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19 years ago
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So I've been kinda quiet until recently. Cartoon inspiration had been evading me for a little while, and I think I just needed to get out and enjoy the stuff I used to. I recently purchased a PSP, and while I just can't wait for Castlevania: Rondo of Blood, I got Ultimate Ghosts 'n Goblins and Valkyrie Profile: Lenneth to tide me over.
Let me tell you something.
Ultimate Ghosts 'n Goblins is a reminder to me of how much better gamers my generation were than this current batch of kids. Nintendo games used to be quasi-broken with difficulty, but now everything's all 3D and brought to you on a silver bust of Liberache. I just beat a level (a level. One level. UNA ETAPA), and am celebrating joyously. Why? Because it was retarded-hard. That's why. Fun stuff.
Let me tell you something else.
I'm ultra-retarded in Valkyrie Profile. It took me four days to figure out to press the start button and get to the next plot point, to say nothing of sending people to Asgard and updating their stats 'n crap. I enjoy Arngrim for the fact that he's a ridiculous Dirk Meatpunch dumbass of a dark berserker, but why can he have stats changed if he can't get to Asgard anyway? Bitches. GIANT SWORD UP YOUR ASS. You know what, they deserve to lose, if they'll take spoiled princesses but not giant hulking death machines to fight their wars for them.
On a more serious note, the other reason I haven't been active is because I've had psychotic relapses. I thought this was behind me, but I should've expected they'd come back. They're a part of my life forever, and I'm not sure why I childishly believe that they'll just go away. Enh. But it doesn't matter. I've been doing well against them when they've come my way, and my boyfriend's been really supportive. So it's not terrible. Don't worry.
Here's something else I've been thinking about. And this may seem like a huge calling out, but it's just honesty. Why do people post vague allusions to problems, but then back out in silence? This isn't a question, I'll tell you why: Because they want attention. Come on, let's not be bitches about it, everyone wants attention when things suck. They do. You do, I do, it's human. And it's not a negative thing! I mean, if you absolutely want people to give you some sympathy, by god, post your woes! Odds are, there'll be random souls that feel your pain. But don't post part of your problem in a frustrating enigma, then back out! If it's truly something you can't talk about, don't. Saying, "Why does life have to suck ;.;" is not an update for the inquisitive, it's a huge emotional hang on people that actually care and want to be helpful. You can't receive sympathy without the vulnerability of honesty, you just can't. So own up to your problems and vent, or keep it completely to yourself. To do otherwise is careless and meaninglessly cruel.
Amidst all that serious chatter, here's something you may or may not have seen, that I laughed for a good solid ten minutes at like some sort of crazy hobo: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zf1dHcv9DnM&mode=related&search=
What, you thought I would do an April Fool's?
Puta, por favor.
Let me tell you something.
Ultimate Ghosts 'n Goblins is a reminder to me of how much better gamers my generation were than this current batch of kids. Nintendo games used to be quasi-broken with difficulty, but now everything's all 3D and brought to you on a silver bust of Liberache. I just beat a level (a level. One level. UNA ETAPA), and am celebrating joyously. Why? Because it was retarded-hard. That's why. Fun stuff.
Let me tell you something else.
I'm ultra-retarded in Valkyrie Profile. It took me four days to figure out to press the start button and get to the next plot point, to say nothing of sending people to Asgard and updating their stats 'n crap. I enjoy Arngrim for the fact that he's a ridiculous Dirk Meatpunch dumbass of a dark berserker, but why can he have stats changed if he can't get to Asgard anyway? Bitches. GIANT SWORD UP YOUR ASS. You know what, they deserve to lose, if they'll take spoiled princesses but not giant hulking death machines to fight their wars for them.
On a more serious note, the other reason I haven't been active is because I've had psychotic relapses. I thought this was behind me, but I should've expected they'd come back. They're a part of my life forever, and I'm not sure why I childishly believe that they'll just go away. Enh. But it doesn't matter. I've been doing well against them when they've come my way, and my boyfriend's been really supportive. So it's not terrible. Don't worry.
Here's something else I've been thinking about. And this may seem like a huge calling out, but it's just honesty. Why do people post vague allusions to problems, but then back out in silence? This isn't a question, I'll tell you why: Because they want attention. Come on, let's not be bitches about it, everyone wants attention when things suck. They do. You do, I do, it's human. And it's not a negative thing! I mean, if you absolutely want people to give you some sympathy, by god, post your woes! Odds are, there'll be random souls that feel your pain. But don't post part of your problem in a frustrating enigma, then back out! If it's truly something you can't talk about, don't. Saying, "Why does life have to suck ;.;" is not an update for the inquisitive, it's a huge emotional hang on people that actually care and want to be helpful. You can't receive sympathy without the vulnerability of honesty, you just can't. So own up to your problems and vent, or keep it completely to yourself. To do otherwise is careless and meaninglessly cruel.
Amidst all that serious chatter, here's something you may or may not have seen, that I laughed for a good solid ten minutes at like some sort of crazy hobo: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zf1dHcv9DnM&mode=related&search=
What, you thought I would do an April Fool's?
