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3 years ago
Kas here. Tired, sleep sched is kinda wonky, so it'll be just me, save on bandwidth. Still drawing alot, yay! Some ups, some downs, but overall fine, just in like.... a weird amount of transition, everywhere in my life. Honestly some things have been rough earlier(and kinda lately) but I feel like I'm taking more appropriate care and rest for us, this time around.
I lost contactwith my long time best friend, probably permanently this time. Am and was sad about it but, perhaps for the best. Not so much is me being kicked form a discord server that meant alot to us. I, me Kas was responsible for that one, and did and still hurts. I feel guilty for depriving better me's from something so joyous, but what can we do, judgement is rendered.
New old friends, new good friends, and new challenges to my beliefs that continue to remind that life is both black and white, along with the grey.
Pretty certain we've got a good degree of ADHD, and I think it's perhaps due to alot of the events in my life. Well, now I know and accept it, can manage that.
Am certain more then ever that we're plural, there is much and more evidence coming to light, as we reflect.
Good enough time, so we'll reveal that there are two others, tangled up in here, with me and Seb. Not quite easy to call them to front, but at this point fairly certain no others, as communication is easy and we've been calling and looking about XD.
Mendel is a guy, and I'd describe him as a punk. Last and not least is Pheo, and she's a bit unique in here in that yah, she's female. Which has led us (and OMG me ) to a big kinda connundrum of like, if she's female, with our body, then she's trans, but can we as our unit claim to be? We're kinda overall going with nonbinary for now but like, its all really messy.
Another thing eating us up right now, well I guess mostly Seb, is recent drama around a figure he interacted with a handful of times that he quite frankly looked up to, I now realize. Some of the allegations are damning by society, some actually serious. But I'm old enough now, and seen enough of these shake out to know I cannot take EITHER sides word seriously. Especially in the modern age, where any little piss ant can say whatever they damn thing they want, along with the degree of absolute polarization among things. And FURTHERMORE..... it's not really any of myselves' business, right? The best thing would be to unfollow, leave that drama that completely doesnt effect me behind, leave the server. No one really knows me, a faceless name among hundreds. But like, I can see people hurting around, their other fans and associates, and I cannot bring myself to abandon people directly in my path I can reasonably help. Even if its just being a faceless name with some encouraging words and happy vibes. Jeeze and like, wow I guess we've grown attached, to some of these other names... huh.
I believe we should not be condemned for our mistakes, but only so long as we are willing to learn from them, and if we've injured others, repentance is required. So I sit, and observe, and maybe bring some joy to someone who needs it nearby, but I will not judge without sufficient evidence and facts. Nevertheless, my guard remains ever vigilant here.
Wow ok I guess alot to get off my chest.... maybe we should do more of these, solo journals hmm.
-Kas
I lost contactwith my long time best friend, probably permanently this time. Am and was sad about it but, perhaps for the best. Not so much is me being kicked form a discord server that meant alot to us. I, me Kas was responsible for that one, and did and still hurts. I feel guilty for depriving better me's from something so joyous, but what can we do, judgement is rendered.
New old friends, new good friends, and new challenges to my beliefs that continue to remind that life is both black and white, along with the grey.
Pretty certain we've got a good degree of ADHD, and I think it's perhaps due to alot of the events in my life. Well, now I know and accept it, can manage that.
Am certain more then ever that we're plural, there is much and more evidence coming to light, as we reflect.
Good enough time, so we'll reveal that there are two others, tangled up in here, with me and Seb. Not quite easy to call them to front, but at this point fairly certain no others, as communication is easy and we've been calling and looking about XD.
Mendel is a guy, and I'd describe him as a punk. Last and not least is Pheo, and she's a bit unique in here in that yah, she's female. Which has led us (and OMG me ) to a big kinda connundrum of like, if she's female, with our body, then she's trans, but can we as our unit claim to be? We're kinda overall going with nonbinary for now but like, its all really messy.
Another thing eating us up right now, well I guess mostly Seb, is recent drama around a figure he interacted with a handful of times that he quite frankly looked up to, I now realize. Some of the allegations are damning by society, some actually serious. But I'm old enough now, and seen enough of these shake out to know I cannot take EITHER sides word seriously. Especially in the modern age, where any little piss ant can say whatever they damn thing they want, along with the degree of absolute polarization among things. And FURTHERMORE..... it's not really any of myselves' business, right? The best thing would be to unfollow, leave that drama that completely doesnt effect me behind, leave the server. No one really knows me, a faceless name among hundreds. But like, I can see people hurting around, their other fans and associates, and I cannot bring myself to abandon people directly in my path I can reasonably help. Even if its just being a faceless name with some encouraging words and happy vibes. Jeeze and like, wow I guess we've grown attached, to some of these other names... huh.
I believe we should not be condemned for our mistakes, but only so long as we are willing to learn from them, and if we've injured others, repentance is required. So I sit, and observe, and maybe bring some joy to someone who needs it nearby, but I will not judge without sufficient evidence and facts. Nevertheless, my guard remains ever vigilant here.
Wow ok I guess alot to get off my chest.... maybe we should do more of these, solo journals hmm.
-Kas
