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Might be time to end the CYOA comms (for now)
a year ago
First of, big big big BIG thank you to everyone who's supported this silly little idea. The amount of positive feedback has honestly been amazing and it's really helped out my self confidence <3 if there's any one here who's interested in starting their own CYOA commissions, I highly reccomend it. The experience has definitely been more positive than not.
Unfortunately, like the title suggests, it might be time to slow down on them for the forseeable future.
The thing is, with these stories, I'm more or less focused mainly on getting words pumped out as quickly as possible, on top of trying to quickly figure out scenarios and ideas. A lot of the time, my commissioners end up picking the option I least expect or plan out for. There's nothing wrong with that, in fact it's fun trying to change gears and delve into a new possability, perhaps even shelving the one I had planned for a future choice. But it does trip me up, and I feel bad when I have to pause abruptly to plan out how to continue.
My biggest fear by far is that my writing is getting stale. Some of these sentences, I feel like I'm just an A.I spewing out generated crap, not really a writer weaving a tapestry of the imagination. I'm afraid I'm gonna end up developing bad habits that will make my writing worse, like I'll end up getting careless.
Another problem is that at the moment, I'm just getting burnt out. I accepted several stories to do at once, and I'll end up bouncing around them one after the other, trying to accomplish as much as I can. I used to upload a story every month, maybe every two months, but now I'm writing thousands of words a day, spread out. That's not to mention the 25k word CYOA I wrote that the commissioner and I agreed to not upload to FA. I don't have a clue how artists make art full time. I'm struggling so hard to what I'm writing actually fresh and not go insane at staring at a white screen (well, I have an extension that makes the google docs paper black) for hours and hours at a time.
Lastly, today's the day I end up back on my antidepressants after being off of them for about 3 months. It doesn't sound relevant, but, uh, well, antidepressants lower libido by quite a bit. Might be hard to properly get in the right mood, I suppose. Might play a factor, right?
Again, thank you everyone for being super awesome and patient and generous and all around amazing supportive friends. I genuinely do enjoy this style of commission a lot. Many of you know I'm an avid RPer, and this feels like myself doing a RP with myself, in a sense, and getting paid for it! Once I'm fully caught up and finish these CYOA's, I might open them up one at a time to have a single person to focus on, instead of trying to do multiple peoples' at once.
Thank you again for being understand <3 you guys
Unfortunately, like the title suggests, it might be time to slow down on them for the forseeable future.
The thing is, with these stories, I'm more or less focused mainly on getting words pumped out as quickly as possible, on top of trying to quickly figure out scenarios and ideas. A lot of the time, my commissioners end up picking the option I least expect or plan out for. There's nothing wrong with that, in fact it's fun trying to change gears and delve into a new possability, perhaps even shelving the one I had planned for a future choice. But it does trip me up, and I feel bad when I have to pause abruptly to plan out how to continue.
My biggest fear by far is that my writing is getting stale. Some of these sentences, I feel like I'm just an A.I spewing out generated crap, not really a writer weaving a tapestry of the imagination. I'm afraid I'm gonna end up developing bad habits that will make my writing worse, like I'll end up getting careless.
Another problem is that at the moment, I'm just getting burnt out. I accepted several stories to do at once, and I'll end up bouncing around them one after the other, trying to accomplish as much as I can. I used to upload a story every month, maybe every two months, but now I'm writing thousands of words a day, spread out. That's not to mention the 25k word CYOA I wrote that the commissioner and I agreed to not upload to FA. I don't have a clue how artists make art full time. I'm struggling so hard to what I'm writing actually fresh and not go insane at staring at a white screen (well, I have an extension that makes the google docs paper black) for hours and hours at a time.
Lastly, today's the day I end up back on my antidepressants after being off of them for about 3 months. It doesn't sound relevant, but, uh, well, antidepressants lower libido by quite a bit. Might be hard to properly get in the right mood, I suppose. Might play a factor, right?
Again, thank you everyone for being super awesome and patient and generous and all around amazing supportive friends. I genuinely do enjoy this style of commission a lot. Many of you know I'm an avid RPer, and this feels like myself doing a RP with myself, in a sense, and getting paid for it! Once I'm fully caught up and finish these CYOA's, I might open them up one at a time to have a single person to focus on, instead of trying to do multiple peoples' at once.
Thank you again for being understand <3 you guys
You're coming out of this period a more well-rounded (hee~) author! <3
I've also expressed interest in these as well, I've just been busy moving into my new place and getting everything situated that I fear I just don't have the time rn to be fully invested. I'll definitely take ya up on it in the future when you decide to do these again.
I've always enjoyed reading these, and you are definitely improving. I can tell! Tell care! ^^
I write in giant segments. I can spend two days writing more than I can in months. I don't think this is a healthy way of doing anything creatively. I always think I have to latch onto that drive that I get every few months to make something amazing instead of sticking to a schedule of writing like 1000 words a day. That just doesn't work for me. Plus I always have that concern of my writing getting stale as well.
Dunno, I say don't beat yourself up too much about it. Give your brain a rest and take a step back. And if you ever want to RP, I'm down! <3
Well dang, live and learn I guess, ha.