Holy hell it's been a while since the last artwork I posted on FA (Not counting the 3D Asriel render because it was done pretty quickly without too much efforts put into it), and even before the Tasque Manager (Which was pretty well received on Twitter, tysm!), the time span between my pictures is getting longer and longer... But why so?

Tl;Dr: Work and school are taxing my energy much more than I thought, and I'm kinda starting to get bored of my 2D art

I'll be honest, I completely underestimated the amount of free time that I would STOP having due to my apprenticeship and school due to its hours (Starting late but ending late, which I absolutely despise), and the time in public transports added to that (Around 1h30 per day, and I know I'm actually pretty lucky). Basically I'm away from home from around 8.30AM to 7.00-7.30PM, and THEN you can't ignore the fact that when I get home, I'm completely exhausted, way too exhausted to seriously get started on any type of work. To be honest, the first few weeks were particularly dreadful, and with the "First job anxiety" (The anxiety that comes with realizing that this is how my life will be from now on basically) kicking in, I actually did have terribly negative thoughts a lot of the time. I'm getting more adjusted to this insane life rhythm, though the tiredness never really leaves, I'm just more used to it and can now pull through it a little easier. I want to thank my friends who helped and encouraged me to get through that very difficult period though, I never felt more appreciated and wanted than before!

Another reason why I'm taking a bit of time is because... Once again, to be honest, I'm starting to get a little bit tired of 2D work. I barely manage to change my art style, I notice the same anatomy, proportions or perspective mistakes I keep falling into, and it has honestly been making me pretty disappointed in my work (For example, that Tasque manager picture was supposed to be a COMPLETELY different art style from what I usually do, but I just ended up back to my old style again). That also explains that I'm currently working more in Blender, trying to learn stuff like posing, lighting, rendering and stuff. It's pretty difficult to get started, especially finding the information online which for some reason is particularly difficult for Blender and being victim to gatekeeping when I actually ask others for help, but I'm slowly getting the hang of it. I'm still working on the raffle pieces and still giving my all into them, but I might not get a lot of motivation to get started on new ambitious art projects after that. Maybe expect to see more 3D stuff in the future, or some YCHs, stuff that doesn't take too much of my time while still allowing me to make content.

I'm not dead, don't worry about that, I'm just... Half dead lying on the ground due to the time and energy I don't have anymore lol. I honestly don't know how much more of this struggle I can take, I really feel like I'm the only one going through so much anguish, but that can't be true, life is that horrible thing for everyone... Right? Anyway, I'm still breathing, so I'll do my best. Sorry for the lack of content recently and in the future. You can follow my Twitter where I sometimes post 3D WIPs to reassure yourselves that I'm still there :3

Also happy halloween! I wanted to do a dedicated artwork as well as a Halloween themed event on my server, but as you can guess by now... No time and no energy... Maybe next year tho!