hi, all. sorry for the radio silence of 4 months or so.

i had a series of life emergencies. my partner has been going through some surgeries, ive almost been to the hospital a handful of times myself (i probably should have gone i just cant afford it). family not doing well. having a lot of personal struggles besides all this. went through 2 months of anguish and torture. it has been the hardest time of my life so far. my life is still kind of in pieces.

i took a break because drawing stopped being fun amid the stress i was under all that time. god knows i could have used the money from commissions but i dont want drawing to not be fun. i dont want it to be something i feel like i have to do to survive even when i want to stop, which it had started to feel like the first time my partner needed emergency surgery. i couldnt focus on making good art when i was worried about my partners health and how we were going to afford treatment and groceries and bills etc. i was scared and i didnt want furry porn to be the thing that was keeping me afloat. i finished paid commissions and despite being fatigued, i set out new YCHs and felt a sense of dread. i realized i desperately needed to take some time for myself. i hope you all understand. taking care of yourself is important and i urge you all to do so when necessary! burn out takes a long time to recover from and is not worth it.

fortunately we are in a stable place again in terms of survival. we are in a better living arrangement, have food to eat, and my partner has worked out some financial aid for his medical costs. some things are still tough, but not nail-bitingly so.

i can't say for sure how permanently i will be back. i'm having some health problems of my own that i'm struggling to manage.

i have some halloween costume goals i'd really like to fund because its my favorite holiday/season of the year and i want to do something fulfilling in that arena but if i end up getting stressed then i may have to take another break. i never want to let anybody down and i certainly won't push myself harder than i can go. my personal health has been really precarious lately and i can't afford a hospital trip.

i haven't drawn at all this whole time, sexy stuff or not. hopefully i can get into the swing of things without much resistance.

if you care to do so you can wish me peace and health lol.