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Digital Artist | Registered: Jun 16, 2013 03:27
『♚ᕮᗰᓰᒪᎩ ᒪ〇ᘮ - ♀ - USA ♚』
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『 hi! im emily but you can call me bedtime or goldie... or just emily works too!
MY COMMISSIONS ARE OPEN AND I AM IN DIRE NEED OF MONEY. PLEASE SEE MY COMMISSION INFO HERE!
i live in the midwest USA and i'm going to be a future business major, art is my hobby.
i've been doing digital work since 2007.
my girlfriend is
purrpawsterous and i love her so much!
occasionally i will post nsfw and bloody things/gore. 』
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『 CHARACTER LIST
Goldie the Golden Tiger/Shark
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Bedtime the Lynx
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Dusk the Snow Leopard
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Caly the Dragon
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Mew the Sand Cat/Snake
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Lulu the Fox
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Amber the Dragon/Wolf
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Carmin the Fox
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ART STATUS
requests: closed unless i say
art trades: maybe
commissions: OPEN
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Journals: 13
Recent Journal
I NEED HELP! (COMMISSIONS OPEN! STARTING AT $5)
10 years ago
Hi everyone! I've made a couple personal journals about the topic on here before but I've recently gotten into a big pinch and I owe my mom a large sum of money.
I already made a sfw commission journal on deviantArt, so here's the link to that.
http://yellowflickerbeat.deviantart.....OPEN-556682147
http://yellowflickerbeat.deviantart.....OPEN-556682147
http://yellowflickerbeat.deviantart.....OPEN-556682147
http://yellowflickerbeat.deviantart.....OPEN-556682147
Concerning NSFW commissions (and commishes in general,) Please read my Terms of Service before commissioning me.
Now, I'm going to put some starting prices for my NSFW art below. And yes, they are more expensive than regular commissions. Why? Because it's business! I think I'm driving a pretty nice bargain here, anyways,
ONE CHARACTER - $25
Example: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17000974/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17430901/
>Will be fully colored/shaded
>Simple backgrounds are free
>$+5 for a complex background
TWO CHARACTERS - $35
Example: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17401452/
>Will be fully colored/shaded
>Simple backgrounds are free
>$+5 for a complex background
THREE OR MORE CHARACTERS - $40
Example: I've never done something like this. Help me put an example here by buying!
>Will be fully colored/shaded
>Simple backgrounds are free
>$+5 for a complex background
Anyways, incase you didn't look at my deviantArt journal, here's the information regarding why I need this money.
For those of you who aren't aware (you probably aren't), I have Bipolar Disorder and Asperger's syndrome (will explain relevance later). Being bipolar heavily impacts my life, but luckily I take medication to help stabilize my moods and make it possible to function.
However, as of a few weeks ago, I went on vacation and ran out of my medicine. I don't have severe withdrawls without it, so I didn't mind it too much and figured I would get it refilled when I came home. So after being cold turkey off of my medicine after two weeks of vacation, I returned home to a mother who outright refused get my refill of my prescription for me. I had already begun to escalate into a manic phase, during which I had begun to stop sleeping and began to spend money recklessly.
Regardless of my obvious symptoms and my literal, real diagnosis with bipolar disorder, my mom would not get my medicine for me, saying I don't have bipolar, and that I'm "probably just A.D.D."
I'm used to my mom pulling this kind of shit on me, but the symptoms of what would turn into the most severe manic phase I have ever experienced started to interfere with my life.
Normally, like many other bipolar people, I actually enjoy my manic phases. I feel very excited, motivated, and full of energy. And like any other manic phase I had had, I was. At first.
Then I completely stopped sleeping altogether.
To those of you who have pulled all nighters, possibly even consecutive ones, you know how awful it feels to be completely sleepless. But eventually you crash from exhaustion, sleep for 12 hours, and you're fine again. Right?
Not quite. I mean, eventually exhaustion would completely consume me and I would pass out, but only to sleep for a few restless hours plagued with nightmares until I finally woke, feeling even worse.
So, my sleeping schedule got fucked up. I felt sick. That's not that bad.
But what I did during the many hours of being awake is why I need your help.
A VERY common symptom of bipolar is making very reckless decisions, a lot which involve spending money.
Lots of money.
I couldn't have stopped it if I wanted to. I could literally not control my hands as they confirmed my purchase, and my next purchase, and my next purchase.
And what was I buying?
Shit for games. That's right. GAMES.
Having Asperger's, I often need to do something to stimulate my mind or I become very uncomfortable/irritated. Usually it's something subtle like biting my nails, picking at my split ends, chewing on something, etc.
But at the same time, I was filled with boundless energy and would become extremely irritable/jittery if I wasn't fully engaged in something during this manic phase.
So, I played games.
And I spent the money on things to help further myself through the games/make the playing experience better for myself. You know, like premium currency, power-ups, that sort of thing.
I spent 300 dollars of my mother's money doing this during a span of a few weeks.
I would cry because I knew what I was doing was wrong but I just couldn't stop myself.
So now I need your help. I finally got my medication again a few days ago and I'm able to sleep again.
But I'm apparently still spending money.
I checked my paypal today and it had sad I had spent 70 dollars JUST TODAY on the same games and shit like before. I don't remember doing that and believe I have already used whatever I spent the money on, so I can't even be like, "Oh, I remember! I bought this and here it is."
Now that I'm starting to get back in my right mind again, I can't even begin to explain the amount of guilt and anxiety that I'm overwhelmed with right now. I can't believe that even on my medicine again I'm still spending this money and I don't even remember when I do.
I need to pay back my mom. You might be thinking, "She didn't get you your medicine that whole time AND won't validate your mental illness. Why should you?"
I thought about the same thing while I was spending her money, but the truth is that she is my mom and even though she has her Mom Moments I need to pay her back. We're already poor as is, and we can't afford a minus 300 dollars, especially at this time of the year.
Also, what I did was really illegal. She could technically take me to court for this (but I'm not worried about that at all, it's not something she would do)
So, not only what I did was illegal and hurting our family, but just morally wrong. I can't stand watching my mom hold back tears asking me over and over again why I did this, and why I'm so cruel and careless.
She doesn't even know that I've spent more than 100 dollars, either. I absolutely cannot let this continue without having a way to pay her back.
I intend on getting a job when the restaurant a few blocks from my house opens (I can't drive, another reason why I couldn't get my medicine myself) but until then, this is my only way of making money. And I REALLY need it.
Please consider commissioning me, and if you can't, please signal boost this journal or tell your friends who might be interested. I have the worst guilt complex ever and will never stop hating myself over this until I can pay my mom back.
Thanks so much for reading and double thanks if you are considering commissioning me.
If you have any questions feel free to ask! You can comment me, note me, whatever works.
Also, in case anyone is feeling generous and doesn't want a commission but wants to help me, you can donate any amount of money to my paypal (69noobpwner69@gmail.com). Even a couple cents will help!
I forgot to mention this before but on the topic of paypal I will only be accepting paypal payments. It's the only way I can, sorry!
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