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Hello! First Journal Since Forever: Where to Find Reg pos...
a year ago
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WHATS UP
I know I don't upload here every single time I make new art, but that's because I'm fucking stupid and my unmedicated scatterbrain is making me forget shit and get distracted. I'm still absolutely here checking in all the time, I'm just really bad at uploading to multiple places at once. I promise to get better with that eventually, especially since I have encouraging people around me
If you wanna find more regular posts, I'm on TWITTER under LeoPrickly AKA MarshyMoop
My Bluesky (which is something I'll upload more to especially when people are moving there since it's free to use for anyone now) is also leoprickly. My display name there is prickly marsh, but I may change it to MarshyMoop as well when i feel like it/remember.
I post WIPs there too sometimes. I don't post like...every day or anything but it's a hell of a lot more frequent than here
But I feel like FA is still great to stay in especially gallery-wise so I ain't goin anywhere.
NOW ON TO THE PART NO ONE CARES ABOUT BUT IM GONNA TYPE ANYWAY BECAUSE FUCK YOU IT'S M Y JOURNAL
Life update?
Too much shit happened between last year and this year and it caused me to mentally regress and kinda close myself off a bit more than I used to. I'm kinda done with people getting close with me and taking me like I'm some kind of fool and like I won't find shit out as if I never made it clear in the first place that I don't condone that shit with even my blood related family as is. Just because I don't say anything doesn't mean I don't know anything, I just don't like giving in to my anger issues more than I need to and people despite knowing this still think I stay oblivious and are surprised when they don't hear shit from me anymore. This has happened too many times to where one person still messages me once in a blue moon literally out of nowhere apologizing as if I'm gonna give any more of a shit in the future. Most hilarious shit ever, tbh. I'm an idiot, but not in the way these people seem to think for whatever reason and I don't coddle mfs who are abusive to people who don't deserve it just cuz they've went through shit in the past or still do. If we're gonna use that to get away with shit then maybe don't be a bitch when the energy you threw is returned. wompwomp
I also got fired from my last job last August a few days after my birthday (heheee) because the insecure dude bros running it were mad that I said I was gonna walk out the store bc they thought it was funny to run a restaurant without any running water due to a broken pipe that fucked the rest of the strip over and to leave me with just 2 other employees, (one of them being brand new) when they knew that since we were the only store open, there were hoards of people coming in nonstop. I was a manager, so this was on top of them overworking me, expecting me to give a fuck about the job while also not respecting me as a manager because they worked there longer despite them not knowing how to do their own job, hiring a registered sex offender in a space where they primarily hire children and not telling me but telling a male team member who ended up telling me anyway because he didn't think it was okay, et fucking c
All while knowing I deal with severe issues without meds.
I could go on and on about my last job especially when one of the people they displayed favoritism towards fuckin stole from them and fucked them over (I died laughing so fucking hard bro that's what they get) but I think I'd be here forever especially when I type too much as it is. All I know is, my ability to mask is deteriorating and it's up to the point where just looking at another human being within 5 feet of me warrants an urge to kick their knee caps in bc that's just what being put in extremely stressful work environments ends up doing to you after a while if you're not "normal" and tried too hard to be. I don't give up hope, though. I know there's something out there that I'll end up not minding too much
Things are gonna be a bit of a struggle for a while but at the very least I have a partner and a few close friends who have been supportive and made shit easier for us to digest. Think we can ALL agree that the past 2 years have been fucking atrocious, now we have another Genocide going on as well as other disgusting and freaky shit going on. All this technology and research that even an embryo could understand and we all somehow still choose to be fucking stupid, willfully ignorant, bigoted and despicable. 'Murica
Anyway yeah. TLDR: Like has been sucking and traumatizing but is slowly kind of getting better?
I know I don't upload here every single time I make new art, but that's because I'm fucking stupid and my unmedicated scatterbrain is making me forget shit and get distracted. I'm still absolutely here checking in all the time, I'm just really bad at uploading to multiple places at once. I promise to get better with that eventually, especially since I have encouraging people around me
If you wanna find more regular posts, I'm on TWITTER under LeoPrickly AKA MarshyMoop
My Bluesky (which is something I'll upload more to especially when people are moving there since it's free to use for anyone now) is also leoprickly. My display name there is prickly marsh, but I may change it to MarshyMoop as well when i feel like it/remember.
I post WIPs there too sometimes. I don't post like...every day or anything but it's a hell of a lot more frequent than here
But I feel like FA is still great to stay in especially gallery-wise so I ain't goin anywhere.
NOW ON TO THE PART NO ONE CARES ABOUT BUT IM GONNA TYPE ANYWAY BECAUSE FUCK YOU IT'S M Y JOURNAL
Life update?
Too much shit happened between last year and this year and it caused me to mentally regress and kinda close myself off a bit more than I used to. I'm kinda done with people getting close with me and taking me like I'm some kind of fool and like I won't find shit out as if I never made it clear in the first place that I don't condone that shit with even my blood related family as is. Just because I don't say anything doesn't mean I don't know anything, I just don't like giving in to my anger issues more than I need to and people despite knowing this still think I stay oblivious and are surprised when they don't hear shit from me anymore. This has happened too many times to where one person still messages me once in a blue moon literally out of nowhere apologizing as if I'm gonna give any more of a shit in the future. Most hilarious shit ever, tbh. I'm an idiot, but not in the way these people seem to think for whatever reason and I don't coddle mfs who are abusive to people who don't deserve it just cuz they've went through shit in the past or still do. If we're gonna use that to get away with shit then maybe don't be a bitch when the energy you threw is returned. wompwomp
I also got fired from my last job last August a few days after my birthday (heheee) because the insecure dude bros running it were mad that I said I was gonna walk out the store bc they thought it was funny to run a restaurant without any running water due to a broken pipe that fucked the rest of the strip over and to leave me with just 2 other employees, (one of them being brand new) when they knew that since we were the only store open, there were hoards of people coming in nonstop. I was a manager, so this was on top of them overworking me, expecting me to give a fuck about the job while also not respecting me as a manager because they worked there longer despite them not knowing how to do their own job, hiring a registered sex offender in a space where they primarily hire children and not telling me but telling a male team member who ended up telling me anyway because he didn't think it was okay, et fucking c
All while knowing I deal with severe issues without meds.
I could go on and on about my last job especially when one of the people they displayed favoritism towards fuckin stole from them and fucked them over (I died laughing so fucking hard bro that's what they get) but I think I'd be here forever especially when I type too much as it is. All I know is, my ability to mask is deteriorating and it's up to the point where just looking at another human being within 5 feet of me warrants an urge to kick their knee caps in bc that's just what being put in extremely stressful work environments ends up doing to you after a while if you're not "normal" and tried too hard to be. I don't give up hope, though. I know there's something out there that I'll end up not minding too much
Things are gonna be a bit of a struggle for a while but at the very least I have a partner and a few close friends who have been supportive and made shit easier for us to digest. Think we can ALL agree that the past 2 years have been fucking atrocious, now we have another Genocide going on as well as other disgusting and freaky shit going on. All this technology and research that even an embryo could understand and we all somehow still choose to be fucking stupid, willfully ignorant, bigoted and despicable. 'Murica
Anyway yeah. TLDR: Like has been sucking and traumatizing but is slowly kind of getting better?
