I come here to give explanations of situations that I have caused, about two years ago I broke the silence, trying to defend myself from so many attacks that I received, the problem is that I am impulsive, I do not think before saying things, I just shout in a mixture of anxiety, fear and anger, saying stupid things to everyone, and then dying in guilt for what I did without thinking, they discriminate against me because of my gender, they attack me for my content, they abandon me because of prejudice and I must always accept and shut up.
Now there are people ganging up on me, revealing my past failings to ruin my reputation, so if they're going to find out let it be because of me. Due to so much toxicity received, so many attacks, so many traumas and little experience socializing, I have made so many fatal mistakes that have taken their toll on me, I have been banned from 6 servers, many friends have abandoned me, whom I loved with all my heart, After I had abandoned servers due to their high toxicity, following bad advice from friends who wanted to harm me, I hurt those who did love me and cared about me.
The bad acts that I committed after attacks of anxiety and insecurity and the use of bad advice, have been, guilty trip, harassment of users who have blocked me, jealousy towards friends, curses said on the air and the one that stands out the most is kinkshaming, I have committed every one of them and I accept it, ashamed of my actions, because I am not like that, all that has happened and I have done it in rection, paying with the same currency to people who did nothing to me.
I must clarify that I am not a bad person, I made my mistakes, fatal mistakes, I am not a manipulator, I am not a liar, I am not intolerant and I do not hate anyone, they were mistakes, I am willing to change, I repent, I beg your forgiveness and an opportunity to redeem myself, I regret having become what I am not, but from now on I will be a better person, because those who have stayed with me and supported me deserve the good Ty, who I was from the beginning and not the one who Unfortunately the people in discord met, forgive me for being so stupid to the point of losing almost everything, I understood what I was doing