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3 years ago
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Hey Everyone!
Sorry it's been so long since a proper check in, but... Things have been happening behind the scenes that have kept me busy. To make things (hopefully) simple, I'll give you the bullet points version of some of the major events from the last two years:
1.) I've been going to therapy to unpack my gender identity and my struggles with my depression/anxiety/ADHD.
2.) Accepted myself as a trans woman (#TransRightsAreHumanRights, #TransWomenAreWomen)!
3.) Started HRT on Feb. 25th, 2021, and it was the best decision I've ever made! I love the person I'm seeing in the mirror now, watching myself slowly become the woman I've always been inside.
4.) I started playing D&D with some new friends, and even began making and self-publishing my own homebrew content over on DMsGuild under the alias "The Sphinx Library." I collab with
amara_burrger on cover art and sometimes with mechanical and concept stuff.
5.) I came out to my parents a couple months ago. They did NOT accept me and have been very rude to me since then, refusing to use my name and pronouns, consistently deadnaming me, making my coming out all about them and how it effected them, and constantly trying to use disproved and inaccurate research to belittle me and try to force me to stop transitioning because it makes them uncomfortable, despite starting HRT and accepting myself being one of the best things to happen to me and improving my mental health.
6.) I moved from Oklahoma to Baltimore, MD over the weekend. Seeing the increase in anti-trans and anti-LGBTQIA+ legislation in the South lately, I saw the writing on the walls and wanted to find a way to leave. A couple friends in Baltimore offered to put me up for a bit until I can find my footing here and get my own place, and I took their offer. A friend helped me get a Uhaul, and another (my oldest friend and the first one who I came out to, who accepted me from the get-go) helped me load it up before I left. 20+ hours later, I got to Baltimore. As of this writing, I still haven't told my parents. It's just been so overwhelming and stressful that I've been trying to decompress and take things slowly as I get used to living in this new place.
7.) I might start streaming at some point once I get settled. This VTuber thing has been really cool to watch explode recently, so I've been thinking about throwing my hat in the ring, so to speak.
I'll be trying to get better about posting stuff here again, though with everything that's happening lately post-move to Baltimore, I don't want to make any promises. Just wanted to let everyone know what's been going on as of late. I hope you've all been doing well, and I'll look forward to talking with you all again soon. Stay safe out there, stay awesome, take care of yourselves and each other, and keep up the amazing work, everybody.
- Lena.
Sorry it's been so long since a proper check in, but... Things have been happening behind the scenes that have kept me busy. To make things (hopefully) simple, I'll give you the bullet points version of some of the major events from the last two years:
1.) I've been going to therapy to unpack my gender identity and my struggles with my depression/anxiety/ADHD.
2.) Accepted myself as a trans woman (#TransRightsAreHumanRights, #TransWomenAreWomen)!
3.) Started HRT on Feb. 25th, 2021, and it was the best decision I've ever made! I love the person I'm seeing in the mirror now, watching myself slowly become the woman I've always been inside.
4.) I started playing D&D with some new friends, and even began making and self-publishing my own homebrew content over on DMsGuild under the alias "The Sphinx Library." I collab with
amara_burrger on cover art and sometimes with mechanical and concept stuff. 5.) I came out to my parents a couple months ago. They did NOT accept me and have been very rude to me since then, refusing to use my name and pronouns, consistently deadnaming me, making my coming out all about them and how it effected them, and constantly trying to use disproved and inaccurate research to belittle me and try to force me to stop transitioning because it makes them uncomfortable, despite starting HRT and accepting myself being one of the best things to happen to me and improving my mental health.
6.) I moved from Oklahoma to Baltimore, MD over the weekend. Seeing the increase in anti-trans and anti-LGBTQIA+ legislation in the South lately, I saw the writing on the walls and wanted to find a way to leave. A couple friends in Baltimore offered to put me up for a bit until I can find my footing here and get my own place, and I took their offer. A friend helped me get a Uhaul, and another (my oldest friend and the first one who I came out to, who accepted me from the get-go) helped me load it up before I left. 20+ hours later, I got to Baltimore. As of this writing, I still haven't told my parents. It's just been so overwhelming and stressful that I've been trying to decompress and take things slowly as I get used to living in this new place.
7.) I might start streaming at some point once I get settled. This VTuber thing has been really cool to watch explode recently, so I've been thinking about throwing my hat in the ring, so to speak.
I'll be trying to get better about posting stuff here again, though with everything that's happening lately post-move to Baltimore, I don't want to make any promises. Just wanted to let everyone know what's been going on as of late. I hope you've all been doing well, and I'll look forward to talking with you all again soon. Stay safe out there, stay awesome, take care of yourselves and each other, and keep up the amazing work, everybody.
- Lena.
I'm happy to hear your doing what you feel is best! And loving every moment of it! You go girl!
Second, I'm sorry to hear your family is being ...well....shitty. But like you said, this is about you, not them. And them trying to make it about themselves is just shallow.
I wish you the best and hope things keep looking up for you! - Midsnow
And you're right, my folks were extremely shitty, and it was really disrespectful and shallow the way my Mom tried to make it all about her, and my Dad just didn't want anything to do with that aspect of myself. It hurts, not having their love and support, but in the end, they're the ones missing out, not getting to know the woman I'm becoming.
But yeah, I hope that things start looking up in the near future; I'd love to get my own place and stretch out a bit, try my hand at this VTuber thing without having to worry about being in someone else' space and stuff.
So, to hell with those who won't accept you as YOU CHOOSE TO BE!
Be who you are within and do what is right for you friend :)
Congratulations on your journey, and I wish you luck in your new location. I'm still in TX and unlikely to move due to sheer logistics, but I have a new(ish) job and I like it, and it's done well for me so far, so there's that. :)
As for the parents, I understand as a transwoman myself, I've been there and my dad was not having it. I can say it generally gets easier with time (and for me distance helped a lot). Though you obvisouly have some really good friends and a sounds like some fun new hobbies with the VTuber and DnD Homebrewing!
I know we've never talked but from one transwoman to another, know I'm proud of you and happy for you!