2023 was a cool year I'd say! Learned to respect myself a lot more, and learned not to let privileged people who had everything given to them tell me my worth. Got my first backstab too, I still don't really understand why that happened as a few months after, I realise it was really unnecessary (That's the info I got from people who were there when it happened, and I know for a fact that the person who did that didn't do it for good reasons, unless they're taking their damn time to prove it). But oh well, that only strengthened my friendships and taught me that despite some lack of critical thinking a few years ago, I didn't hurt anyone unlike what that guy tried to make me believe.

I can feel some improvements in my artworks over this year, despite the big gap around the end of it due to lack of time and motivation. I also experimented a bit more with 3D this year, I'm happy and can't wait to get more experience in it! <3 I really gotta work on a Yun model, though I gotta finish another model before that. It's close to being finished, I just gotta find the motivation for that final stretch.

Another good thing: this year, I also finally set a foot in active life. I'm lucky to have found an apprenticeship in a video game studio. It's way tougher than I thought and I still need some time to truly know if this is what I want to do or not, but I'm learning tons of stuff, both about my field, and how a video game project is managed in a company, that's good and corresponds to my life plan so I ain't complaining, especially with how hard it is to enter this industry. Uuuh also, I launched a Discord server... It's unfortunately not very active right now because I don't interact with it a bunch or create events due to lack of time :/ I'm keeping it open for anyone who's interested though, I'll try to do more stuff in it in 2024!

2023 was also the first year without a very toxic family member around. He just died one night, went to sleep and never woke up. He has my sympathy, but his death is ultimately a good thing for everyone in the long run. People who follow me for a while know a snippet of the psychological abuse he was making us go through, so I'm not gonna detail it. but I must say that since then I'm getting a lot more confident, less on edge and "More entitled to my personality", if that makes sense? Like, I'm less scared of being myself, rather than the quiet and docile yes-man some people want me to be, even if that puts me in trouble.

While I'm onto the subject of endorsing myself more, I would actually like to know your opinion on one thing; I've been thinking that maybe I was a bit too indulgent on blocking / deleting comments options when someone would piss me off, insult me or basically try to fuck me around. I've always been in a mindset of letting the right of people to explain their point of view or redeem themselves even if I didn't like it under the pretense of freedom of speech and just in case it was a misunderstanding, but more and more often it just occurs to me that some people don't seem to understand that, and instead just use the occasion to deal the most hurtful blow rather than trying to fix the issue, and I don't want that to end up putting ME in trouble. I also know that some people didn't give me this possibility to understand each other, so why should I give it to them? This year is the first year where there are some people who I don't really want to patch things up with, nor let myself get dragged down by trying to fix misunderstandings where I don't trust the other person's good intentions. I'm wondering if I'm not entering a slippery slope if I let myself indulge in this and just end up blocking all conversations with some people I get in beef with. What's your opinion about this?

Finally, I want to thank all the friends I've made during this year, all the people who gave me their support and who see me as a person rather than either a ghost. Some people's genuineness and critical thinking really touched me, and I'm very thankful to know there are people like you around :)

Happy new year, everyone! May 2024 be a good year as well!