It has been a while, for quite long I have been thinking what I could say after cutting myself from internet and any social presence, I feel like I needed it - to rethink on what I should truly focus on.
I can't say I fully recovered I'm far from it perhaps it will never happen and I need to learn how to live with it
one is clear - small step at a time and be true to who I am

I'm pretty sure I forgot most what I wanted to say or do but I still have in mind all of YOU who gave me a spark among darkness, your kind words and support was definitely what my peanut brain needed
I was totally lost at how to respond other than simple thank you, I did attempt a few times to reach out to you but got frozen everytime, first time is difficult ;-;
nevertheless I read and I'm grateful for everything!
being in the lowest truly shows who really care in some cases I'm surprised in other less but still hurts how naive I can be

I noticed writing stuff helps my mind be less overwhelmed so blabbering continues:'D cuz I'm about to face my nemesis which is next week ie my birthday yay? I know how stupid it may sounds most people like this moment but in my case in this particular year I'm mentally devastated and depressed (no worries I had loong conversation with my specialist about it) it has connection to the past I won't go into details SO I turn.. DRUMS PLEASE .. 30!! I wonder to who this number was surprise its first time I share my age online lol

I don't know why I talk about it possibly it's transition to the next thing which is EUROFURENCE AAaaaaaa!! My fiance knows how hard this pillow is to swallow for me so to turn this bad number into something worth remembering we are going to our first furry convention I'm super excited about owo everything is booked and paid no turning back:3
I do plenty of fursuit making beside drawing and plan to finish my partial just in time
I know I'm not super popular or recognizable but if any of you plan to go there I'd be more than happy to say even simple hi ^-^

I bet I could make this like real journal or diary so I tried to keep things simple but still ahhh
In short I'll do my best to answer everything I have and some art should appear here n there!

Hope you all are doing well !!