in 20 hours.... a years wait will be over.... I will finally get to see my dragon, to hug him and kiss him... I just cant wait...idk if I'll be able to sleep thanks to my room mate its possible

I was counting on my friend rydell to take me there, but... thats not going to happen... hopefully I can take a bus without having to show ID anyone...advice?

well.. im gonna be moving in with my best friend in pennsylvania, cant say i wont miss oregon, its an amazing state and people have been great to me here. I am allowed by ry's parents to stay till after christmas, and then i hope to either move in with my boyfriend or another friend of ry's.... i just really want to find somewhere to settle down i guess....

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1769037/

im a random tiger wif green eyes =3

yah im super excited and scared...nuff said

im happy for that , also ALSO im loving the banner w00t furaffinity....... ok poll.... who thinks im a strange foozle?.......

and they told me that theres another sami the tiger that is apparently popular, and that it bugged them that I supposedly "copied" his name *sigh*.... guess I will just be a dragon like my mate, that'll solve the problem but im keeping sami, it was my first fursona name and im keeping it

yep 9 days till im away from the most hateful person I ever met, also when I get to my new place and get settled in plushie commissions will re-commense =3

so yah 9 days ...and tomorrow it will be 8, then 7, then 6, then 5, then 4, then 3 then 2 then 1 then I will leave with tika and spend september 8-9th with him, leave the afternoon of the 10th for oregon, arrive with speedcat kihano in oregon, get settled in, acquire a new sewing masheen and start making plushies ..... and science but you'll have to check out my science blog for that once I get it up

I'm probably boring everyone by this point :P.. but its really wierd, I have bags on my table in my room, plushies gathered up, my dressor's gone, the rooms almost barren... its wierd to leave home for the first time

its 14 days till I leave this place, and my father still doesnt seem to grasp why. Lily has said many times she doesnt want me around, and "of all the stepkids in the world I had to wind up with him around" she calls me retarded and lazy, and stupid and crazy. personally I find HER to be crazy, she brought 5 cats to our home (im allergic but she doesnt give a flying fuck) so I spend all day in my room with the door closed so I dont sneeze myt brains out. and on the rare occasion that I MIGHT decide to peek my head out... every time I walk by her she says something hateful under her breath (she doesnt speak to me because somehow thats harming me.... lily is secretly a teenage girl in an old fat woman's body) shes a pagan of some sort... I really dont know but she is a witch regardless if religion imho... but apparently she has also put curses on me. I personally cant STAND her, im the one who used to get her outta trouble when she would get drunk and do such things as BREAK INTO THE NEIGHBOR'S HOUSE for more alcohol.... but is she grateful? no she blamed me for having a key that she could find easily (I dogsit for them and she has no self control or sense of responsibility for her actions) when I smoked pot... she did it with me and then threatened to tell my dad I did drugs... yah shes that nasty. I used to grow my tomato and poppy seedlings etc in a seed starter thing with the little peat balls in the white mesh... she screamed when she saw it (she screams a lot, it makes me wanna smack her acrost the face for being annoying) she said there was mould allover them (ehh the mesh actually, shes too stupid to actually know the difference.. she has done so many things, and all I did was exist and give her bad looks for being such a bitch... I barely ever even say anything back to her when shes like that....... but my dad says I push her to being so mad... my dad was just desperate for something to FUCK after my mom died... and he shure as hell didnt waste any time... I didnt want her imposed on me, I founf out she was the filthiest thing alive.... I didnt have much choice. so I decided to go to oregon,,, I told my dad I had decided this when lily was screaming and yeling that I cut her phone charger (one of her useless cats did it)... I said I had enough and... now tonight my dad is taking me to dinner so he can talk me outta leaving this HELL HOLE OF SHIT..... doubt anyone reads this, but I needed to vent,,,

raindrops on roses and wiskers on kittens (just kidding)
Plushies
Fall
Dezzmont the dragon
Halloween (in the fall lol)
The rain
Dressing up to look cute (cute except my face rather lol)
The ocean
Boats
Snow
Gardening
Pumpkins
Multicolored blown glass
Sunsets
Stars
Anything with a billion amazing colors
Any thing that makes me go Awwwwww dats kewt
Techno music
Hugs
Snuggles of any kind

in 25 days I will be moving in with someone I have only met online..... U__U I mean I trust speedy, but my entire life has taught me to be cautious

