the same dislikes and likes as you do?
Yeah pretty much.
Does your fursona look like you at all?
Yeah, a little slimmer, but ideally still chubby and similarly built.
Is your fursona the same gender as you, if not why?
Yup
Do you have more then one main fursona?
Not really. I've thought about it before, might make a sparkle rainbow woof, but I dunno.
Do you have a back story for your fursona, if so does it have anything to do with your own history?
Yeah, not much to do with my own history. He's a mage and an airship captain. I'm an engineer. We're both fascinated by science and such, that's about it.
Is your fursona mated, if so is it to your real life significant other?
Yes, to my rl mate l0st and his sexy gryphon :D
Is there something special about your fursona that you think sets them apart from others?
I dunno. I don't feel like he's really majorly special, he's just... me, as I'd like to be. Fluffy and magical and gay. :D
Do you have much art of your main fursona/s?
Yup
Would you ever consider parting with your main fursona, if so why?
Nah, I don't think so.
If you suit, do you have a suit of your main fursona?
Not yet, but I will this may hopefully :D
Have you ever roleplayed with your main fursona, or do you prefer not to?
Yeah, just small simple stuff, nothing too major, but fun.
I dunno. I always loved wolves, and I guess it just felt right.
Is your fursona just like you, or how you want to be?
A little of both. He's who I want to be, but also based much on who I am still.
Does your fursona have the same personality you have?
Yeah, though he's not as flustered in social stuff and has an easier time talking about sexual stuff.
Does your fursona have the same dislikes and likes as you do?
Yeah pretty much.
Does your fursona look like you at all?
Yeah, a little slimmer, but ideally still chubby and similarly built.
Is your fursona the same gender as you, if not why?
Yup
Do you have more then one main fursona?
Not really. I've thought about it before, might make a sparkle rainbow woof, but I dunno.
Do you have a back story for your fursona, if so does it have anything to do with your own history?
Yeah, not much to do with my own history. He's a mage and an airship captain. I'm an engineer. We're both fascinated by science and such, that's about it.
Is your fursona mated, if so is it to your real life significant other?
Yes, to my rl mate
l0st and his sexy gryphon :DIs there something special about your fursona that you think sets them apart from others?
I dunno. I don't feel like he's really majorly special, he's just... me, as I'd like to be. Fluffy and magical and gay. :D
Do you have much art of your main fursona/s?
Yup
Would you ever consider parting with your main fursona, if so why?
Nah, I don't think so.
If you suit, do you have a suit of your main fursona?
Not yet, but I will this may hopefully :D
Have you ever roleplayed with your main fursona, or do you prefer not to?
Yeah, just small simple stuff, nothing too major, but fun.
Did I ever mention where else you can find me?
Posted 11 years agoI think i forgot, but in case it's ever an issue:
Sofurry: http://ferinoch.sofurry.com/
Weasyl: https://www.weasyl.com/profile/ferinoch
Devinant Art: http://ferinoch.deviantart.com/ (not very active)
Twitter: https://twitter.com/Ferinoch
Twitter AD: https://twitter.com/floofywoof_AD (may not accept all requests)
F list: http://www.f-list.net/c/ferinoch/ (not very active)
Inkbunny: https://inkbunny.net/ferinoch (not very active)
Steam: http://steamcommunity.com/id/Cyferwolf (may not accept random requests for friending)
Livejournal: http://ferinoch.livejournal.com/ (yeah I still have one, but I don't use it much anymore)
Sofurry: http://ferinoch.sofurry.com/
Weasyl: https://www.weasyl.com/profile/ferinoch
Devinant Art: http://ferinoch.deviantart.com/ (not very active)
Twitter: https://twitter.com/Ferinoch
Twitter AD: https://twitter.com/floofywoof_AD (may not accept all requests)
F list: http://www.f-list.net/c/ferinoch/ (not very active)
Inkbunny: https://inkbunny.net/ferinoch (not very active)
Steam: http://steamcommunity.com/id/Cyferwolf (may not accept random requests for friending)
Livejournal: http://ferinoch.livejournal.com/ (yeah I still have one, but I don't use it much anymore)
Happy New Year!
Posted 11 years agoHey, I'm not sick and hating life right now so this is already off to a better start. So yay!
