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 Prions

It's hard to believe that I'd complain about an artblock because of how little I actually draw, but here we go. I've been getting sick of how I never draw full figures that look natural, so I've been spending the past few days since uploading my last pic trying to work on that. Pain in the ass. People who talk to me on even a semiregular basis know how much it's been pissing me off, particularly in the realm of legs.

I don't like hiding my lack of figure skill behind semi-good coloring so I'm going to try and withhold myself from doing any colors until I can draw a decent full-bodied figure TO color. XD I've been looking around for references myself and have found some but more refs or tips would be appreciated.

I just need some scissors and sandpaper to finish it up; would anyone here be interested in pics? This is my first home-made costume since sophomore year in high school when I made a toga so I'm looking forward to putting it all together.

Sweet god would I love to go to that. On the 16th the living embodiment of metal will be in Lawrence. D8 I'll have to remember to check Ticketmaster for prices even though I probably won't be able to go.

1. Are you single or taken?
Single.

2. Chocolate or flowers?
Chocolate gets eaten and flowers die. It would be better to get something that lasts longer.

3. Will you do anything special for Valentines Day?
Nope.

4.Do you like anyone?
In the way this question implies, not currently.

5. Were you dating anyone last Valentines?
No.

6. What would be your dream Valentines date?
Umm. I dunno. But it would go places that aren't busy, because it feels kinda dumb to do on a romantic date with your special someone where there's already a few dozen couples doing the same thing.

7. Do you make a big deal about Valentines?
Not really.

8. Have you ever had a secret admirer?
No idea. Probably not.

9. Would you ever write someone a love letter?
Maybe? I've never really been "in love", so I can't say for sure what I'd do if I were.

10. Do you believe in Cupid?
No. And if I gave in to such flights of fancy, there's better gods of love to believe in. Fuck Cupid.

11. Do your parents give you presents on Valentines?
I usually get some chocolate, yes.

12. Do you still send out Valentines cards?
No.

13. Do you like candy hearts?
I can tolerate them.

15. Is Valentines depressing?
...where the hell is #14? Anyway, not really. It's just another day that stores make a lot of money off of.

16. How do you feel about PDA?
Nobody's obligated to look at it, so it's no big deal.

17. How is your love life?
Comatose.

18. Have you ever been dumped on Valentines?
No.

19. How many roses would you want?
More personalized gifts are better.

20. Will you have a boyfriend/girlfriend next Valentines?
Fuck, I'm expected to predict the future on this thing?

No More Heroes is ultimate badass. That is all.

My previous journal is starting to go senile, so I picked up a meme off of  Slug partially for the sake of having a new one. I am leloservirgin in real life, so some or all of this may not apply.


24/7 (Total Power Exchange)? - Probably not.

Abasiophilia (Casts, Braces, Wheelchairs) - No.

Age Play? - Do you want me to act like jailbait?

Adult Baby/AB Parent? - That's just creepy to me.

Algolagnia (Pleasure derived from physical pain)? - Most likely! Depends on where and how.

Amputee Fetishism (Amputation/Deformity)? - No.

Anal Sex? - That scares me more than vaginal sex does!

Andromimetophilia (Androgyny)? - YES. Just not the anime-bishounen kind where a guy looks like he has less testosterone than I do.

Arse (Ass Play, Worship)? - MY ASS IS A SHRINE BOW TO IT no

Asphyxiaphilia (Breath Play, Choking)? - Suffocation terrifies me. ._.

Balloons? - No.

Bestiality/Zoophilia? - Ruptured colons, anyone?

Beating (Flogs, Whips, Canes, etc.)? - It's one of those things I like, but can't see myself doing in real life.

Biastophilia (Committing Rape/Sexual Assault)? - No.

Biting/Teeth? - Sure. :E

Blood (Drawing Blood, Cutting, etc.)? - No thanks.

Body Hair? - I'd like to get rid of mine. D:

Body Modification (Tattoos, Branding, Piercings, Scarification, etc.)? - Yes. I draw the line where the piercings start becoming a hazard, though.

Bondage (Blind folds, Gags, Restraints)? - VERY YES.