I just found out that the base reason for most of my social problems is prolly my nonexistant self esteem

pleeeasseeee im looking for someone to blow a glass piece

stolen from  Cmd246
01] Do you have the guts to answer these questions and re-post as The Controversial Survey?
I guess, why not

[02] Would you do meth if it was legalized?
No, I wouldnt wanna, too many addicts in my family

[03] Abortion: for or against it?
against it, every life is there for a reason, every person deserves a chance

[04] Do you think a country would fail with a female president?
if its the wolf killer then yes

[05] Do you believe in the death penalty?
not for rape or molestation, or even for most murders. the justice system is for keeping us safe not getting even


[06] Do you wish marijuana would be legalized already?
hecks yeah, people are funny when they are stoned, I need to be entertained by some goofy stoners =3

[07] Are you for or against premarital sex?
dont get aids, and if your breeders then dont breed till your capable of supporting a kid

[08] Do you believe in God?
I believe in something


[09] Do you think same sex marriage should be legalized?
yes *snuggles my dez* also we need to work for more gay adoption rights

[10] Do you think it's wrong that so many Hispanics are illegally moving to the USA?
idk, they move here for a better life like the ancestors of every american but native americans (even they came here, just longer ago)

[11] A twelve year old girl has a baby, should she keep it?
yes, but she would also need support


[12] Should the alcohol age be lowered to eighteen?
NO I HATE ALCOHOL WITH A PASSION


[13] Should the war in Iraq be called off?
yep...its a mistake

[14] Assisted suicide is illegal: do you agree?
most people change their minds, sometimes its too late, so no

[15] Do you believe in spanking your children?
only if they wont listen to you about something that could cause them harm, its better to spank them then to have them hit by a car yeah....durrhurrrr not child abuse if your protecting them, I think not spanking your kids and letting them do things thats harmful to them is NEGLECT also breaking things or running around screaming arent what im talking about, in those situations you have to use another technique like time out, or holding them still till they calm down

[16] Would you burn an American flag for a million dollars?
How bout, yes...... I would, a flag is just a piece of cloth, it isnt anything that protects us and a single piece of cloth is worth burning for the money.


[17] Who do you think would have made a better president? LOL!!!!! GOVERNATORRRRRRR



[18] Are you afraid others will judge you from reading some of your answers? everyone who would read this already knows im outspoken

um.... I honestly have no clue where im gonna be living in june....:( I really do dislike living with my parents, but >_< since I've gone this far I might as well finish school. my mom died when I was 15, and my dad wasted no time replacing her with a fake and emotionally unstable woman who was a raging alcoholic when she first came to live with us. she has told my dad many times that I need to be gone or she will, and I have no liking for my dad either, he has 0 tolerance for abdl, calling me a freak and getting very mean whenever he finds anything out about it, my rooms trashed I pretty much sit here and vegetate because im so stressed I cant function. im not gonna use that as an excuse I just know that when im gone from here it will be better. a very close friend offered to let me live with them, and as soon as im done with hs I am gonna accept if the offer is still good and I have the money to fly -_- I just....dunno if I can make it that long living here. I keep myself locked in my room because she has five cats and im allergic, she will be really nice and then start a fight later and not speak to me or cook me food for a week or a month >_<

anyone who knows my boyfriend iron drake........ give him a big hug, he lost pretty much everything in a fire :(.... one thing he wont loose is me, and im hoping my love gets him through it


ps bro, I love the magic cards, and the wristband *kisses*
kisses everyone in my contacts *******

ok here it goes, I would love to have anyone who wants to draw my char, guidelines : no sadism, or snuff

things my character might be seen doing
hes yiffy in his adult form but only with males XD
hes got a clotting disorder so a lotta nose bleeds
he gets a shot every day on his butt because hes not enough of a bigboy to have it on his arm
he wears BIG thick diapers (doesnt have to, just saying he can XD)
hes a cute little tiger with purple colored eyes and appears as a black/orange pattern

my first full year as a furry WOOHOOOOOOOOOO

mate to dez *iron drake*
master to speedcat, and cody the arctic fox
daddy to cody the arctic fox, speedy, neilty, kai-lil dj, silverwolf, duo, aurelius fox, kenta, blake, kiriel, and any cub who wants a caregiver (I dont play a female so im not "momma")
friends with kazi fox, kia welbehenna, bart the husky and _again_ anyone who wants to be friends :)
also I play a cub often myself, my caregiver is my big bro dez aka iron drake