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I'm finished with the "What Survives" series for now
a month ago
Oop.
It's been a hell of a run, but I think it's time to shelf this series for now. It feels really awkward pouring so much creative energy into something whose only real target audience is, uh, me. It's been a big effort, but I'm not getting the pay off of creating, uh, meaningful content, if that makes sense. It's not the fatty stories I've been writing for a decade. Between that, not being able to fursuit lately, and a bunch of other small things, I feel like I've been having a bit of an identity crisis of not knowing where I fit in with the fat fur or furry community.
But I can't say it's been all bad. On the contrary, I don't regret a single page. I made something really fucking cool! I proved to myself that I'm not as creatively tapped as I thought I was, that I can still make content that surprises myself again and again. For so long I feel like I've been gaslighting myself into thinking I'm a better writer than I really am, that imposter syndrome, but now I have proof I actually can write something cool! Don't get me wrong, the entire series is EXTREMELY flawed, and I could list many of them right here if I wanted, but it's still far better than I could have expected from myself.
So, yeah, confidence in my abilities has been pretty high lately, and it's nice to feel empowered for once. I have two chapters left that I do want to write out while they're still fresh in my mind, but after that I think I'm ready to focus on commissions and other fatty nonsense again. Maybe I'll take another crack at it later.
Thank you everyone who's stuck with me throughout this journey <3
TL;DR Taking a break from the What Survives series to go back to writing fats.
It's been a hell of a run, but I think it's time to shelf this series for now. It feels really awkward pouring so much creative energy into something whose only real target audience is, uh, me. It's been a big effort, but I'm not getting the pay off of creating, uh, meaningful content, if that makes sense. It's not the fatty stories I've been writing for a decade. Between that, not being able to fursuit lately, and a bunch of other small things, I feel like I've been having a bit of an identity crisis of not knowing where I fit in with the fat fur or furry community.
But I can't say it's been all bad. On the contrary, I don't regret a single page. I made something really fucking cool! I proved to myself that I'm not as creatively tapped as I thought I was, that I can still make content that surprises myself again and again. For so long I feel like I've been gaslighting myself into thinking I'm a better writer than I really am, that imposter syndrome, but now I have proof I actually can write something cool! Don't get me wrong, the entire series is EXTREMELY flawed, and I could list many of them right here if I wanted, but it's still far better than I could have expected from myself.
So, yeah, confidence in my abilities has been pretty high lately, and it's nice to feel empowered for once. I have two chapters left that I do want to write out while they're still fresh in my mind, but after that I think I'm ready to focus on commissions and other fatty nonsense again. Maybe I'll take another crack at it later.
Thank you everyone who's stuck with me throughout this journey <3
TL;DR Taking a break from the What Survives series to go back to writing fats.
I mean, I started out as a fat fur writer over a decade ago, so to suddenly and very dramatically change my content and expect everyone to just immedietely follow along would be silly lol.
It's kinda the opposite. I feel like I'm abandoning my niche of what made my stuff enjoyable and I'm trying to figure out a good balance point, if that makes sense.
I appreciate the comment and the offer, but really you don't need to read anything of mine if it doesn't appeal <3