Breast/Nipple Torture, Clamps, etc.? - No.

Candle Wax? - Umm... no.

Chains? - Would they be a part of bondage?

Chastity Devices? - I like deprivation, so yes.

Chinese Balls/Ben Wa Balls/Anal Beads? - Don't know.

Cling Film/Plastic Wrap? - Nah.

Cock and Ball Torture, Clamps, etc.? - I wouldn't want to do that to someone, no.

Collar and Lead/Leash? - YES. Bonus points if it's a posture collar. <3

Confinement/Caging? - That would be fun to do to someone...

Coprophilia (Shit Play/Scat)? - Do I look like a German porn star to you? No.

Costumes (Period, Fetish, etc.)? - I want to dress like a Dandyist and/or wear a pinstripe suit on a regular basis, does that give you a good idea?

Cross Dressing? - The one great thing about traditional gender roles is that reversal of them is damn sexy.

Cupping (Suction of the Skin)? - Maybe.

Dacryphilia (Arousal from Tears)? - No. I like how it feels to shed tears, so I might not mind if someone else is.

Defilement (Seeing a partner dirty or wet)? - Not alone, but if it leads to forcing them to strip down and bathe, yes.

Denim? - What about it?

Depilation/Shaving? - Nah.

Diapers/Diaper Lover? - No.

Dildos (Hand-held & Strap-ons)? - Never used one, so no idea.

Discipline? - I'm not sure what this means.

Doctor/Nurse Fetish? - You get about 50 sexy points if you can be addressed as "Doctor".

Domination? - Yes.

Ears? - They can be teased, so yes.

Electrotorture (EMS TENS units)? - That sounds a bit out of my league.

Emetophilia (Vomit, Regurgitation)? - That's... no.

Erotic Photography? - What kind?

Exhibitionism/Sex In Public? - I like the risk of being seen, but I wouldn't want people to actually stand there and watch.

Feathers? - Light touches are nice.

Pyrophilia (Fire Play)? - No.

Fisting - No.

Food Play? - I would like someone to eat cake or something off of me. Like a human plate. :F

Fuck Machines/Robots? - It took me a while to decide on this because the term "fuck machine" just strikes me as ridiculous, but yes.

Furry/Fur Fetishism? - I like furry porn, but not exclusively. Fursuits and furry roleplay... no.

Gangbangs? - Sounds misogynistic and overwhelming, but maybe.

Genital Worship? - the cock is a god? D:

Guns (Gun Play, Worship)? - I can see why people like it, but not for me.

Hair Pulling? - Sounds fun.

Handcuffs/Shackles? - Nah.

Harnesses? - Yes.

High Heels/Stilettos? - No.

Humiliation? - YES.

Infantilism (Pacifiers/Bottles, etc.)? - No thanks.

Kidnapping Play? - Probably not.

Klismaphilia (Douching/Enema)? - No.

Knives (Razors, Swords, other blades)? - No pls.

Lace/Lingerie? - I like lace, but not for the reasons this is implying.

Latex? - No.

Leather? - See the lace answer.

Making Home "Movies"? - Waste of tape.

Masks (Erotic/Gas Masks, etc.)? - YES. I like masquerade type ones, plague masks... kind of artsy ones more than gas masks, but they're better if they hide the whole face.

Masochism? - I might be.

Massage? - Yes. I got magic fingers. 8D

Master/Slave? - I'd do a terrible job at it.

Masturbation (Mutual or Forced)? - Yeah, probably.

Medical Scenes/Equipment? - Does quarantine count?

Menstruation (Sex During, Eating, etc.)? - No eating. If nobody goes 'eeeeeeww!' during sex, maybe.

Murder Fetishism? - No.

Military Fetish/Uniforms? - Yes.

Milk Fetishism/Lactation? - Nah.

Necrophilia (Death, Corpses)? - I wouldn't rape a corpse, but I like art and stuff of it sometimes.

Nipples? - They're a part of my body.

Oral Fixations? - Possibly.

Oral Sex? - Maybe.

Pain (Giving/Receiving)? - If I could work up the nerve, yes/maybe.

Piercings? - They're not going to give me a femboner, but I won't mind if you have them.

