So like after threeish years without having a job I landed one a little over a month and a half ago. I like my job for the most part I don't mind the physical labor of working in a large chain hardware store. There is a lot, of information coming at me all the time and i don't think I am processing it fast enough. I am worried about keeping my job as i am still to large for the majority of the power equipment. I am to big for the reach truck, The harnesses wont go around me for the picking truck... On top of all that, i am expected to get on said power equipment and lift myself up in the air to tend to the top shelves. I am terrified of heights. I've seen what people do on them and I can't do it ..So far I have been alright on there Stareway like ladders. Those don't go all the way to the top a lot of the time and I am expected to go higher and some of those machines wobble a lot. I am embarrassed and ashamed that I am afraid, and I don't want my co-workers to see me that way...

"Well you just have to do it until you get over it."

It does not work that way for me. I have been working on getting over this fear all my life to little success. I don't know what to do. I once again feel hopeless, useless and stupid...