Huh? 10 years already since I joined FurAffinity? The "Registered since" tag on my homepage apparently tells me so.

A decade feels a bit overwhelming. And yet, simultaneously, it feels like forever since I first signed in to this community. Reading again my first short story, written specifically for my FA's gallery, I can't help but chuckle/cringe a bit. I can hardly believe it was these same sausages that have typed those silly words so many years ago.

But then again: were they really that many?

The other thing that makes me feel like I've been here since forever is how present FurAffinity has become in my life. I definitely don't log in every day in here, but I think I'm not mistaken if I say that I've never been away from here for more than a week straight. Never!

My tastes have changed a lot since May 9th, 2012, but ever since then the core of my pursuit has always been the same: paws, of course (duh!).

My foot/crush fetishism is present in my memory literally as far back as I can remember. But, 10 years ago, the cross over to paws was but a sort of exotic touch I consciously added to my inherent sexual interests: it felt a bit too out there, too extreme for me, I admit. Back then, I was but a teenager who was still getting used to the idea he was not the only "freak" of his sort in the World. Enjoying myself watching big people crush smaller people underfoot was okay, but under giant paws? That was too bestial, a step beyond the red line. Paradoxically, at the same time and for the exact same reasons, it felt exciting, riveting...somewhat transgressive.

It is curious to recall those feelings nowadays. Just a few years ago, the roles have flipped. Today, human feet have taken the backseat as something that arouses me, and paws have slowly made their way to the top of my preferences. Animal feet have taken such a spotlight in my sexual fantasies that, somehow, they have mixed with my tendency for a slight misanthropic/nihilistic outlook on life in general, to the point that I can hardly conjure something as arousing to me than the thought of giant animals obliterating Mankind under their paws.

Oh well, my preferences regarding music/literature/cinema have also veered away from the heart-warming kind (metal/horror/gore slut here), so I think that at the ripe age of 28, all the different slots of my mind are finally tuned together!

Regarding my recent output (which has been none), unfortunately real life has been a bitch towards my free time for the last 2 years or so, and so I was forced to step back into the role of watcher/lurker, both on DeviantArt and FurAffinity. Long Evening in Asgardia, the most recent story I shared with you, was left hanging missing its final installment, as plans for a plot overhaul have been postponed sine die. Concepts for many other stories have been written down and some of them have even been fleshed out a bit, but only time can tell when I'll have the chance to finish and share something definite with you. Adult life sucks ass: never grow up kids, it's a trap!

Thank you for reading along, and sorry for the lack of updates/new stuff lately. Here's for the next 10 vicious years on FurAffinity! *raises the mead jug*



(TL;DR: It's 10 years since CrushedCrowd arrived at Furaffinity, the last 2 have been uneventful and I have no forecast for an eventual comeback, even though I'm ripe with ideas for new stories. Paws >>> Feet (mainly the giant kind) and I still want to kill everybody in the World. Preferably under giant paws, of course!)