Pinching? - That sounds kind of silly, but I like the sensation.

Play Piercing/Needle Play? - No.

Plushophilia (Stuffed animals, Plushies)? - Stuffed animals are for cuddling and coping with loneliness. D:

Podophilia (Foot Fetish)? - I don't have one, but it would be fun to be around someone who does.

Power Exchange? - I enjoy many kinds of role reversal. c:

Pregnancy Fetishism? - No.

Punishment? - Depends on the punishment.

The Rack/Medieval Devices? - I don't know... maybe?

Raptophilia (Sexual arousal from being raped)? - Hmmm... probably not.

Religious (Nunplay, Priestplay)? - I think some Hindu divinities are hot, does that fall under this category?

Retifism (Shoes or Boots)? - Don't care.

Rimming? - Mouth does not belong there.

Role Playing? - Yes!

Rubber? - Nah.

Sadism? - Most likely.

Scent? - Oh yes. Conditioning someone to get a bonar off of a certain smell would be awesome, scent is powerfully psychological, and so on.

Sensory Deprivation? - As long as it's not touch, I'm game.

Smoking Fetishism? - No. Whenever I see someone smoking I can feel the medical problems.

Spanking/Paddling? - Nah.

Statuephilia (Mannequins, Dolls, etc.)? - Um, no.

Stockings/Fishnets/Pantyhose? - Having them torn apart could be fun. Just let me shave my legs first!

Talking Dirty/Verbal Humiliation/Abuse? - If you or I can pull it off without sounding like a generic porn film, then yes.

Tickling? - Is annoying, not sexy.

Tongue Fetish? - I'm not ruining my panties every time I see one, but use of them is appreciated.

Toys (Buttplugs, Vibrators, etc.)? - GEE I WONDER.

Transvestism? - Hmmm...

Urolagnia (Water Sports/Urine)? - No thanks.

Violence/Physical Injury? - No.

Voyeurism? - Maybe. If they don't know I'm watching.

Wrestling/Fighting? - I'd lose. :C

Zombies/Gore? - No, I'm too squeamish.

And my secret fetish: Umm... deprivation? I like the idea of torturously long teasing / foreplay. I also find diseases (though not screwing someone with a disease. ew.) strangely hot, and crossdressing taken to gender-play extremes- mainly treating a man like a girl in a humiliating manner. Mmm, emasculation. Treating someone like an animal (putting them on a leash, making them sleep / eat off the floor, scolding them if they misbehave) is good too.

On my lace-and-leather thing, I just have a thing for clothing that's extremely complicated and takes a while to take off, or sex while still wearing some clothing.

Okay, so my Russian prof directed me towards this website called RusKniga, and it... is fantastic. You can get Russian stuff without having to actually go there, provided you understand enough of the language to navigate the website or have the patience to aimlessly click around until you find what you're looking for!

So, anyway, even though I'd have a hard time getting any of this (unless I put it on my Christmas list or something), I can't resist putting up things I find that I would really like as I use my very limited grasp of the Russian language and poor intuition to find them.

RUSSIAN EMBLEM T-SHIRT. It's just awesome. Screw the Communist emblem.

Soviet Union T-Shirt! Um... previous statement retracted; this is awesome too.

100% Russian Tank. YES.

...Jeez, all the shirts on this site are pretty awesome. Moving on. XD

Matreshka! Those capsule doll things. I don't want any myself, but I just had to point them out becase they will always be adorable. :C

Platok! HERE IT IS. The awesome shawl! I immediately wanted one of these after Tatiana (aforementioned teacher) came into class with one of hers. But... holy crap these can get expensive. And I feel terrible for wanting an article of clothing that I'm pretty sure is made from fur.

Everyone wants one of these hats. There IS a black one on there, but they're out of stock, and I think the white one looks pretty nice too.

That was all under the Souvenirs section, there's also stuff that's less "Get this for your American friends!" Like edible treats. Russian chocolate is absolutely delicious, but literally all of it that's listed on there is out of stock.


Think that's all I can find that interests me, but I'm definitely taking another peek at that site when I know more words.

