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2022 Wrap Up: Moving Accounts, Recovery, Future
Posted 3 years agoHey there everyone! I hope that 2022 has been at least a decent year for all of you!
I'll do a quick TL:DR up here: I am still improving, I am healing, and I have changed my main FA account to Corgsdale
It has been... A year for me. A lot of things have happened, I've had to continue to struggle with a lack of being able to create, and just in general it has been another continuation of the hell year that was 2020 for me. I want to give you all a wrap-up, as well as plans that I have for going forward and slowly, very slowly, getting myself back up to writing for all of you again as well as working on making my game again.
So! I had another round of surgery about 7 weeks ago. It will HOPEFULLY be the last one, as I am recovering much faster and cleaner than the previous time. I still have those spasms on my left side, and those are looking to be permanent. There is a lot less pain, though, so that is something that is at least improved and was the most challenging part for me to recover from. Basically, there were anchors installed in my left shoulder last year when I had the first surgery to repair it in May, and those needed to come out as well as some more cleaning and repair of the joint. This hopefully means no more surgery, but it is another thing to recover from as well as another setback in my timeline to get better. I wanted to be writing and better by now... Hell, over the summer, I was planning on being well enough to give everyone their work by this time this year. But, best-laid plans and all of that. So basically, I am getting better and starting to feel more and more like myself. I've been working with my doctor to get my mental state back up to snuff as well, as that has been a massive struggle this year for me. It was... Bad at the beginning and through the middle of this year, to put it lightly. I was suicidal on and off, struggling to eat, barely sleeping, and constantly in debilitating pain... It was awful, and it wasn't getting better. I did take the step to talk to my doctor, though, and doing that helped out a lot as he changed the medication I was on for depression as well as upping the dose of my other medication. I'm not so proud as to admit that I haven't struggled this year to get to even where I am functional again, but I will say that I am trying. I have been to my doctors; I have not skipped out on a single appointment; I am doing the therapies; I am working to get better. I am not going to sit idle as I owe people things and as I struggle with the fact that I have not been able to create. I can't do that; you all have supported me, as well as friends from the background and foreground, and you deserve me doing my best to make sure that I get out of this and come back to create for all of you again.
All of that said, I am still not better. 2 years of not really typing at all, thanks to pain, has made my fingers very weak, and I need to get some real practice in to get back to where I was. This will take more time, and more patience from those that are already being immensely patient with me. This comes from me having broken my fingers numerous times, as well as just how I type. I touch-type, so I need to be able to bend my hands in ways that hurt... I have arthritis, so it's not fun to have to really get myself loosened up to type some more. I am doing my best with that, too, doing little exercises and typing more and more as I have gotten more comfortable holding my arms out to do so. This is another work in progress, like so many things about me and in life, and I am grateful to have people who are so patient with me as I continue to work on this. I have been working bit by bit on my Toyhou.se to practice this as well, updating the bios of my many, many characters there as I slowly work to get better. It is something that I can do to pass the time, as well as something that helps to develop the universe of the game I am working on; New SaggingTon, which is set in the universe I have been writing in pretty much since I started writing. I have done that, I have been playing games, building legos, and just doing little exercises all to get my hands fully back under my own control. There was swelling and nerve damage from the surgeries that left me basically completely unable to control my hands in a way that I want, but a combination of anti-spasm meds as well as my own work has gotten me back almost all of that control. It has been a very, very long road... But, there is a light at the end of the tunnel for me, and all that is really needed is some more work to reach it. That was a lot of my 2022 as well; getting that control back and getting back on the horse.
I went to 4 conventions this year, and it was nice to be able to talk writing again and to get that inspiration and good feeling back. It was a lot to get back up in front of people after a couple years of just being home and everything, but it brought back a lot of my confidence in my craft as well as getting me back to talking with other writers. I needed that a lot, as it was a bit of motivation I needed. I am not someone many talk to... I kind of lead a pretty quiet life at the end of the day thanks to a certain few poisoning the well about me when I quietly just sit in the fandom and take up my little space. There's no point in going into all of that so I shan't, but I do quietly just sit and let it happen; if those out there want to believe the rumors and misrepresentation of me, then so be it. I do want to set the record straight on all of it though, as I am tired of seeing the rumors and addressing them. I'm not transphobic despite being labeled as such by some thanks to a misunderstood tweet from a former roommate that wasn't even about me. I am not emotionally manipulative despite being branded as such by a bitter ex who has a history of being toxic. I have never cheated on anyone despite being labeled as such by a different ex who did so to me. And last but the most important, I am not racially insensitive despite being called that by someone whose only claim to know how to judge that was having PoC neighbors. I simply am me; someone who has made mistakes, will continue to make mistakes, and is very far from perfect. I am working on that, and part of that was getting back out to conventions and getting that confidence and drive to see that I am not my failures, nor am I my successes; I am simply me. Talking writing, having friends around, and just kind of existing as the fly on the wall in a fandom I have been in for 22 years now is all that I am anymore. That is fine by me, and that is who I am... And who I will continue to be, even as I work to get back any self-esteem and see past my own flaws to be something better.
Part of that was moving accounts to Corgsdale. I will be only posting on that account going forward, so make sure that you go and give that account a look. This account is NOT going to be dead, I will still have it logged in on my phone and look at it, but my main account going forward will be the Corgsdale account. This is Devon, my new main sona as well as who I am to the fandom now. Sasuke is over 20 years old at this point, and I want to move from that character and onto something that more accurately represents me. I have changed that over the last couple years on social media and telegram and in roleplays and even in person, but I have not changed that here. I want to move past the last piece of the fandom that has been holding me here... So I have cleared all notifications from this account and moved. It was hard; I did it with bleary eyes and with a heavy hole in my heart as this account has been with me for years and years. I have watched the fandom spread into what it is from here. I have posted some of my best work here. I have been a wolfdragon and known as this wolfdragon since there was only 2 in the fandom as far as I knew. It was and still is a hard choice for me, but it is something that I have done to really... To be more of the me that I am now, rather than the me that I was 22 years ago when I first found furry and hopped in with shining eyes and utter excitement. I'm older, hopefully wiser, and I have changed immensely since then. I've undergone so much change in that time that Sasuke just doesn't represent who I am well anymore... And Devon, well Devon is much more me. And I will be keeping them for another 20 years for sure.
So, looking forward now that I've talked about the past year in broad strokes, I will be continuing to practice writing and to get better. This takes time, and it will be something that is an ongoing process. Even writing this journal I have needed to stop numerous times to stretch my hands and to get them feeling at least a little more comfortable. There is still a lot of pain and struggle on my end, and that isn't going to go away overnight. Or in a week. Or even in a month. It's going to take time, and I am going to take that time. I want to come back to writing for all of you in a way that doesn't make my old work look better. I have evolved as a writer in many ways; my voice has more confidence, my style has more dialogue, my words have grown. I've gotten better, is the best way that I can say it... And I want to make sure that I am at my best for all of you to show that. So I thank you all for waiting; I know it has been a long time and that I have been struggling... But I want you all to know that NOTHING has been forgotten. NOTHING has been cancelled. NOTHING has been scammed or stolen from you. Things are just taking a long time because... Well, life has happened to me. Life has been happening hard over the last 5 years to me, but there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Things are stable here at last, I have a setup and workspace, I haven't been needed to put out fires with my family... It's been a lot better than things have been in years for me on a lot of fronts but my own physical and mental health, and even those are improving. So there is going to be things from me... I cannot say when, as I am past making promises or guesses, but I am going to be doing things going forward. I love creating too much not to. So thank you, see you, and I am so grateful.
Ciao for now.
I'll do a quick TL:DR up here: I am still improving, I am healing, and I have changed my main FA account to Corgsdale
It has been... A year for me. A lot of things have happened, I've had to continue to struggle with a lack of being able to create, and just in general it has been another continuation of the hell year that was 2020 for me. I want to give you all a wrap-up, as well as plans that I have for going forward and slowly, very slowly, getting myself back up to writing for all of you again as well as working on making my game again.
So! I had another round of surgery about 7 weeks ago. It will HOPEFULLY be the last one, as I am recovering much faster and cleaner than the previous time. I still have those spasms on my left side, and those are looking to be permanent. There is a lot less pain, though, so that is something that is at least improved and was the most challenging part for me to recover from. Basically, there were anchors installed in my left shoulder last year when I had the first surgery to repair it in May, and those needed to come out as well as some more cleaning and repair of the joint. This hopefully means no more surgery, but it is another thing to recover from as well as another setback in my timeline to get better. I wanted to be writing and better by now... Hell, over the summer, I was planning on being well enough to give everyone their work by this time this year. But, best-laid plans and all of that. So basically, I am getting better and starting to feel more and more like myself. I've been working with my doctor to get my mental state back up to snuff as well, as that has been a massive struggle this year for me. It was... Bad at the beginning and through the middle of this year, to put it lightly. I was suicidal on and off, struggling to eat, barely sleeping, and constantly in debilitating pain... It was awful, and it wasn't getting better. I did take the step to talk to my doctor, though, and doing that helped out a lot as he changed the medication I was on for depression as well as upping the dose of my other medication. I'm not so proud as to admit that I haven't struggled this year to get to even where I am functional again, but I will say that I am trying. I have been to my doctors; I have not skipped out on a single appointment; I am doing the therapies; I am working to get better. I am not going to sit idle as I owe people things and as I struggle with the fact that I have not been able to create. I can't do that; you all have supported me, as well as friends from the background and foreground, and you deserve me doing my best to make sure that I get out of this and come back to create for all of you again.
All of that said, I am still not better. 2 years of not really typing at all, thanks to pain, has made my fingers very weak, and I need to get some real practice in to get back to where I was. This will take more time, and more patience from those that are already being immensely patient with me. This comes from me having broken my fingers numerous times, as well as just how I type. I touch-type, so I need to be able to bend my hands in ways that hurt... I have arthritis, so it's not fun to have to really get myself loosened up to type some more. I am doing my best with that, too, doing little exercises and typing more and more as I have gotten more comfortable holding my arms out to do so. This is another work in progress, like so many things about me and in life, and I am grateful to have people who are so patient with me as I continue to work on this. I have been working bit by bit on my Toyhou.se to practice this as well, updating the bios of my many, many characters there as I slowly work to get better. It is something that I can do to pass the time, as well as something that helps to develop the universe of the game I am working on; New SaggingTon, which is set in the universe I have been writing in pretty much since I started writing. I have done that, I have been playing games, building legos, and just doing little exercises all to get my hands fully back under my own control. There was swelling and nerve damage from the surgeries that left me basically completely unable to control my hands in a way that I want, but a combination of anti-spasm meds as well as my own work has gotten me back almost all of that control. It has been a very, very long road... But, there is a light at the end of the tunnel for me, and all that is really needed is some more work to reach it. That was a lot of my 2022 as well; getting that control back and getting back on the horse.
