For the longest time I’ve been unmotivated and uninspired. Most of the impact has been seen in my writing. It mostly had to do with me losing my laptop and thus all the progress I had worked on for my main story.

Recently I lost my mate. It was sudden. No warning, no fight, just a sudden blockage throughout the board. I literally lost all contact with him and I’ve been left broken and alone. Because of this for the last week I’ve been heavily depressed and my health has deteriorated horribly. I was already ill when it happened and have not been able to cure myself due to the amount of stress and sadness I’ve been forced to endure.

I don’t like being alone. I’ve never felt comfortable with not having someone to love and feel loved. Makes me feel incomplete and somewhat discarded.

A friend suggested I seek help in FA, but I doubt it would help much. Instead I’ve made a decision. Originally I was going to destroy all my work and just disappear, but after looking through my watchers list I realized it would be unfair to those who like my work. I’ve always felt that nobody likes my stuff, but the fact that they’re there proves me wrong.

My mate and I had plans for the future of my stories. A lot of the development that was going to go into the creation of MegaFrost’s adventures now leaves with him. As such I’m going to need to take things into a new direction and strive to work things out.

My main focus will be to finish my first story and eventually write up the different episodic adventures I had originally envisioned when I created MegaFrost. Besides these I also plan to write out stories suggested by friends as well as other original tales from the world of New Earth that I created for MegaFrost. This would also include yiffy content for those looking for more adult situations. Frost himself is bi, so that’s just more fun for everyone. Who doesn’t love a super husky anyway?

After much pain I have come to terms with the fact that I’ll never have my foxy back. It hurts just writing this. I’ll actively continue seeking out a new mate that shares the same things I like. I’m simple enough. Video games, speedos, superheroes. I know there aren’t that many superfurs or speedofurs out there, but maybe someday I’ll find someone who can bring as much, if not more happiness that my old mate did. All I can do is hope.

So stay tuned folks. MegaFrost is coming back and more adventures are over the horizon!

Any comments or words of motivation will be greatly appreciated.