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Obligatory End of the Year Journal ³
2 years ago
Tl;dr: Bad year, questionable health, but did art again. Next year is gonna be something, but I'm still taking comms. Regardless, thanks for still being here :heart:
This year was not great by any means.
It majorly sucked throughout, a lot of things got worse, a bunch of stuff I cared about went to the shitter, and I was stressed out of my mind about something nearly all the time. And that's without counting *gestures at world*. Hell, even today I got shitty news.
The only silver lining was the overall slow yet hard-earned improvement in specific things.
My general health is still not good, but I managed to stay consistent with light exercise for almost the whole year (until I got hit with too many issues at once a couple months ago) and, while chronic pain is of course here to stay regardless of therapies and effort, it's become far more manageable than when I felt like a smushed worm on the sidewalk.
Far less favorable is my mental health, given that my living situation would test the resolve of a saint on an average day, and there was a lot of extra crap on top of it. The steps I've been taking to be kind to myself and mitigate my own unhealthy behaviors seem to be doing some good (when left undisturbed, which... oh boy), but it's gonna be a work in progress for quite a while since I'm playing on a steeply uneven field lol
As you may have noticed, I managed to get back to posting art fairly consistently and even take commissions again! There's still a lot to improve and I'm quite behind schedule on what I wanted to achieve, but I didn't expect it to happen at all, so can't complain.
I paid far less attention than I would have liked to my OCs and projects because my mind was rarely in the right place, but I'm still proud of what I already did with them (impostor syndrome is a bitch, but starting to realize my worth in something is quite the conquest) and the fact I did personal art at all. Baby steps and all.
Next year will be... a thing, for sure.
I will still take it "easy" on the commission side, but while my priorities are a tad different than before, it'll still be stressful af. I won't go into details because I'm trying not to fully lose my mind about it yet, as it's quite make-or-break in nature, so it won't be "easy" lol.
At least there's some stuff I'm finally able and ready to try, which makes me veeery cautiously excited. Still ready for reality to slap me in the face, but one has to try and it's now or never lol.
That said, YCHs and commissions will still happen occasionally and in small batches. My price list will be slightly changed and updated soon (end of January?), but most of it will stay roughly the same for the time being.
I can't say that I have real hopes for next year, but maybe the fundations I built this year won't crumble away completely and the hard lessons I learned lately could actually stick this time. If I don't implode once more, that is.
Once again, all I can say is thank you to those who stuck around this far and kept supporting me in even small yet very meaningful ways <3
This year was not great by any means.
It majorly sucked throughout, a lot of things got worse, a bunch of stuff I cared about went to the shitter, and I was stressed out of my mind about something nearly all the time. And that's without counting *gestures at world*. Hell, even today I got shitty news.
The only silver lining was the overall slow yet hard-earned improvement in specific things.
My general health is still not good, but I managed to stay consistent with light exercise for almost the whole year (until I got hit with too many issues at once a couple months ago) and, while chronic pain is of course here to stay regardless of therapies and effort, it's become far more manageable than when I felt like a smushed worm on the sidewalk.
Far less favorable is my mental health, given that my living situation would test the resolve of a saint on an average day, and there was a lot of extra crap on top of it. The steps I've been taking to be kind to myself and mitigate my own unhealthy behaviors seem to be doing some good (when left undisturbed, which... oh boy), but it's gonna be a work in progress for quite a while since I'm playing on a steeply uneven field lol
As you may have noticed, I managed to get back to posting art fairly consistently and even take commissions again! There's still a lot to improve and I'm quite behind schedule on what I wanted to achieve, but I didn't expect it to happen at all, so can't complain.
I paid far less attention than I would have liked to my OCs and projects because my mind was rarely in the right place, but I'm still proud of what I already did with them (impostor syndrome is a bitch, but starting to realize my worth in something is quite the conquest) and the fact I did personal art at all. Baby steps and all.
Next year will be... a thing, for sure.
I will still take it "easy" on the commission side, but while my priorities are a tad different than before, it'll still be stressful af. I won't go into details because I'm trying not to fully lose my mind about it yet, as it's quite make-or-break in nature, so it won't be "easy" lol.
At least there's some stuff I'm finally able and ready to try, which makes me veeery cautiously excited. Still ready for reality to slap me in the face, but one has to try and it's now or never lol.
That said, YCHs and commissions will still happen occasionally and in small batches. My price list will be slightly changed and updated soon (end of January?), but most of it will stay roughly the same for the time being.
I can't say that I have real hopes for next year, but maybe the fundations I built this year won't crumble away completely and the hard lessons I learned lately could actually stick this time. If I don't implode once more, that is.
Once again, all I can say is thank you to those who stuck around this far and kept supporting me in even small yet very meaningful ways <3
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