I went to 4 conventions this year, and it was nice to be able to talk writing again and to get that inspiration and good feeling back. It was a lot to get back up in front of people after a couple years of just being home and everything, but it brought back a lot of my confidence in my craft as well as getting me back to talking with other writers. I needed that a lot, as it was a bit of motivation I needed. I am not someone many talk to... I kind of lead a pretty quiet life at the end of the day thanks to a certain few poisoning the well about me when I quietly just sit in the fandom and take up my little space. There's no point in going into all of that so I shan't, but I do quietly just sit and let it happen; if those out there want to believe the rumors and misrepresentation of me, then so be it. I do want to set the record straight on all of it though, as I am tired of seeing the rumors and addressing them. I'm not transphobic despite being labeled as such by some thanks to a misunderstood tweet from a former roommate that wasn't even about me. I am not emotionally manipulative despite being branded as such by a bitter ex who has a history of being toxic. I have never cheated on anyone despite being labeled as such by a different ex who did so to me. And last but the most important, I am not racially insensitive despite being called that by someone whose only claim to know how to judge that was having PoC neighbors. I simply am me; someone who has made mistakes, will continue to make mistakes, and is very far from perfect. I am working on that, and part of that was getting back out to conventions and getting that confidence and drive to see that I am not my failures, nor am I my successes; I am simply me. Talking writing, having friends around, and just kind of existing as the fly on the wall in a fandom I have been in for 22 years now is all that I am anymore. That is fine by me, and that is who I am... And who I will continue to be, even as I work to get back any self-esteem and see past my own flaws to be something better.
Part of that was moving accounts to Corgsdale. I will be only posting on that account going forward, so make sure that you go and give that account a look. This account is NOT going to be dead, I will still have it logged in on my phone and look at it, but my main account going forward will be the Corgsdale account. This is Devon, my new main sona as well as who I am to the fandom now. Sasuke is over 20 years old at this point, and I want to move from that character and onto something that more accurately represents me. I have changed that over the last couple years on social media and telegram and in roleplays and even in person, but I have not changed that here. I want to move past the last piece of the fandom that has been holding me here... So I have cleared all notifications from this account and moved. It was hard; I did it with bleary eyes and with a heavy hole in my heart as this account has been with me for years and years. I have watched the fandom spread into what it is from here. I have posted some of my best work here. I have been a wolfdragon and known as this wolfdragon since there was only 2 in the fandom as far as I knew. It was and still is a hard choice for me, but it is something that I have done to really... To be more of the me that I am now, rather than the me that I was 22 years ago when I first found furry and hopped in with shining eyes and utter excitement. I'm older, hopefully wiser, and I have changed immensely since then. I've undergone so much change in that time that Sasuke just doesn't represent who I am well anymore... And Devon, well Devon is much more me. And I will be keeping them for another 20 years for sure.
So, looking forward now that I've talked about the past year in broad strokes, I will be continuing to practice writing and to get better. This takes time, and it will be something that is an ongoing process. Even writing this journal I have needed to stop numerous times to stretch my hands and to get them feeling at least a little more comfortable. There is still a lot of pain and struggle on my end, and that isn't going to go away overnight. Or in a week. Or even in a month. It's going to take time, and I am going to take that time. I want to come back to writing for all of you in a way that doesn't make my old work look better. I have evolved as a writer in many ways; my voice has more confidence, my style has more dialogue, my words have grown. I've gotten better, is the best way that I can say it... And I want to make sure that I am at my best for all of you to show that. So I thank you all for waiting; I know it has been a long time and that I have been struggling... But I want you all to know that NOTHING has been forgotten. NOTHING has been cancelled. NOTHING has been scammed or stolen from you. Things are just taking a long time because... Well, life has happened to me. Life has been happening hard over the last 5 years to me, but there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Things are stable here at last, I have a setup and workspace, I haven't been needed to put out fires with my family... It's been a lot better than things have been in years for me on a lot of fronts but my own physical and mental health, and even those are improving. So there is going to be things from me... I cannot say when, as I am past making promises or guesses, but I am going to be doing things going forward. I love creating too much not to. So thank you, see you, and I am so grateful.
Ciao for now.
Recovering Still, But Improving Slowly
Posted 3 years agoHey there, it's been a bit since I did an update on what is going on with me, so I figured it was about time to let you all know what is going on with my health and my arm.
I am still recovering. I have been in physical therapy every week, two times a week, for over a year now just to get to where I am. It is a long and rough process, and has me... Well, let's just say my mental health has been really, really bad for a while now. I haven't been able to create, and there was months where I wasn't even able to use a computer because of the pain. It still isn't comfortable for me to use a computer, but I have been trying to get used to it again and pushing so that I can get better. My strength is improving, and my fingers are starting to do what I tell them without me having to think about it so much it was a struggle. My hands still shake and typing for any length of time is still hard... But I am getting better and better. There is less pain, and there is less shaking as time goes on. It isn't easy and I definitely have more bad days than good still... But good days are starting to happen. I'm sure some of you on Discord have seen me on the Sims a ton as of late; that's been me getting my shoulders adjusted to working on the computer and being in that position again (And a lot of the time is me leaving the game running because I am a derp and get sidetracked watching something on YouTube or running errands!). Either way, I want everyone to know that I am still healing and that I am still doing my best to get better and to move on from this bad surgery and the long, painful recovery.
The surgeon's best guess as to why it is taking so long is a buildup of scar tissue as well as nerve damage from my fall two years ago; a combination that just has my left arm pretty much screwed for the rest of my life. They are trying cortisone shots... The first of which only made things worse and I spent a week in agony over. But, I am trying here as best I can to get things back up and running. I miss creating something awful, and I really want to get back to doing it again. However, if what is going on with my left arm is true... Well, things are going to take a while longer for me to fully adjust and I am just going to be slow about catching up. But, I am working on it. I want to come back correctly... Not rush it and just fail because I pushed too hard and wound up damaging my arm even more in the process. I mean, even now sitting here and typing this... I can barely get about 15 words in a row before making a mistake because my hand twitches. I do not want to write like that for all of you; I want quality, as I am sure you all do too. However... 15 words in a row is about 10 more than where I was at just 3 months ago, and the fact that I can do this all in 1 shot without stopping for a break to get feeling back in my hands is an improvement from 6 months ago. I am getting there... It just is taking a long time.
Thanks for reading, and thank you all so, so much for being patient with me.
I am still recovering. I have been in physical therapy every week, two times a week, for over a year now just to get to where I am. It is a long and rough process, and has me... Well, let's just say my mental health has been really, really bad for a while now. I haven't been able to create, and there was months where I wasn't even able to use a computer because of the pain. It still isn't comfortable for me to use a computer, but I have been trying to get used to it again and pushing so that I can get better. My strength is improving, and my fingers are starting to do what I tell them without me having to think about it so much it was a struggle. My hands still shake and typing for any length of time is still hard... But I am getting better and better. There is less pain, and there is less shaking as time goes on. It isn't easy and I definitely have more bad days than good still... But good days are starting to happen. I'm sure some of you on Discord have seen me on the Sims a ton as of late; that's been me getting my shoulders adjusted to working on the computer and being in that position again (And a lot of the time is me leaving the game running because I am a derp and get sidetracked watching something on YouTube or running errands!). Either way, I want everyone to know that I am still healing and that I am still doing my best to get better and to move on from this bad surgery and the long, painful recovery.
The surgeon's best guess as to why it is taking so long is a buildup of scar tissue as well as nerve damage from my fall two years ago; a combination that just has my left arm pretty much screwed for the rest of my life. They are trying cortisone shots... The first of which only made things worse and I spent a week in agony over. But, I am trying here as best I can to get things back up and running. I miss creating something awful, and I really want to get back to doing it again. However, if what is going on with my left arm is true... Well, things are going to take a while longer for me to fully adjust and I am just going to be slow about catching up. But, I am working on it. I want to come back correctly... Not rush it and just fail because I pushed too hard and wound up damaging my arm even more in the process. I mean, even now sitting here and typing this... I can barely get about 15 words in a row before making a mistake because my hand twitches. I do not want to write like that for all of you; I want quality, as I am sure you all do too. However... 15 words in a row is about 10 more than where I was at just 3 months ago, and the fact that I can do this all in 1 shot without stopping for a break to get feeling back in my hands is an improvement from 6 months ago. I am getting there... It just is taking a long time.
Thanks for reading, and thank you all so, so much for being patient with me.
2022 Plans
Posted 4 years agoHey y'all! Been a bit since I put anything up here, but I am still recovering and trying to get better from those surgeries last year. I am still in pain, still unable to type for long stretches, and still just having small spasms and whatnot that make any super fine movements like typing kind of hard. It is... Well, the best thing that I can say is that it really, really sucks. I hate that I can't create for everyone, but I want to get to doing that again. I'm still in therapy for my shoulders, and I am still working on getting back to where I can do my speedwrites and create content for people that I feel is good enough. I know some of you saw that I wrote something for Kikatsu's Secret Santa, but that... Heh, that was about 1/2 of the length of a normal speedwrite and took over twice as long, nearly three times. So, needless to say, I am not well still and I am not going to force content out for everyone when I am not anywhere close to better. I am trying though, and I want everyone to know that. I am taking this seriously, I am working to recover, and I am going to get better. This isn't permanent, and this isn't just something I am holding out on so that I can get away with getting money from people and then not doing the work.
To that end, I am going to start doing something about it once I feel a bit better. I am going to start writing stories again, and working through what I owe, but with a twist to it. Instead of working on time anymore, I am going to work on wordcount. I know, I know... People paid for time, and before I had surgery I could spit out around 3k words in an hour. So, how I am going to rectify that, is that everyone who I owe a speedwrite is going to get a story at around 3k words because of that; just over time rather than in one shot. This is going to take a bit longer... But, I want to get to writing again, and this seems like a good compromise for it. My writing speed is shot, I will totally admit that. I have taken three breaks just writing this journal to let my hands stretch and to get some feeling in my shoulder again because it has been spasming the entire time I have been writing this. It's bad, worse than I let on in fact, and some of it is indeed permanent. The lack of writing isn't though, and I am going to take steps to make sure of that. Feel free to get in touch with me to that end, and let me know suggestions to help or to even just talk. I want to be more social and open going forward, as the last 3 years have really made me a damn hermit.
Anyways, TL:DR is that I am still recovering and not okay, but I have a plan to get things done. Thanks for stopping by!
