TL;DR, gonna write a lot more now. Will try to stream regularly if anyone is interested as well.

Whelp.

After my last job ended (it was a temp position) I got hired to work as customer support/tech support for Rheem. The training was a month long, and it was pure lectures, hardly any hands-on learning. I'm just sitting there staring at a laptop at 6 in the morning spacing out for hours and hours at a time.

My sleep was already messed up from working a job that started at 5 am for the last 3 months, I've put on a lot of weight (not the sexy kind), stopped going to the gym, lost a LOT of energy when I wasn't working and drinking energy drinks just to function. What kept me going was the fact that the last job was something I was GOOD at. I felt confident helping people because I knew what I was talking about, and the breaks between calls were long enough that I could actually write my silly little stories in between. It was a lot of fun.

Can't do that here. Just gotta sit and stare at a camera for 8 hours. My sleep is messed up, and because I have no energy to go to the gym after work I just take short naps instead that mess up my sleep even more. I'm getting an average of 2-3 hours of sleep a day if I'm lucky. My physical health was declining so rapidly and I wasn't sure I could really find a way to fix it that didn't involve taking really, really long breaks from work. Not to mention the fact that none of the lectures were really being "retained" in my head. I wasn't learning anything. I may as well have been paid to just sit in a white room and stare at a wall for 8 hours.

What did it in for me was, uh, during a recap Kahoot game, they asked a question and I didn't know the answer. We had to write out answer in and I wrote seven when the answer was two. One of the instructors loudly said. "Seven? Who wrote seven?!" and started laughing. So yeah that was the nail in the coffin and the excuse I needed to quit. My confidence was already at rock bottom and being publicly laughed at was... no, I'm not doing that.

So, back to job searching. I think I have an in at a couple other places so hopefully I won't be jobless for long, but until I get something, I'll try and start focusing on more commish work. I'm also open to streaming, if a commissioner wants to see their story writen out in real time for on the spot feedback and whatnot, or just to hang around and have a good time :)