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A Year of Fatigue/Artblock
3 years ago
So.... I want to make a public apology.
In the last year I have been struggling with fatigue, working full time with my job and then trying to spend some of my 'free time' trying to work in making my soaps and things while helping my mom and sister. I've been trying to figure out a balance between work and home and it has just really been frustrating for the last year. I am always tired and I feel like nothing gets done that needs to be :(
Due to all of that, I have not had the energy to finish owed art and it has eaten me alive. I have not felt the urge to pick up my tablet in months. I have picked up coloring a really neat coloring book by TheLatestKate that I'll color while I'm at work on my down times, but it just comes and goes. I had hoped it would kind of provide a jump start to me wanting to draw again but I'm just kind of in a stagnant state where on my days off I almost always want to just do -nothing- and.... I'll be honest it is quite scary. I've been telling myself that it is after-covid fatigue and that it will eventually go away and I might be able to get myself back together and have the energy to back back to 'normal'
So yeah, it's still a hiatus, I hate it, its depressing me and eating me up, but I am still around. Any questions or concerns please let me know.
As of now commissions are permanently closed for... well indefinitely. I don't know if I'll ever be able to offer commissions again :(
I hope you guys are doing all right.
In the last year I have been struggling with fatigue, working full time with my job and then trying to spend some of my 'free time' trying to work in making my soaps and things while helping my mom and sister. I've been trying to figure out a balance between work and home and it has just really been frustrating for the last year. I am always tired and I feel like nothing gets done that needs to be :(
Due to all of that, I have not had the energy to finish owed art and it has eaten me alive. I have not felt the urge to pick up my tablet in months. I have picked up coloring a really neat coloring book by TheLatestKate that I'll color while I'm at work on my down times, but it just comes and goes. I had hoped it would kind of provide a jump start to me wanting to draw again but I'm just kind of in a stagnant state where on my days off I almost always want to just do -nothing- and.... I'll be honest it is quite scary. I've been telling myself that it is after-covid fatigue and that it will eventually go away and I might be able to get myself back together and have the energy to back back to 'normal'
So yeah, it's still a hiatus, I hate it, its depressing me and eating me up, but I am still around. Any questions or concerns please let me know.
As of now commissions are permanently closed for... well indefinitely. I don't know if I'll ever be able to offer commissions again :(
I hope you guys are doing all right.
Hopefully, the research being done on post-covid recovery will bear fruit in treatments to improve quality of life before much longer.
Personally, I've not had covid yet (that I know of) but I am still feeling overwhelmed for a variety of reasons (chronic depression not the least of them, but situational things as well).
Feels like the world's gone mad and everything is on fire, but we keep on keeping on as best we can, supporting each-other/those close to us as best we can.
Even though it is difficult and we doubt the future, we must live in hope that this too shall pass.
May we have the strength to do what we can, when we can, and accept that we cannot do everything we'd like to get done, all the time.
Here's hoping we all manage to survive these difficult times! <3
I've been so mentally exhausted that everything is just overwhelming nonstop...the main times I feel kind of relaxed and at peace are pretty much when I get home from work at night and I'm by myself in my car, in the dark, especially on the last day of my work week that I don't have to worry about getting enough sleep. Any other time I'm likely stuck in flight or fight mode, which would contribute to my exhaustion/lack of energy. I also have issues getting to sleep or staying asleep so it's just been a wild ride for the last year that I'm ready to jump off of no matter where I am on it. It isn't really fair to the people that have been waiting patiently for their art, and I feel horrible that I cannot even find time to make myself work on it :(