To that end, I am going to start doing something about it once I feel a bit better. I am going to start writing stories again, and working through what I owe, but with a twist to it. Instead of working on time anymore, I am going to work on wordcount. I know, I know... People paid for time, and before I had surgery I could spit out around 3k words in an hour. So, how I am going to rectify that, is that everyone who I owe a speedwrite is going to get a story at around 3k words because of that; just over time rather than in one shot. This is going to take a bit longer... But, I want to get to writing again, and this seems like a good compromise for it. My writing speed is shot, I will totally admit that. I have taken three breaks just writing this journal to let my hands stretch and to get some feeling in my shoulder again because it has been spasming the entire time I have been writing this. It's bad, worse than I let on in fact, and some of it is indeed permanent. The lack of writing isn't though, and I am going to take steps to make sure of that. Feel free to get in touch with me to that end, and let me know suggestions to help or to even just talk. I want to be more social and open going forward, as the last 3 years have really made me a damn hermit.
Anyways, TL:DR is that I am still recovering and not okay, but I have a plan to get things done. Thanks for stopping by!
Corgsy and Commission Update!
Posted 4 years agoHey there! Been a while! Wanted to fill all of you lovelies in on what has been going on with my arm(s), and where I am at right now.
So, I had shoulder surgery back in May... And it left me with a numb left hand for about 2 months because of swelling around the nerves. The numbness started healing up in July, but there is some nerve damage left that leaves me with seizures of sorts in my left arm. I am still on Baclofen, an anti-seizure medication, and will be for the foreseeable future to manage this. I can type now, mostly... I make a lot of mistakes and the backspace button is more my friend than it has ever been before, but I am getting more and more comfortable every day. I had to relearn how to type though, and that has been the last few weeks. I am getting there! I am really, really trying for y'all because as patient as everyone has been on me for writing them things, it has been just as hard for me to not create, I can promise that. But yeah, I am still working on getting back to 100 percent, because even typing this out I can feel the pain coming back and it is a sharp nerve pain. I am still healing and will be for most likely a year, as that is how long this surgery takes to fully recover from, but I am getting there.
Now, onto the other part. I have my second surgery on 8/24. This one is for my right arm, and it is worse than the surgery on my left. I had a labrum tear repaired and a lot of bone overgrowth scraped out, as well as my bicep moved down on my left side. On my right it is all that, but worse, as well as a rotator cuff tear. So... This will take a long while to recover from. I am hoping for less nerve damage this time around, and I am really hoping for a quick recovery, but this will again take a while to get over. As such, there will be a lot of silence from me again on here... But, to keep in touch, you can find me @/Corgsdale on both Telegram and Twitter to keep in touch and for more immediate updates. Bottom line is all of this surgery and everything is something that has been necessary for me for years, in fact almost a decade now. I've needed to have it done, and I am in a place, somewhat, that I can have it done... Granted, this has really hurt me financially and has damaged a lot of trust those of you have in me because I know a few have seen this as an excuse to not write and to just cash in on my name and the brand I have built for writing. That could not be further from the truth, but I can see that thought process and I cannot fault those for feeling that way; the timing of this has sucked. I want to put it out there though that I am not only trying to heal as best I can, but that I want to get back to creating probably more than those of you waiting on stories want me to write them... This has been torture to not create, and I miss it so bad it hurts. But, I have not forgotten, I will not forget, and I want to get these done and out to those of you that have waited so very patiently for me to get better. So thank you for your patience, thank you for sticking with me while I heal from what is honestly a pretty traumatic injury, and I hope that all of you like what I write once I can get back to a spot where I can day in and day out. I miss it.
So, I had shoulder surgery back in May... And it left me with a numb left hand for about 2 months because of swelling around the nerves. The numbness started healing up in July, but there is some nerve damage left that leaves me with seizures of sorts in my left arm. I am still on Baclofen, an anti-seizure medication, and will be for the foreseeable future to manage this. I can type now, mostly... I make a lot of mistakes and the backspace button is more my friend than it has ever been before, but I am getting more and more comfortable every day. I had to relearn how to type though, and that has been the last few weeks. I am getting there! I am really, really trying for y'all because as patient as everyone has been on me for writing them things, it has been just as hard for me to not create, I can promise that. But yeah, I am still working on getting back to 100 percent, because even typing this out I can feel the pain coming back and it is a sharp nerve pain. I am still healing and will be for most likely a year, as that is how long this surgery takes to fully recover from, but I am getting there.
Now, onto the other part. I have my second surgery on 8/24. This one is for my right arm, and it is worse than the surgery on my left. I had a labrum tear repaired and a lot of bone overgrowth scraped out, as well as my bicep moved down on my left side. On my right it is all that, but worse, as well as a rotator cuff tear. So... This will take a long while to recover from. I am hoping for less nerve damage this time around, and I am really hoping for a quick recovery, but this will again take a while to get over. As such, there will be a lot of silence from me again on here... But, to keep in touch, you can find me @/Corgsdale on both Telegram and Twitter to keep in touch and for more immediate updates. Bottom line is all of this surgery and everything is something that has been necessary for me for years, in fact almost a decade now. I've needed to have it done, and I am in a place, somewhat, that I can have it done... Granted, this has really hurt me financially and has damaged a lot of trust those of you have in me because I know a few have seen this as an excuse to not write and to just cash in on my name and the brand I have built for writing. That could not be further from the truth, but I can see that thought process and I cannot fault those for feeling that way; the timing of this has sucked. I want to put it out there though that I am not only trying to heal as best I can, but that I want to get back to creating probably more than those of you waiting on stories want me to write them... This has been torture to not create, and I miss it so bad it hurts. But, I have not forgotten, I will not forget, and I want to get these done and out to those of you that have waited so very patiently for me to get better. So thank you for your patience, thank you for sticking with me while I heal from what is honestly a pretty traumatic injury, and I hope that all of you like what I write once I can get back to a spot where I can day in and day out. I miss it.
Corgsy Update!
Posted 4 years agoQuick little update posting here, because I know not all of you see me on Twitter. Some of you have reached out because I've been silent, but most of you... I guess just see that I basically fell off the face of the earth. I have not! I'm still very much here, I'm just prepping for another surgery... And this one is a big one.
I fell on New Years Eve, and destroyed my left arm. Bent it completely the wrong way trying to catch myself (200 pounds of corgsdale falling down stairs is bad!), and since I've had a shoulder that is constantly in pain and a hand that I can type with for all of 20 minutes before it goes numb. I have been to the doctor, gotten an MRI after 2 full months of fighting with my insurance... And now in a couple weeks I have shoulder reconstruction surgery to hopefully help with all this. I don't know what it is going to do about the numbness and all that, but the shoulder pain being gone will be huge.
During this time, I really haven't been able to use my left arm at all. I've worked and oftentimes after work came home and went right to bed to try and sleep off the pain, more than once getting physically ill because it gets so bad. I spend weekends in VRChat (full disclosure here!), but that is because I can move with just one arm. The amount of one arm hugs I've given the last 4, almost 5 months is staggering XD. But really... I basically am at having 1 arm. I have only used my desktop 3 times in the last 3 months, and that's just to pay bills and log back off; my doctor actually said to avoid computers. I've tried typing by voice, but... Yeah, there's only so many times I can speak out what I write before I die of blushing and spend more time editing than I do writing. It's been hard being unable to create, but I've been managing... And it's high time I wrote something to update everyone.
Now, I have surgery on May 5th. The recovery time is supposed to be about 5 months, but I should be good to type in about 3 weeks. It's just no heavy lifting for 3 to 4 months, meaning I'll be off work for a while... And once that's done, they will fix the real problem child, which is my right shoulder, because yes I am very broken :D.
I'll try and keep things updated here, but if you really want to know what is going on with me, reach out on Telegram (@/Corgsdale) or Twitter under the same username, or even VRChat under the same username there as well. I haven't absconded with money for commissions and I sure as shit want to write again... I miss it fiercely and have been RPing as much as my thumbs allow to stay focused on writing and sharp with creativity. Thank you for your continued patience, and for allowing me to actually try and get better. I appreciate you all <3
I fell on New Years Eve, and destroyed my left arm. Bent it completely the wrong way trying to catch myself (200 pounds of corgsdale falling down stairs is bad!), and since I've had a shoulder that is constantly in pain and a hand that I can type with for all of 20 minutes before it goes numb. I have been to the doctor, gotten an MRI after 2 full months of fighting with my insurance... And now in a couple weeks I have shoulder reconstruction surgery to hopefully help with all this. I don't know what it is going to do about the numbness and all that, but the shoulder pain being gone will be huge.
During this time, I really haven't been able to use my left arm at all. I've worked and oftentimes after work came home and went right to bed to try and sleep off the pain, more than once getting physically ill because it gets so bad. I spend weekends in VRChat (full disclosure here!), but that is because I can move with just one arm. The amount of one arm hugs I've given the last 4, almost 5 months is staggering XD. But really... I basically am at having 1 arm. I have only used my desktop 3 times in the last 3 months, and that's just to pay bills and log back off; my doctor actually said to avoid computers. I've tried typing by voice, but... Yeah, there's only so many times I can speak out what I write before I die of blushing and spend more time editing than I do writing. It's been hard being unable to create, but I've been managing... And it's high time I wrote something to update everyone.
Now, I have surgery on May 5th. The recovery time is supposed to be about 5 months, but I should be good to type in about 3 weeks. It's just no heavy lifting for 3 to 4 months, meaning I'll be off work for a while... And once that's done, they will fix the real problem child, which is my right shoulder, because yes I am very broken :D.
I'll try and keep things updated here, but if you really want to know what is going on with me, reach out on Telegram (@/Corgsdale) or Twitter under the same username, or even VRChat under the same username there as well. I haven't absconded with money for commissions and I sure as shit want to write again... I miss it fiercely and have been RPing as much as my thumbs allow to stay focused on writing and sharp with creativity. Thank you for your continued patience, and for allowing me to actually try and get better. I appreciate you all <3
Sorry for the silence!
Posted 5 years agoHeyo!
Sorry for going so quiet the last month and a half... Stuff happened. Let me explain briefly!
