I was with my gf for like a fucking month straight right

ok so she left today

The anorexia is back and its BAD, ana is telling me so many crazy things, man im literally scared, I cant possibly survive eating as little as i secretly so so wish I could????

But i fucking want it so badly...

God wtf do I even do, If i get really bad and I clue my doctor in im absolutely going to end up in the hospital with a fucking feeding tube up my nose :/

HEY tho! At least I'll become skinny as fuck right? THATS ALL THAT MATTERS R I G HT ???????? EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY IF IM JUST FUCKING THIN AS FUCK

ok rant over, bye