In just 7 years, since I broke the repressive barrier that I had in my loneliness, I tried on the internet what I couldn't in real life, they abused me psychologically, they insulted me, they took advantage of me, they abandoned me, they defamed me, They harassed me, I lost several friends by suicide, others played with my feelings, so much confusion was generated in my mind, my insecurities grew, I followed advice from people I trusted, because they were friends for years and they only ended up manipulating me, everything affected me point that for a year because of my explosions and reactions I have only come to hurt those I love, saying meaningless and unintentional fallacies under attacks of anxiety losing control, I try to improve and learn how to relate, but people just tell me that never I will change, they reproach me and emphasize my mistakes, making my psychological situation difficult, to all those who had to tolerate me with my tantrums and emotional explosions, I offer you an apology, h So many things have happened that I can only make a drastic decision, I will not relate anymore, I will only keep those friends who stayed with me, I thank you all for making my suffering less severe