Right, and I mean RIGHT after I got Obesitober all set up, I had an appointment at the urologist. I have chronic kidney stones, and... Hey, I had another one. A big one too; I had been in pain with it for a couple months, nothing major but it was there. Well I went in, and they said I needed surgery basically ASAP for it before it shifted and I needed invasive surgery for the 3rd time this year. This was in the midst of some household drama too that I won't get into, so that basically killed the first week of October right there. I got some stories done, but not the full week. The next week and a half I was on pain meds anytime I wasn't at work, and too distracted by the surgery looming to be of any use to anyone. Surgery happened, and it went well enough so all was well there... Until the day after, where I was fixing something around the house and stabbed myself in the pointer finger on my left hand with a drill. Badly. I won't get into the gory details, but it was bad enough that it has been healing since mid-October and it is only now at a point where I can type enough to write full stories again. I couldn't type at all honestly for about 3 weeks, despite trying... Any length of writing was agonizingly painful. I tested it in one of my Discords a week and a half ago, writing a decent length RP post, and by the time that I was done with it, I went upstairs, parked myself on the couch, and just hurt for the rest of the day. So yeah... I'm finally back at writing strength, not hurting when I write or anything like that. Couple that with a mini-outbreak of COVID at my workplace, and... Yeah, the last month and a half has been fun to say the least. I've busied myself modifying avatars for VRChat, because that keeps me working on something and involves minimal use of my left hand, but I want to write again. And now I can.
Now, what does that mean for Obesitober? I have a few stories done, but nowhere near all of them. I'm going to be getting to work on them starting Monday and working through until I get through all of them. I had a whole thing planned for November, and December, and I have nixxed it so that I can get these done first. I apologize for the delay in things, life just decided to have the worst timing possible here. I've been open about all this on my Twitter, but I know not everyone reads Twitter here so I am making this update so that what happened last month is known. I'm also always, ALWAYS reachable by notes or on telegram (@Corgsdale) so there are no secrets. I don't like hiding what's going on, especially from those who paid for my time and I have yet to give it. So, yeah... That's been what's up in the land of me.
Also, I changed up my sona! I've been Sasuke for... 20 years now just about, and I wanted a change. I haven't felt connected to the draolf for about 5 years now, given that I have shifted my gender identity and sexuality as time has gone on to fit who I am, rather than who I thought I was supposed to be. Sasuke isn't going anywhere, the big draolf will always, ALWAYS be me... But Devon, the new corgsdale that I am now, is more me now. I'll write up something about all of that at another point, but if you see someone on Twitter or don't recognize the icon or anything... That's the new sona. That's Devon, and that's me from now on.
Thanks for your time!
Sorry for going so quiet the last month and a half... Stuff happened. Let me explain briefly!
Right, and I mean RIGHT after I got Obesitober all set up, I had an appointment at the urologist. I have chronic kidney stones, and... Hey, I had another one. A big one too; I had been in pain with it for a couple months, nothing major but it was there. Well I went in, and they said I needed surgery basically ASAP for it before it shifted and I needed invasive surgery for the 3rd time this year. This was in the midst of some household drama too that I won't get into, so that basically killed the first week of October right there. I got some stories done, but not the full week. The next week and a half I was on pain meds anytime I wasn't at work, and too distracted by the surgery looming to be of any use to anyone. Surgery happened, and it went well enough so all was well there... Until the day after, where I was fixing something around the house and stabbed myself in the pointer finger on my left hand with a drill. Badly. I won't get into the gory details, but it was bad enough that it has been healing since mid-October and it is only now at a point where I can type enough to write full stories again. I couldn't type at all honestly for about 3 weeks, despite trying... Any length of writing was agonizingly painful. I tested it in one of my Discords a week and a half ago, writing a decent length RP post, and by the time that I was done with it, I went upstairs, parked myself on the couch, and just hurt for the rest of the day. So yeah... I'm finally back at writing strength, not hurting when I write or anything like that. Couple that with a mini-outbreak of COVID at my workplace, and... Yeah, the last month and a half has been fun to say the least. I've busied myself modifying avatars for VRChat, because that keeps me working on something and involves minimal use of my left hand, but I want to write again. And now I can.
Now, what does that mean for Obesitober? I have a few stories done, but nowhere near all of them. I'm going to be getting to work on them starting Monday and working through until I get through all of them. I had a whole thing planned for November, and December, and I have nixxed it so that I can get these done first. I apologize for the delay in things, life just decided to have the worst timing possible here. I've been open about all this on my Twitter, but I know not everyone reads Twitter here so I am making this update so that what happened last month is known. I'm also always, ALWAYS reachable by notes or on telegram (@Corgsdale) so there are no secrets. I don't like hiding what's going on, especially from those who paid for my time and I have yet to give it. So, yeah... That's been what's up in the land of me.
Also, I changed up my sona! I've been Sasuke for... 20 years now just about, and I wanted a change. I haven't felt connected to the draolf for about 5 years now, given that I have shifted my gender identity and sexuality as time has gone on to fit who I am, rather than who I thought I was supposed to be. Sasuke isn't going anywhere, the big draolf will always, ALWAYS be me... But Devon, the new corgsdale that I am now, is more me now. I'll write up something about all of that at another point, but if you see someone on Twitter or don't recognize the icon or anything... That's the new sona. That's Devon, and that's me from now on.
Thanks for your time!
Obesitober 2020 Commissions Open!
Posted 5 years agoHey there! I made an event! With Inktober being copyrighted and everything, I wanted to create something for writers and artists to do that was fatfur friendly, themed for the month, and... Yeah! Obesitober was born! There are 31 days of prompts, each day something related to do with something round. It is meant to be something fun for everyone involved, and I'm hoping that is what it is for everyone who is choosing to take part. There are kinks, there are deep kinks... It's all just there to celebrate the widening of waists and the sagging of guts.
So! I will be taking comms during the month of October to be in theme with this new month. Everything will just be a 'Give me your character, and I will write something in theme with that.' No idea, no discussion about it really... Just boop, plopped into a story of fattening goodness. I will of course ask if you want NSFW or not, anything to steer clear of, but by and large... These are stories that I am writing for fun mostly, and I want to make sure that everyone can get included in on that fun. But yeah! The stories are going to be hour-long speedwrites, but at a discounted rate of $40 rather than $50 for the story. There will be no duplicates, first come first serve, and... Yeah! Comment below if you want a day!
I will try and keep this updated as much as I can, and if they all go, then stay tuned because I have another thing planned for November, and another for December. I've spent this year rechargingin, and I'm finally in a good place and with a good working space... Damn time I got back at it.
So! I will be taking comms during the month of October to be in theme with this new month. Everything will just be a 'Give me your character, and I will write something in theme with that.' No idea, no discussion about it really... Just boop, plopped into a story of fattening goodness. I will of course ask if you want NSFW or not, anything to steer clear of, but by and large... These are stories that I am writing for fun mostly, and I want to make sure that everyone can get included in on that fun. But yeah! The stories are going to be hour-long speedwrites, but at a discounted rate of $40 rather than $50 for the story. There will be no duplicates, first come first serve, and... Yeah! Comment below if you want a day!
Day 1 - Overeating - Sir Galant - Done
Day 2 - Crushed Furniture - Buddy
Day 3 - Stuck In A Door - DokoroKuma
Day 4 - Sweaty Moving - ChazCoyote
Day 5 - Finally Immobile - WanderingWastelander
Day 6 - Belly Fucking - Buddy
Day 7 - Forced Feeding - games45
Day 8 - Belly Worship - Konamura
Day 9 - Washing Off A Meal - Denya
Day 10 - Bursting From Food - EzraTheLardDragon
Day 11 - Public Gluttony - Dexter
Day 12 - Boobs/Moobs - Alonely
Day 13 - Hips and Ass - Alonely
Day 14 - Belly - dragonsteve
Day 15 - Chins and Cheeks - Ryian
Day 16 - Fat Pad Play - Kazan.K
Day 17 - Too Fat For... - Doom7951
Day 18 - Tube Feeding - KrasusDrakthril
Day 19 - Clothing Casualties - Taaru
Day 20 - Filling A Room With Fat - Dexter
Day 21 - Denial Of Gains - Kalendil
Day 22 - Rampant Slob - EvillineGrimsclaw
Day 23 - Food Addiction - SuntasticalDragon
Day 24 - Lost Limbs - winterwind321
Day 25 - Gaining Side Effects - Russenluster
Day 26 - Somehow Mobile - komamura
Day 27 - Vore - KrasusDrakthril
Day 28 - Magical Forces - Atemal99
Day 29 - Used As Furniture - GabeElToro
Day 30 - Stretchmarks - Spikes
Day 31 - Party Showpiece - hugefatfat
I will try and keep this updated as much as I can, and if they all go, then stay tuned because I have another thing planned for November, and another for December. I've spent this year rechargingin, and I'm finally in a good place and with a good working space... Damn time I got back at it.
Update Journal!
Posted 5 years agoSo... I haven't made a journal here in a hot minute. I'm really bad about posting on this site, or using this site, or really anything involving this site really. Sorry for that... I could be better, and I know that would make it easier for people here to keep up with me. The best place to do that, by far, is Twitter ( http://twitter.com/sasukewuff ) But yeah, just making a new journal so peeps don't think I'm gone, or that I have abandoned things.
So... 2020. It's been a year so far for me. My living situation has been... Interesting, but things are looking to be calming down again real soon. We just moved here, and into a much better place with more space, a much better writing space for me, and just in general vibes that are a lot better for getting things done and enjoying time at home rather than what we had. My mom had cancer, but is on her way to being cancer free after months of chemo and a mastectomy. There's been a few deaths of friends from both COVID and other circumstances, one that was actually last week, that have really made messed me up. I've done a lot of crying this year because of things like that... And believe me, I am just giving the brief version of events here. A lot more has gone on this year that has left me feeling somewhat of a mess, so the fact that I am still here and still plugging away is something of a minor miracle. I haven't been able to get to therapy (I was in therapy and it was helping), haven't been able to get to the doctor (I was supposed to be getting my shoulder reconstruction surgery this year), and just in general things have been very rough for me. Again. I know, I know... It looks like that is a constant thing in my life, of things always being rough. I have had my breaks, honestly. I've made a few new friends this year that have been amazing, and I've nurtured other relationships again after letting them stagnate last year when I had to fall off the map for about six months because my brother lost his leg and I was his support system. Still am, but he has more help now. My point with all that though, is that life has been a fun thing for me these last couple years.
Anyways! I have some things to share. I am making a game, a fatty visual novel to be exact! I have been posting about it on Twitter some, but I figure here would be a good place to put a post as well. The game is called New SaggingTon, and it is based around my many, many characters, and the player, who is you! I have it on Patreon at ( http://patreon.com/NewSaggignTon ), but there is also a Discord where we talk about it and whatnot too ( http://discord.gg/PdvXUNN ) if you want to just come and ask, or to see the demo that I have been working on. It is going to be a long project, and one that I am working on while trying to get back into a writing rhythm. I had one before COVID happened; I was actually working at a writer's coop here in Rhode Island and getting a lot done. It was a good thing... But, that all changed when my mom got cancer and then the outbreak took away any chance I had to get out of the house for anything that wasn't work. Things are loosening up here a bit, but with my immune system being what it is... Well, I have to be more careful than most. Anyways, I am getting slowly back into writing again on top of this game, and want to start getting to everything that I owe. I know I have owed it for a long time... And I want to make that right with those that have been so patient for me. Oh, I also made a FLO ( https://furrylife.online/profile/18511-sasukewuff/ ) which I will be cross-posting onto, and putting more art of my other characters on as I want this account to be mostly for the big draolf alone. I also made a Toyhouse account too for all my characters ( https://toyhou.se/sasukewuff ), as well as to show off New SaggingTon itself, as it is more than just a game; it is the town I have used as a setting for most of my stories for the last decade. So yeah! I have been doing things, just behind the scenes work and whatnot quietly making other projects so that I keep creating despite the fact that writing has been a hard ask of me for the last couple years.
