I found out this weekend that my best and longest friend has a massive tumor on his liver and lung. They will need to do more tests and treatment before they will even know what it is, but he was a 9/11 survivor and was trapped in the rubble for some time. All that smoke and toxic air has been slowly taking us all from the inside out. i'm literally beside myself, upset to no end at the thought of losing my best friend. It's really gotten me thinking also about my own health woes. My health has been deteriorating steadily for the last couple of years now, and I really don't know what to do about it. Theres a safety slogan at work..... list 5 things to be safe for today. I can't even list 3.

Some days I really don't want to wake up and face the perils of life anymore. It'll happen one day... who knows when... but when it does.... :(