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Depression, withdrawn, but refactoring 1/?
3 years ago
I’ve written this thing a half dozen times but deleted all the previous entries. I deemed them too stupid to live. So if this one does, hooray! I’ve also decided to break this up into a few posts to make it manageable and confirms to TL;DR.
I’ve been withdrawn for about 3 months now. I’ve had to reorganize myself. I’ve been refactoring myself. I’m not sure what I am going to do but I am sure about what I am going to be attempting. I’m not expecting this to fix all the problems but I think that it’s a step in the correct direction.
First, I am NOT giving up Kyro. Kyro is a part of me. He represented my 20’s, 30’s and 40’s pretty darn well. We went through some tough times and he is forever loved.
That being said, I’m starting to enter into my 50’s and I think that a new face going forward needs to take the helm -- at least for a little bit. I feel that Tikke, my kobold urd, being a character who was generated to be older and closer to how I want to feel by default -- should take the helm.
At least for a little bit.
This has been tried before with my orca Forge and a few others over time so … the historical track on this isn’t great, but I feel there is value in the attempt.
Why am I doing this? Because it’s important to me. I’m doing it for me. I’m doing it because it feels I need to grow and my present shell is getting a bit small.
I don’t know if this is the right answer. But I will never know unless I try.
I’ve been withdrawn for about 3 months now. I’ve had to reorganize myself. I’ve been refactoring myself. I’m not sure what I am going to do but I am sure about what I am going to be attempting. I’m not expecting this to fix all the problems but I think that it’s a step in the correct direction.
First, I am NOT giving up Kyro. Kyro is a part of me. He represented my 20’s, 30’s and 40’s pretty darn well. We went through some tough times and he is forever loved.
That being said, I’m starting to enter into my 50’s and I think that a new face going forward needs to take the helm -- at least for a little bit. I feel that Tikke, my kobold urd, being a character who was generated to be older and closer to how I want to feel by default -- should take the helm.
At least for a little bit.
This has been tried before with my orca Forge and a few others over time so … the historical track on this isn’t great, but I feel there is value in the attempt.
Why am I doing this? Because it’s important to me. I’m doing it for me. I’m doing it because it feels I need to grow and my present shell is getting a bit small.
I don’t know if this is the right answer. But I will never know unless I try.
I did however age Luke up and promoted him job-wise to show him aging alongside me though.
Good luck, my friend. I look forward to meeting Tikke in person in October.
Just a thought. It's not meant as criticism or a call to action.
Off to do cute little human things with my hands...
It'll be good to see people once again. The trip will be expensive, but I have a feeling that if I don't do this trip, the price will be my soul.