So, thanks for giving this a read, and I will have more for y'all sooner rather than later I hope... I should really make journals more than once a year.
So... 2020. It's been a year so far for me. My living situation has been... Interesting, but things are looking to be calming down again real soon. We just moved here, and into a much better place with more space, a much better writing space for me, and just in general vibes that are a lot better for getting things done and enjoying time at home rather than what we had. My mom had cancer, but is on her way to being cancer free after months of chemo and a mastectomy. There's been a few deaths of friends from both COVID and other circumstances, one that was actually last week, that have really made messed me up. I've done a lot of crying this year because of things like that... And believe me, I am just giving the brief version of events here. A lot more has gone on this year that has left me feeling somewhat of a mess, so the fact that I am still here and still plugging away is something of a minor miracle. I haven't been able to get to therapy (I was in therapy and it was helping), haven't been able to get to the doctor (I was supposed to be getting my shoulder reconstruction surgery this year), and just in general things have been very rough for me. Again. I know, I know... It looks like that is a constant thing in my life, of things always being rough. I have had my breaks, honestly. I've made a few new friends this year that have been amazing, and I've nurtured other relationships again after letting them stagnate last year when I had to fall off the map for about six months because my brother lost his leg and I was his support system. Still am, but he has more help now. My point with all that though, is that life has been a fun thing for me these last couple years.
Anyways! I have some things to share. I am making a game, a fatty visual novel to be exact! I have been posting about it on Twitter some, but I figure here would be a good place to put a post as well. The game is called New SaggingTon, and it is based around my many, many characters, and the player, who is you! I have it on Patreon at ( http://patreon.com/NewSaggignTon ), but there is also a Discord where we talk about it and whatnot too ( http://discord.gg/PdvXUNN ) if you want to just come and ask, or to see the demo that I have been working on. It is going to be a long project, and one that I am working on while trying to get back into a writing rhythm. I had one before COVID happened; I was actually working at a writer's coop here in Rhode Island and getting a lot done. It was a good thing... But, that all changed when my mom got cancer and then the outbreak took away any chance I had to get out of the house for anything that wasn't work. Things are loosening up here a bit, but with my immune system being what it is... Well, I have to be more careful than most. Anyways, I am getting slowly back into writing again on top of this game, and want to start getting to everything that I owe. I know I have owed it for a long time... And I want to make that right with those that have been so patient for me. Oh, I also made a FLO ( https://furrylife.online/profile/18511-sasukewuff/ ) which I will be cross-posting onto, and putting more art of my other characters on as I want this account to be mostly for the big draolf alone. I also made a Toyhouse account too for all my characters ( https://toyhou.se/sasukewuff ), as well as to show off New SaggingTon itself, as it is more than just a game; it is the town I have used as a setting for most of my stories for the last decade. So yeah! I have been doing things, just behind the scenes work and whatnot quietly making other projects so that I keep creating despite the fact that writing has been a hard ask of me for the last couple years.
So, thanks for giving this a read, and I will have more for y'all sooner rather than later I hope... I should really make journals more than once a year.
Bye 2018! Hi 2019!
Posted 7 years agoSo, figured an update was needed so people didn't think I was dead. I am not, I have just had a lot going on. I lost 2 family members in December, November had be working on 2 cons that I staff, October was Furpocalypse that kept me busy all month, September was working on various projects, August was getting Ceres settled into our house... It was a mess of a year for me in a lot of bad ways. I am not dead though, and I am still very much around; just kind of trying my best to keep my head above water. I made a whole blog post on it here if you want to read about it, but the long and short of it is that 2018 took a whole lot out of me. So, I am trying to get back on track with that, and to that effect, I have been writing again. I have one resolution for this year; to write every single day of the year, and so far I have stuck to that. Granted, it is 3 days into the year, but I am sticking with it! So, there is that. But... Yeah, just a quick little update to say I am still around, still writing, and still doing the best that I can with everything that has been thrown at me.
Explinations and Going Forward Plans
Posted 7 years agoHey guys. Some of you I have talked to, some of you I haven't. Some of you know what is going on with me and why I have been radio silent for nearly a month and a half, some of you don't... So, let me explain what's been going on while I have been basically in hiding for the last 6 or so weeks.
First and foremost, I was in the hospital about a week ago. I woke up with the single worst pain I have ever been in, and within 20 minutes I was on the way to the hospital. Turned out I had kidney stones, and they were bad enough I had pulled a muscle in my lower back. They put me on pain killers that did... Basically nothing, and I have been unable to get good sleep or really do anything since. It's been something I wouldn't wish on anyone, so... Yeah... Not doing great with that. I'm kind of on the mend, as in I can sit and type without my whole body just deciding that I can't do a single thing... I guess that is a good thing, but I am still not great. Getting better though.
Before that, I was at Furnal Equinox (I had never been to a Canadian con, and planned going way back in September of last year), then before that my brother lost a fight with a saw which ate up the first half of this month. He got a giant gash in his leg, and has been on crutches and relying on me for... A lot since the end of February. I'm out of the house to help him with stuff or keep him company at least a couple times a week since then, and he is still in and out of the hospital for it. He's somewhat on the mend too finally though, so we are both finally healing after what was an atrocious month for our health.
February had him getting that gash, then Anthro New England before that which is just a local con I was at for a couple days to see some local friends and meet with a couple people about my staffing duties for other conventions... And before that was TFF, the time-sucking con that basically makes February a month of getting nothing done until the latter half of the month. The week before is all prep, the week of the con I am in Texas proper, and the week after is always catch-up and being sick and getting caught up on the hours upon hours of sleep I missed. I staff that convention as the writing track lead (Meaning all 21 writing panels at the con are my sole responsibility), and by extension helping out with programming as a whole, so that con is a very busy one for me.
So. That is what has been going on. I have tried to keep updated on things by Twitter, but really... It's been hard to do anything but sit on the days I am not running around incredibly busy. I mean the two weeks before FE I was working on my truck to get it ready to drive the 1400 miles there and back to Canada. It was having electrical issues that I fixed, needed a belt and oil change, and various other maintenance things that kept me working on it for 2 weekends. The weeks between I was in and out of Connecticut for my brother or writing when I could muster up the mental strength to do so.
That is something I want to put in here. I have been writing. Not as much as I should have been, but I do have a few stories that are done and just need to be posted. I am keeping my word of continuing to get things done... Just not at a pace that I want to be going. I am not just going to cons willy nilly and ignoring my responsibilities to all of you... I was accused of that by someone, and it stung a lot to have someone thinking that of me. And frankly it killed a lot of my drive for writing for a week or so, to think that someone thought that low of me. I don't just go to cons and fursuit and take advantage of people on this platform... I try to go and write as much as I can, it's just been a shitstorm for me the last 2 months. Cons I can manage, and all 3 I have been to were planned or for purposes that are not just to go and fursuit and have a good time and that's it. Hell, I will be going to FWA here in a few days and that con is not just to go to; I am meeting with an artist there to hash out details for a game idea I have, as well as talk to some TFF staff going now that the con is behind us about what we can do better for next year.
That all being said, waiting this long for an update can't keep being okay. I've said that before, and I did do okay for a couple months... Then fell back into just getting too busy and neglecting my responsibilities. April is a NaNoWriMo month, and expect a lot from that.
I close on this. Thanks for being patient, thank you for supporting me and believing in me to get caught up, and above all thank you for letting me create for you. I attached a completed story so there is a little bit of proof that I have indeed been writing too; can't claim something without showing I'm not full of shit. Enjoy that, again thank you, and I will be hopefully seeing at least one or two of you in stream here soon.
First and foremost, I was in the hospital about a week ago. I woke up with the single worst pain I have ever been in, and within 20 minutes I was on the way to the hospital. Turned out I had kidney stones, and they were bad enough I had pulled a muscle in my lower back. They put me on pain killers that did... Basically nothing, and I have been unable to get good sleep or really do anything since. It's been something I wouldn't wish on anyone, so... Yeah... Not doing great with that. I'm kind of on the mend, as in I can sit and type without my whole body just deciding that I can't do a single thing... I guess that is a good thing, but I am still not great. Getting better though.
Before that, I was at Furnal Equinox (I had never been to a Canadian con, and planned going way back in September of last year), then before that my brother lost a fight with a saw which ate up the first half of this month. He got a giant gash in his leg, and has been on crutches and relying on me for... A lot since the end of February. I'm out of the house to help him with stuff or keep him company at least a couple times a week since then, and he is still in and out of the hospital for it. He's somewhat on the mend too finally though, so we are both finally healing after what was an atrocious month for our health.
February had him getting that gash, then Anthro New England before that which is just a local con I was at for a couple days to see some local friends and meet with a couple people about my staffing duties for other conventions... And before that was TFF, the time-sucking con that basically makes February a month of getting nothing done until the latter half of the month. The week before is all prep, the week of the con I am in Texas proper, and the week after is always catch-up and being sick and getting caught up on the hours upon hours of sleep I missed. I staff that convention as the writing track lead (Meaning all 21 writing panels at the con are my sole responsibility), and by extension helping out with programming as a whole, so that con is a very busy one for me.
So. That is what has been going on. I have tried to keep updated on things by Twitter, but really... It's been hard to do anything but sit on the days I am not running around incredibly busy. I mean the two weeks before FE I was working on my truck to get it ready to drive the 1400 miles there and back to Canada. It was having electrical issues that I fixed, needed a belt and oil change, and various other maintenance things that kept me working on it for 2 weekends. The weeks between I was in and out of Connecticut for my brother or writing when I could muster up the mental strength to do so.