I'm probably freaking about this a bit too much, but I kind of need a dentist. I've had a wisdom-tooth-that-almost-wasn't in the back of my mouth for quite a while now, and the one above it started cutting in recently and the canvas o' flesh around the existing one tore a bit and now I think it's got cavities or something because the part that was once obscured looks just a little gross. And it hurts. D:

God, I hate my body so much right now. x_x; This probably wouldn't be grinding my nerves so much if it had happened at a time when I don't have classes to go to. But no, I have to get a wisdom tooth torn out and MISS MORE DAYS OF CLASS. And this is compounding with weird phobias I have about messed-up teeth when it applies to humans. I don't know if the fear came first, or the awkward dreams I occasionally have where my teeth fall out.

At least I asked the folks if I could go see a dentist ASAP.

Alright, so, I'm still kinda vertigooey and looking at the computer screen is a bit unpleasant, but the surgery is done as of two days ago and my eye's behaving pretty well.

Okay, so... what do I talk about first? It's really not that much of an epic story since I was waiting a whole lot longer than I was actually in surgery. I wore one of those silly gowns and everything and got to read horribly outdated TIME magazines. After a while I got really hungry, but I was barred from eating as of 2AM that morning so that was to be expected.

The one thing I really want to say from this little experience is that ANAESTHESIA IS AWESOME. It probably would have had a different affect on me if my operation were more... serious and less of a half-hour procedure adjusting an eye muscle, but coming out of an anaesthesia-induced sleep feels strange and extremely pleasant. TV portrayals are a wee inaccurate in the sense that, like falling asleep, you can never really pinpoint exactly when you go out - it's sometime after the sleepydoctor tells you that you're going to feel something cold go into your vein. And then when I woke up it was like transitioning from a dream to being awake without the... physical sensation of actually waking up... or something. Am I rambling too much about this? :C

After that I spent most of my time being asleep (though I could get up and walk just fine shortyl after waking up). My eye was a little bleedy and welded itself shut with eye goop several times, which I really didnt mind since having it open was really uncomfortable for a while. I somehow managed to toss an e-mail to my adorable Russian professor - honestly, I'm not entirely sure how I managed that. XD I was holding a cold rag over my eye and typing with one hand and only looking at the computer enough to check my spelling and click buttons. Looking at the computer was like a bad acid trip so I stayed away from it. XD

This morning I willingly opened my eye and it's been getting progressively better, and I think I can safely say that my doublevision will be completely gone after it readjusts and learns to behave.

Unless there's some sort of screwup or problem I didn't hear about and I get cancelled / rescheduled / delayed AGAIN, I'm due to have my eye fixed in... less than three days. <3 days. :V' And since this particular eye surgery doesn't involve lasers, I get to go under the knife and stuff! And there's a 5% chance or so that the surgeon will screw up and I'll lose an eye! <o/ Or need another operation.

I'm unusually giddy about having one of my eye muscles chopped up, but I've had doublevision all my life and it's incredibly annoying. It will be very nice to be able to see straight.


In other news, I've also become strangely addicted to the dancing text emotes. <o_ \o_ _o> _o/

AND I NEED TO ACTUALLY UPLOAD STUFF HERE.

Alright. I'm finally submitting stuff to this site instead of letting it stagnate, so I think I'll bitch about this in advance before I upload more art of Sergei.

For people who have read up on Slavic folklore and want to tell me that kikimora are supposed to be ladies, please back the fuck off and shut up before you press the Send button. If this site can have everything with wings and dickgirls and lemurs with bright green stripes and dragons with dickwings and who knows what else, I don't think that a MALE KIKIMORA OMG should cause that much alarm. Seriously. Plenty of mythological figures are bastardized a whole lot more than a simple genderswitch, and it's dumb if I get a bunch of crap just because I took ideas from something from that's a bit obscure.

I know that kikimora are traditionally female, but I decided to slap a dick on one and make him a character. So what? :| Please don't spam up my submissions by trying to inflate your self-esteem with your superior knowledge (that can be easily found on Wikipedia). Thank you very much.

So I made an account here on little more than a whim. What the hell is wrong with me?

Ummm... rape.