Puta, por favor.
Of course that doesn't make it any better, your mileage may vary...
*you generally, not you specifically
So, no one gets to publicly ask me what's wrong, but if they inquired in private I would more than likely supply the information.
Oh, fun fact. His voice actor also voices Lezard Valeth and Meowth from Pokemon. ...Though, most everyone from that game was a voice actor of the same origin...
Meowth?? Wow. That's incredible.
And yes, his voice tone range is pretty nice. Deep 'n gruff to smarmy to more of a sinister smarm. :P
And although I haven't dabbled too much in VP2 (it just upsets me aesthetically that they don't know how the human mouth works in 2007), I do know Arngrim is still in VP2...
...Which is odd, because I think VP2 takes place many years before VP1... Yet Lezard and Argrim are still around Hm.
Todays games are not completely handed to you on a silver plater, they give you options and if you want to play on hard do so. In the past like with Devil May Cry 3 the default setting always seemed to be hard with old school games when there was no option to change difficulty.
In fact looking at some of the older games I used to love to play. I realize that a good bunch of them are crappy as far as lasting value.
Contra however forced me to memorize the Konami code. Seriously will never fade as far as greatness and lasting value that one. And Ghosts and Goblins as well as Mario. They are just a few of the better old school game series that will never really get old.
I mean Mario is the number one selling franchise! And Super Mario Bros 3 still holds the record for most copies of a video game ever sold I think. So old school will never really fade, retro is cool and new is cool as well.
Remakes, done well, are even better. ^^
As far as wanting attention, I myself have noticed it what with the deleted journals and what not. But it is hard for the people who want some understanding to come out and get it. That is why whenever another on FA posts a journal speaking about it.
I offer my wisdom on the subject. I have an open ear for anyone who is willing to talk. I never gossip and the truth is if you saw my Live Journal you would be amazed at the drama I hurled into it.
That is how I coped until I got better, I vented into an online blog no one really knew about.
If you defeat the enemies as fast as possible, instead of getting your butt kicked by how hard it is to do the perfect attack combo every time, the games last at most a half hour.
That's when when someone posts a picture of them all emoed out or cutting themselves or something stupid like that, it takes me a lot of restraint not to just yell "EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEMOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO" (which I have failed to restrain myself from doing a few times). Because there are times I could have done the same and I didn't because knowing my life people would have just told me to can it and get my act together. So when someone sits there and whines and moans about how HORRIBLE life can be (if you're anywhere NEAR my age, it' can't be that bad. Life is a long road and you haven't gone THAT far.) and about contemplating suicide then get PISSED at me when I tell them to shut the fuck up and pull themselves together, you have to wonder WHY.
I enjoy sympathy as much as the next guy, but I don't NEED your fucking sympathy. Anyone who panders back and forth for people to fawn over them and constantly coddle to them to make them feel better is a f-...dammit.
Anyway...
The point is, some of us have real problems that are hard to talk about. Nori, you should be proud that you CAN talk about these things, and that you're good at it. We're always here for you, you know that and I know you're here for us if we need it. *nods*
Much loves. *hugs*
I sucked at video games back then, I suck at 'em now. It's always irritating to get schooled by a li'l kid with the wail and flail technique. On the plus side hanging out at the nickel arcade makes me grin when the same kid comes along and I win sixty two times straight on the old kung-fu game. Play fair? Screw that, he knew the risks when he put the nickel in!
I have noticed what you mean about games being easier, particularly RPGs (I'm lookin' at you, Squenix - what was up with FFX? Seriously. Give us five hours of battles it's more fun to run from than to spam-fight and then throw a Seymour at us?!) but I don't think it's a complete shift. Circle of the Moon, for example, was crazy hard, and my perspective may be skewed because I absolutely sucked at games when I was younger despite playing them basically my entire life. I'll take on all comers in Star Control II, though! BREAK TARGET INTO COMPONENT MATERIALS.
I had no idea about the psychosis...I don't really claim to know what it's like, but I think I have some idea of how it feels to have you own mind assault you (I was plunged into a deep, largely self-generating depression for something like six years and my mind worked against me by supplying me with a constant stream of negative memories and imagery and such - even now that I'm not depressed I have to fight it much of the time). Anyway, as others have said you're lucky you have someone there to support you. I'm not sure what I can do, but if you ever need anything else just ask.
Also, I have a legitimate reason as to why someone might not pour out full details on their problems: fear. For example, what if someone in their house checked their computer and found every detail spelled out for everyone to see? I imagine that wouldn't make certain kinds of people very happy.
And finally, wow. Normally I'm not a big fan of pranks, but that rocket sled was just. Too. Much. =^.^=
Any time I do a vauge problem in the journal itself, if I'm asked in a comment, I will tell them then and there. Usually I keep the major things to IM windows or note if I can't really speak about it.
*hugs*
As for sweet videos..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QkBkZpK-fYQ check that out. And all we get here in america is Survivor and American Idol XP
Fortunately, they've lessened as life has gone on for me, and all I have to deal with now is the occasional relapse.
However, on a more personal level... Man, that sucks, and I'm glad you have it under control.