That is something I want to put in here. I have been writing. Not as much as I should have been, but I do have a few stories that are done and just need to be posted. I am keeping my word of continuing to get things done... Just not at a pace that I want to be going. I am not just going to cons willy nilly and ignoring my responsibilities to all of you... I was accused of that by someone, and it stung a lot to have someone thinking that of me. And frankly it killed a lot of my drive for writing for a week or so, to think that someone thought that low of me. I don't just go to cons and fursuit and take advantage of people on this platform... I try to go and write as much as I can, it's just been a shitstorm for me the last 2 months. Cons I can manage, and all 3 I have been to were planned or for purposes that are not just to go and fursuit and have a good time and that's it. Hell, I will be going to FWA here in a few days and that con is not just to go to; I am meeting with an artist there to hash out details for a game idea I have, as well as talk to some TFF staff going now that the con is behind us about what we can do better for next year.
That all being said, waiting this long for an update can't keep being okay. I've said that before, and I did do okay for a couple months... Then fell back into just getting too busy and neglecting my responsibilities. April is a NaNoWriMo month, and expect a lot from that.
I close on this. Thanks for being patient, thank you for supporting me and believing in me to get caught up, and above all thank you for letting me create for you. I attached a completed story so there is a little bit of proof that I have indeed been writing too; can't claim something without showing I'm not full of shit. Enjoy that, again thank you, and I will be hopefully seeing at least one or two of you in stream here soon.
Back From TFF!
Posted 7 years agoHeya! Back from TFF and finally able to sit down and post an update for everyone. Had a busy few days after the con that kept me pretty much swamped, plus catching up on sleep was kind of a thing that needed to happen... I never sleep well in hotels, and being gone for a week was kind of taxing on me. I am coming down with something too, so yay!
Anyways! TFF went super well, and while I want to list all of the peeps who made that con amazing for me... It was just awesome. Huge thanks to
Saphiros for the only art I got while at the con, and to 
lemonbrat for suit number 8... Because I am trash like that. Yeah though, con went super well, and for being birthday con to boot (I turned 28!), it was... Yeah, it was a great time through and through, and just makes me realize every single year just how glad I am that I get to go to Texas, interact with amazing writers and just as amazing furries, and just why I keep doing this. So yeah, totally will be back next year.
Going forward! More writing, I will be hitting FWA in April for sure, and yeah! Just a quick little thing to say I am indeed alive, had an awesome time in Texas, and loved seeing everyone there!
Anyways! TFF went super well, and while I want to list all of the peeps who made that con amazing for me... It was just awesome. Huge thanks to
Saphiros for the only art I got while at the con, and to 
lemonbrat for suit number 8... Because I am trash like that. Yeah though, con went super well, and for being birthday con to boot (I turned 28!), it was... Yeah, it was a great time through and through, and just makes me realize every single year just how glad I am that I get to go to Texas, interact with amazing writers and just as amazing furries, and just why I keep doing this. So yeah, totally will be back next year.Going forward! More writing, I will be hitting FWA in April for sure, and yeah! Just a quick little thing to say I am indeed alive, had an awesome time in Texas, and loved seeing everyone there!
Update and TFF Meme!~
Posted 7 years agoHey y'all. So, first and foremost... I know I said I would be streaming. Well... The flu happened in my house. I had it, then Kita had it... And that basically shut down our whole house for the better part of the month. Mix in some TFF prep, a trip down to Jersey to help out a friend, and SasukeCon 5, and well... Yeah, free time and I didn't really get to know one another till Monday of this week. That was when Monster Hunter happened, and whoa boy did that game bite me hard. I'm on Xbox One (KoG Tigger) if anyone wants to play. I play late at night usually, during the day I have been doing everything from paying bills to dealing with a stolen identity thing that I just had to pay off (Yay fraud and having to prove it!) But yeah... So, I plan on streaming soon, just have been swamped and super sick. I got the flu bad enough that I had 3 conversations with Kita... While he was at work. He got home 3 times in my head, we talked, and then I passed out again. So... Yeah, I was THAT sick. Better now thankfully, just getting back to 100%. Fighting off a cold currently, just thank the shit weather of New England for the delays. Either way, that's what's been up. Haven't been avoiding things... In fact I have put a couple updates in this telegram chat for commissioners and those interested in my writing: t.me/fattywords Go there for more current updates!
Anyways, yeah... So TFF. Here's that meme thing for everyone, and I hope to see some of you there!
Where are you staying?
Dat Main Hotel
What day are you getting there? How long are you staying?
I get there Wednesday morning and leave Tuesday morning because yay staff responsibilities!
How are you traveling?
Via cargo plane; what else will fit my fat ass?
Who will you be rooming with?
With Kita and a couple other fuzzy friends!
Who will you hang out with during the convention?
Whomever wants to hang out with my fat self! Seriously, just whomever though... I avoid making real plans for cons.
What do you look like?
Short, thicc, and always with a hat on~
What is your gender?
Male
How tall are you?
5' Short
How is the best way to find you?
Twitter or Telegram always work, Sasukewuff on both!
If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Uhm... I dunno? I am mostly deaf in one ear so if I don't hear you, then a poke or a hug is always a good way to get my attention.
Are there any panels you might be attending?
https://tff18.sched.com/speaker/sasukewuff I will let that speak to how busy I am going to be.
Will you be going to parties?
If I get invited or dragged along, yup!
Will you be performing/fursuiting?
Oh I will be fursuiting >:3
Do you do free art/trades/commissions?
I do commissions, yup! Doubt I will do any at-con, but seeing as I will be trapped in the writing panel room most of the weekend... Maybe?
Do you have an artist table?
Noooooope. I don't draw, I pay other people to do that for me~
Are you mated/in a relationship?
I'm taken~
Can I talk to you?
I'd hope so! I can't do sign language!
What languages do you speak?
English~
Can I touch you?
Uhm... That just sounds creepy, but okay?
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Hugs are fine, snugs... Invite only~
Can I visit your room?
If I invite you in, of course!
Can I buy you drinks?
I'd hope you would! I happen to be turning 28 on the Wednesday I arrive, so this is 110% Birthday con for me!
Can I give you stuff?
If you want to, I won't say no!
Are you nice?
I like to pretend to be, but I am from New England, so take that as you will... I want to be as nice as I can though, I just can be a little blunt.
Where will you be most of the time during the days?
In the hotel being a dork, stuffing my face, or in the writing panel room.
What/where will you be eating?
Wherever is feeding me at that moment in time, and whatever happens to be edible in front of me~
Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
Maybe? I dunno how much time I will have for all that, but if you get invited or ask, I'm pretty amenable to company~
Can I look in your sketchbook?
If you want to, and if I remember to bring it~
Can I take your picture?
If I'm a fuzzy animal, yes. If not... No thanks >.<
What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
To enjoy my birthday, to run successful panels, and to really just have a good time. Cons have been less and less fun for me as I have gotten older... Maybe just more jaded is a better way to put it. But! I just wanna have fun, enjoy being a year older, and see peeps!~
Anyways, yeah... So TFF. Here's that meme thing for everyone, and I hope to see some of you there!
Where are you staying?
Dat Main Hotel
What day are you getting there? How long are you staying?
I get there Wednesday morning and leave Tuesday morning because yay staff responsibilities!
How are you traveling?
Via cargo plane; what else will fit my fat ass?
Who will you be rooming with?
With Kita and a couple other fuzzy friends!
Who will you hang out with during the convention?
Whomever wants to hang out with my fat self! Seriously, just whomever though... I avoid making real plans for cons.
What do you look like?
Short, thicc, and always with a hat on~
What is your gender?
Male
How tall are you?
5' Short
How is the best way to find you?
Twitter or Telegram always work, Sasukewuff on both!
If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Uhm... I dunno? I am mostly deaf in one ear so if I don't hear you, then a poke or a hug is always a good way to get my attention.
Are there any panels you might be attending?
https://tff18.sched.com/speaker/sasukewuff I will let that speak to how busy I am going to be.
Will you be going to parties?
If I get invited or dragged along, yup!
Will you be performing/fursuiting?
Oh I will be fursuiting >:3
Do you do free art/trades/commissions?
I do commissions, yup! Doubt I will do any at-con, but seeing as I will be trapped in the writing panel room most of the weekend... Maybe?
Do you have an artist table?
Noooooope. I don't draw, I pay other people to do that for me~
Are you mated/in a relationship?
I'm taken~
Can I talk to you?
I'd hope so! I can't do sign language!
What languages do you speak?
English~
Can I touch you?
Uhm... That just sounds creepy, but okay?
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Hugs are fine, snugs... Invite only~
Can I visit your room?
If I invite you in, of course!
Can I buy you drinks?
I'd hope you would! I happen to be turning 28 on the Wednesday I arrive, so this is 110% Birthday con for me!
Can I give you stuff?
If you want to, I won't say no!
Are you nice?
I like to pretend to be, but I am from New England, so take that as you will... I want to be as nice as I can though, I just can be a little blunt.
Where will you be most of the time during the days?
In the hotel being a dork, stuffing my face, or in the writing panel room.
What/where will you be eating?
Wherever is feeding me at that moment in time, and whatever happens to be edible in front of me~
Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
Maybe? I dunno how much time I will have for all that, but if you get invited or ask, I'm pretty amenable to company~
Can I look in your sketchbook?
If you want to, and if I remember to bring it~
Can I take your picture?
If I'm a fuzzy animal, yes. If not... No thanks >.<
What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
To enjoy my birthday, to run successful panels, and to really just have a good time. Cons have been less and less fun for me as I have gotten older... Maybe just more jaded is a better way to put it. But! I just wanna have fun, enjoy being a year older, and see peeps!~
2018 Plans!
Posted 8 years agoCopy of a journal from FattyWords to signal boost it!
Hey everyone! New year, and got a lot planned for this year in terms of writing! There will be a lot going on with me and creating content this year, so I do hope that you are looking forward to seeing a lot of new stories from me this coming year. I have a couple things I want to touch on for that too, but before I do I want to say thank you. This account started at absolute zero. Nothing. No submissions, nothing... And it is mostly just reposts of my old work for new people to see and whatnot. In spite of that though, in just under 2 months, it has over 300 watches and nearly double that in favorites. Thank you so much! You all enjoying what I do and liking it keeps me going, and allows me to keep on doing it. So thank you.
So, first thing. I have a streaming schedule hammered out. I mentioned this on my Patreon a couple nights ago (My patreon is here if you're interested: https://www.patreon.com/FatDraolf ) But I will be streaming Wednesdays and Fridays. First one of the new year will in fact be tomorrow, and those streams will ALWAYS start with Patreon work, then move on to commission work if the time allows for it. Expect at least a couple hours unless I get called away, and always expect those streams unless I mention otherwise. Those streams that I cannot make will be moved, and not cancelled unless it is a con or something that prevents me from moving them... I want to keep a consistent schedule going this year, and this step is part of it. I had planned to start last month, but the holidays and everything around them just took what I had for time and ate it alive, much to my chagrin... This is honestly the most consistent time I have had to work since mid-November. So, I have nothing to post for this month, but I will for sure going forward at the end of every month.
Second thing is that I have made a telegram notification thing for commissioners and patrons, which can be found here: https://t.me/fattywords I will post streaming times, when I will be working on things, and various other notifications in that chat when it comes to working on commissions. If you want to keep up with my work, that would be the best place to do it. I have also gotten word from a couple people that a discord is another option, so I will be looking into that too if that is something that people want me to go and look into. Keep in mind that this is notifications ONLY, if you want to reach me then [at]sasukewuff on telegram is how to do so, amongst the many other platforms that I am on. Either way, just a little something to kind of help and get all the info straight from me without having to worry about checking FA.
Past those two things, again thank you for the support. That's really it. TTFN!
Hey everyone! New year, and got a lot planned for this year in terms of writing! There will be a lot going on with me and creating content this year, so I do hope that you are looking forward to seeing a lot of new stories from me this coming year. I have a couple things I want to touch on for that too, but before I do I want to say thank you. This account started at absolute zero. Nothing. No submissions, nothing... And it is mostly just reposts of my old work for new people to see and whatnot. In spite of that though, in just under 2 months, it has over 300 watches and nearly double that in favorites. Thank you so much! You all enjoying what I do and liking it keeps me going, and allows me to keep on doing it. So thank you.
So, first thing. I have a streaming schedule hammered out. I mentioned this on my Patreon a couple nights ago (My patreon is here if you're interested: https://www.patreon.com/FatDraolf ) But I will be streaming Wednesdays and Fridays. First one of the new year will in fact be tomorrow, and those streams will ALWAYS start with Patreon work, then move on to commission work if the time allows for it. Expect at least a couple hours unless I get called away, and always expect those streams unless I mention otherwise. Those streams that I cannot make will be moved, and not cancelled unless it is a con or something that prevents me from moving them... I want to keep a consistent schedule going this year, and this step is part of it. I had planned to start last month, but the holidays and everything around them just took what I had for time and ate it alive, much to my chagrin... This is honestly the most consistent time I have had to work since mid-November. So, I have nothing to post for this month, but I will for sure going forward at the end of every month.
Second thing is that I have made a telegram notification thing for commissioners and patrons, which can be found here: https://t.me/fattywords I will post streaming times, when I will be working on things, and various other notifications in that chat when it comes to working on commissions. If you want to keep up with my work, that would be the best place to do it. I have also gotten word from a couple people that a discord is another option, so I will be looking into that too if that is something that people want me to go and look into. Keep in mind that this is notifications ONLY, if you want to reach me then [at]sasukewuff on telegram is how to do so, amongst the many other platforms that I am on. Either way, just a little something to kind of help and get all the info straight from me without having to worry about checking FA.
Past those two things, again thank you for the support. That's really it. TTFN!
2017 Wrap Up
Posted 8 years ago2017 comes to a close in about 25 hours, and I can really, truthfully say good riddance. I made a blog post on my own site here for those who are curious, but the summation of the whole thing is that this year was incredibly rough for me personally and one that I want not to repeat. I am coming out the other side feeling... Well, like I failed a lot of people, like I've lost some friends, and that all I have to show for it is the hope that things will improve at some point. I know the calendar rolling over means fuck all, it is another day, another rotation of the earth. I am trying to use it as a way to really start some change though, and with that I am hoping to move forward. I have plans... Plans I was hoping to implement this month, but it was so busy that this is the first time I have had a chance to really kind of sit and parse things out in nearly 5 weeks. I have just been going, and going, and going for weeks now. It was not so much that I was running as it was that I was sprinting that whole time, and it really... Well, it put a damper on how I wanted to start 2018. I still am going to implement change though, even if it is a bit late. Those changes, just so people can know them:
- Patreon/Commissioner chat on Telegram for everyone to get real time updates from me
- Firmed up and consistent streaming schedule
- More regular posting
- Actually talking to people rather than waiting for them to talk to me
I have a lot of work to do... But, I know that. I have known it for a while honestly, but just getting to it and getting over what was a really crushing year... Yeah, that isn't something easy for me to just DO. It is hard, and only made harder thanks to some serious depression that ran largely unchecked for the entirety of 2017. I want to push it down at least, and spent a lot of the last 2 months doing that. It is there, and always will be... Not something I can control. What I can control though is the hold I let it have over me, and that is one other positive I got from 2017; rememebering that fact and doing something about it.
Anyways! Just a quick summation of this year here. My blog has kind of more in depth thoughts. But! Hope that everyone here has a safe new year, and that it goes over well for everyone. I will be posting something about the new year and plans going forward both here and on fattywords for everyone.
Bye 2017!
- Patreon/Commissioner chat on Telegram for everyone to get real time updates from me
- Firmed up and consistent streaming schedule
- More regular posting
- Actually talking to people rather than waiting for them to talk to me
I have a lot of work to do... But, I know that. I have known it for a while honestly, but just getting to it and getting over what was a really crushing year... Yeah, that isn't something easy for me to just DO. It is hard, and only made harder thanks to some serious depression that ran largely unchecked for the entirety of 2017. I want to push it down at least, and spent a lot of the last 2 months doing that. It is there, and always will be... Not something I can control. What I can control though is the hold I let it have over me, and that is one other positive I got from 2017; rememebering that fact and doing something about it.
Anyways! Just a quick summation of this year here. My blog has kind of more in depth thoughts. But! Hope that everyone here has a safe new year, and that it goes over well for everyone. I will be posting something about the new year and plans going forward both here and on fattywords for everyone.
Bye 2017!
New Uploads! Post-MFF Schedule!
Posted 8 years agoNew stuff got posted on FattyWords for all of you to see, so go check out that account for the latest stories from me! Keep an eye there too for streaming announcements, which will be coming in the next few days now that Thanksgiving and MFF are behind me!~
As for anything else...Jeez MFF was great. Met a ton of people, spent time with a ton of awesome peeps, and really I could just gush for a long time here. I am gonna write a proper blog post about it at some point soon, just been dead since I got back or swamped... So, kinda haven't had the time. But this was what a con was supposed to be, and it really gave me a ton of creative energy. Two things came up a lot though that I want to clarify from that con: 1, I am ALWAYS open for speedwrite commissions! Just message me if you're not sure! 2. I don't ever have a time where I'm too busy to talk to. Talk away, I will ALWAYS respond. So, yeah... Wanted to clear that up here.
Anyways, going forward now... I will try to get a firm streaming schedule down to twice a week starting next week. I got that bug going something fierce from before the con, and the con just added to it. I wasn't able to stream NEARLY as much as I wanted to last month thanks to work and family goings-on (Sister had rather serious brain surgery but she's okay now!), plus MFF was a thing... So that ate a ton of my time. That and redoing my site and making FattyWords pretty much took that month and decided that all the creative energy I had needed to get used elsewhere. I still have it though, so as soon as free time starts coming back... Expect a lot. But! Enjoy the posts, and keep an eye on the new account and twitter for streaming stuff! Thanks!
As for anything else...Jeez MFF was great. Met a ton of people, spent time with a ton of awesome peeps, and really I could just gush for a long time here. I am gonna write a proper blog post about it at some point soon, just been dead since I got back or swamped... So, kinda haven't had the time. But this was what a con was supposed to be, and it really gave me a ton of creative energy. Two things came up a lot though that I want to clarify from that con: 1, I am ALWAYS open for speedwrite commissions! Just message me if you're not sure! 2. I don't ever have a time where I'm too busy to talk to. Talk away, I will ALWAYS respond. So, yeah... Wanted to clear that up here.
Anyways, going forward now... I will try to get a firm streaming schedule down to twice a week starting next week. I got that bug going something fierce from before the con, and the con just added to it. I wasn't able to stream NEARLY as much as I wanted to last month thanks to work and family goings-on (Sister had rather serious brain surgery but she's okay now!), plus MFF was a thing... So that ate a ton of my time. That and redoing my site and making FattyWords pretty much took that month and decided that all the creative energy I had needed to get used elsewhere. I still have it though, so as soon as free time starts coming back... Expect a lot. But! Enjoy the posts, and keep an eye on the new account and twitter for streaming stuff! Thanks!
New FA Account! New Website! **Read This For Stories!!!**
Posted 8 years agoHey everybody!
So, some of you have noticed but I am sure a lot of you missed it; I have moved all of my stories over to a different FA account!
This account will have all of my writing going forward on it. This will be the account for commissions, the account for any personal stories, and basically any writing that I do will go onto this account. It will be all there, and all the stories I have done in the past are reposted there with new shiny icons and working links to my own site. Keep an eye there, as I will be putting up a journal there too with new commission details and everything else soon. I figured decluttering this account and making it easier than ever to find all of my writing was in order, and it has been long enough since I did any major updating to that effect.
Speaking of my website, it has had an entire refresh in design! I rebuilt it from the ground up, redesigning the whole thing and bring all of my kind of sites together into one big blog thing that makes it easier to find everything.
Check that site out! Let me know if you find anything broken on there too, as I can fix it on the fly. But that site will also be the easiest place to read my writing too, so just keep an eye there as well. There is even an easy little subscribe form at the bottom of the page so that you can stay up to date and get emails every time I post things. Another place to keep an eye on for that is Twitter, as it auto-tweets anything that I post there. So... Yeah, just keep an eye out, and thanks a ton for enjoying my content.
On the topic of my content too; I will be putting up a posting schedule on fattywords here in a few minutes. It will be at the end of every month that I will post what I have. I will also start streaming again... I know I tried to at the beginning of the month, but life decided that it had other plans. Last week was a mess of work and con catch-up thanks to being a director/lead at two conventions, as well as a panelist for MFF. I am behind on all of that as well... So, yeah, my efforts have been focused there as well as getting all of this done for all of you. I haven't forgotten about streaming though, I just have been working around 18 hours a day for the last few days to get everything done, handled, emails replied to, and all of that. Couple a new tattoo, a mess of family, and... Yeah. Just bad month. Either way, I will be getting back to it here in a day or two! I didn't forget! Just keep an eye on fattywords and twitter for streaming announcements!
Thanks guys, really. All of you that enjoy what I do... That's why I keep doing it.
**Edit** This new account got over 200 watches in about 3 days... Holy. Fucking. Crap. You guys... I'm gonna go hide and blush forever now.
So, some of you have noticed but I am sure a lot of you missed it; I have moved all of my stories over to a different FA account!
fattywords
fattywordsThis account will have all of my writing going forward on it. This will be the account for commissions, the account for any personal stories, and basically any writing that I do will go onto this account. It will be all there, and all the stories I have done in the past are reposted there with new shiny icons and working links to my own site. Keep an eye there, as I will be putting up a journal there too with new commission details and everything else soon. I figured decluttering this account and making it easier than ever to find all of my writing was in order, and it has been long enough since I did any major updating to that effect.
Speaking of my website, it has had an entire refresh in design! I rebuilt it from the ground up, redesigning the whole thing and bring all of my kind of sites together into one big blog thing that makes it easier to find everything.
Cawdor DesignsCheck that site out! Let me know if you find anything broken on there too, as I can fix it on the fly. But that site will also be the easiest place to read my writing too, so just keep an eye there as well. There is even an easy little subscribe form at the bottom of the page so that you can stay up to date and get emails every time I post things. Another place to keep an eye on for that is Twitter, as it auto-tweets anything that I post there. So... Yeah, just keep an eye out, and thanks a ton for enjoying my content.
On the topic of my content too; I will be putting up a posting schedule on fattywords here in a few minutes. It will be at the end of every month that I will post what I have. I will also start streaming again... I know I tried to at the beginning of the month, but life decided that it had other plans. Last week was a mess of work and con catch-up thanks to being a director/lead at two conventions, as well as a panelist for MFF. I am behind on all of that as well... So, yeah, my efforts have been focused there as well as getting all of this done for all of you. I haven't forgotten about streaming though, I just have been working around 18 hours a day for the last few days to get everything done, handled, emails replied to, and all of that. Couple a new tattoo, a mess of family, and... Yeah. Just bad month. Either way, I will be getting back to it here in a day or two! I didn't forget! Just keep an eye on fattywords and twitter for streaming announcements!
Thanks guys, really. All of you that enjoy what I do... That's why I keep doing it.
**Edit** This new account got over 200 watches in about 3 days... Holy. Fucking. Crap. You guys... I'm gonna go hide and blush forever now.
Streaming!
Posted 8 years agoHey there! Just a little streaming notice over on my Patreon for everyone to take a look at. I am by no means dead, and will be live every day this month in order to not only get caught up, but to catch up with all of you who enjoy what I do. Coming back after a while and... Yeah. Go head on over and read it at your liesure, or just catch me online at www.picarto.tv/FattyWords every day! I will be putting up a post daily to that effect as well, and tweeting it out, so keep an eye here and on Twitter sasukewuff for any times and news from me :3 Thanks!
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Not Dead
Posted 8 years agoNo, I'm not... Close, but not quite. Here's what's been going on: http://cawdordesigns.com/?p=183 Read if ya want, if ya don't. that's fine too. Just been hiding because reality came and sucker-punched me yet again... Can't catch a break this year. The big take-away from that though is I gotta be treating writing like work, and I plan on doing that going forward... I stopped doing that somewhere along the way, and I can't be doing that. So, more soon. That's it. Not much to say here... Just a quick shout that I'm not dead and gone and abandoning things.
Furthemore, Updates, and Yeah!
Posted 8 years agoHeya! So, I will spare you all the wall of text and just leave a link to what has been going on the last two months here: http://cawdordesigns.com/?p=175 If you want to know where I have been and what has had me basically stick my head in the sand and go into survival mode... There it is for you. I am coming back out though, and aside from cancelling plans for 2 cons that I had so that I can focus on getting caught up, I am also going to be making a streaming schedule for going forward. Sticking to it... Yeah, that has been my issue because of all the traveling that has been going on, and that I normally do. I am putting all of that on hold though, everything. I am basically taking my life and putting it on hold outside of this and other commissions so that I can deliver on a lot of failed promises and just kind of... Delays. So, yeah.
As for new stuff from me. I have a few things that need final edits and posting, as promised in an FA journal from about a month ago. I will be at Furthemore this weekend where I will be doing some final edits as well as just hanging out. I am running panels there, 2 to be exact, so expect to see me! And... Yeah. Once I am home this time, no sick boyfriend and family drama should be waiting for me, so I should be able to actually get things done this time! Hopefully!
Thanks for the patience and sticking around.
As for new stuff from me. I have a few things that need final edits and posting, as promised in an FA journal from about a month ago. I will be at Furthemore this weekend where I will be doing some final edits as well as just hanging out. I am running panels there, 2 to be exact, so expect to see me! And... Yeah. Once I am home this time, no sick boyfriend and family drama should be waiting for me, so I should be able to actually get things done this time! Hopefully!
Thanks for the patience and sticking around.
Heading to TFF! And Small Update!
Posted 8 years agoHey! Super fast update just to give everyone an idea where I have been and what's been going on. So! I was poised to get working again, had a couple stories done... Then went to Texas for a couple weeks for a much-needed vacation; not a con, actual vacation... Haven't done that in ages, and it was very much needed. Came back to an utter shitstorm however, and it's been all I have to keep my head above water these last 3 weeks. Between a metric fuck-ton of family drama that has eaten a large portion of my time, to household things that aren't drama, but changes, and a nasty stomach bug that kept me knocked out for the better part of a week... It's been hectic to say the least. Things are settling down again though, and I have some finished work that is going to be posted once I get back from Texas yet again! What kind of finished work? You'll have to wait and see... But, there is stuff, promise! It's sitting in my upload folder, and I want to try and get a couple more done while I am away to give y'all a good bit of stuff to read after not uploading for so long. Either way, I'm not dead and I'm not forgetting all of y'all and all that... Just getting back on track, again. Be nice to stay on track, ya know?
Anyways! I'm also gonna be heading to TFF! I have 6 Panels that I am helping running, or running in general over the course of the convention, and you should see me running around in suit as well! Just expect to see me, and give me a shout of a hi if ya do! The panels I will be hosting are:
Hope to see some of you there!
Anyways! I'm also gonna be heading to TFF! I have 6 Panels that I am helping running, or running in general over the course of the convention, and you should see me running around in suit as well! Just expect to see me, and give me a shout of a hi if ya do! The panels I will be hosting are:
Friday, March 24
1:30pm Writing Contest
9:30pm AD: Adult Writing 101
Saturday, March 25
8:00am Writers' Meet & Greet
9:00am Short vs. Long: Storytelling
9:30pm AD: Mature Writing Particulars
Sunday, March 26
5:00pm Commission WritingHope to see some of you there!
So I'm 27 Now
Posted 8 years agoYeah... 27 years old or young or that I've existed or however ya wanna put it. Send cake! <3333
New Year, New Draolf
Posted 9 years agoHeya! So, Happy New Years and all of that shenanigans. I do hope everyone had a good holiday and the like, I sure know mine was... Interesting shall we say. But, the holidays are finally over and it is time to settle into a new year with new challenges.
The biggest of those challenges, for me, are getting caught up with writing and kind of either reconnecting with this fandom, or leaving it. I have felt disconnected for a while now, and it took New Years and some talking to friends to really kind of get in touch with that feeling. I mean, I don't even know what to do with furry nowadays... I have an old definition of what it means to be in this fandom, where the new one that has emerged isn't something I'm comfortable with in the least. This fandom changed somewhere along the line into something I'm not as big of a fan of, and while I still have a lot of friends who are well and truly furry, I... Well, I need to do a lot of soul searching this year to figure out if that is even me anymore.
The writing thing is another thing entirely, and something I am already actively working on. I'm not sick (FINALLY!), the surgery went well and I'm finally off taking ibproufen like candy as well as back to eating normally, so that's a massive bonus for me. I've already got a little something to shake the dust off in the works, as well as projects that are well overdue finally getting the dust shaken off them as well. So, yeah... I have that drive back, and combined with a laptop I can finally stream from (Yay!), expect a lot from me in the coming weeks. Seriously this time too... I've been through the wringer with writing and life things that those around me know about, and frankly I haven't been okay for a pretty long time. I'm still not, not at all, but... I need to get this done. I owe you all a lot, and I think it's well past time I delivered.
So yeah! New update and the likes done, be sure to watch my twitter (sasukewuff) and picarto (FattyWords) for streaming announcements, as well as for more stuff from me! Thanks!~
The biggest of those challenges, for me, are getting caught up with writing and kind of either reconnecting with this fandom, or leaving it. I have felt disconnected for a while now, and it took New Years and some talking to friends to really kind of get in touch with that feeling. I mean, I don't even know what to do with furry nowadays... I have an old definition of what it means to be in this fandom, where the new one that has emerged isn't something I'm comfortable with in the least. This fandom changed somewhere along the line into something I'm not as big of a fan of, and while I still have a lot of friends who are well and truly furry, I... Well, I need to do a lot of soul searching this year to figure out if that is even me anymore.
The writing thing is another thing entirely, and something I am already actively working on. I'm not sick (FINALLY!), the surgery went well and I'm finally off taking ibproufen like candy as well as back to eating normally, so that's a massive bonus for me. I've already got a little something to shake the dust off in the works, as well as projects that are well overdue finally getting the dust shaken off them as well. So, yeah... I have that drive back, and combined with a laptop I can finally stream from (Yay!), expect a lot from me in the coming weeks. Seriously this time too... I've been through the wringer with writing and life things that those around me know about, and frankly I haven't been okay for a pretty long time. I'm still not, not at all, but... I need to get this done. I owe you all a lot, and I think it's well past time I delivered.
So yeah! New update and the likes done, be sure to watch my twitter (sasukewuff) and picarto (FattyWords) for streaming announcements, as well as for more stuff from me! Thanks!~
ABC Auction Results/Progress and TFF!
Posted 11 years agoSo! I have finally heard back from mostly everyone who was in the auction I hosted, and all but a couple are paid and with ideas in and everything. I will start working on these ASAP, going in alphabetical order. I will let you know when I get to yours, and I will be going through them as I have time. Keep in mind I will be at a con for a week, and that I work a 60+ hour a week job. I will still do my best though, and feel free to check up on me for progress when you see fit... This doesn't mean nag me, but every week or so just ask what letter I am on or whatever. Either way, I am nearly fully done tallying everything up, and should be able to start even while I am at TFF...
Speaking of which, I will be at TFF! I am staff there, so I will be getting to Dallas tomorrow morning and be there until Tuesday night! If any of ya fuzzbutts are going, lemme know! I have only been to Texas one other time for this con, so I want to know good places to eat, and am always up for that. Besides, need more furs to hang out with there... All work and no play makes for a boring draolf. And I need someone to share my booze with! Either way, hope to see at least some of you there!
Speaking of which, I will be at TFF! I am staff there, so I will be getting to Dallas tomorrow morning and be there until Tuesday night! If any of ya fuzzbutts are going, lemme know! I have only been to Texas one other time for this con, so I want to know good places to eat, and am always up for that. Besides, need more furs to hang out with there... All work and no play makes for a boring draolf. And I need someone to share my booze with! Either way, hope to see at least some of you there!
