I'm quitting art posting for unforeseeable future. My freelancing is clashing with my internship, it's put so much unnecessary pressure on my shoulders and chest. I leave home to work, then return home to work more. I haven't had time or will to read my books or play my games, my life for 8 months now has been work. And I've hit my limit.

My art career hasn't been much fruitful, I'm struggling with jealousy. I can't bear to watch my works after looking at others; I get angry, disappointed, arrogant and stubborn - I feel like I owe it to myself to be better and better, for the sake of numbers and clients. It's not for the sake of creation something, I want to be a good artist who earns money... I haven't had the chance to be happy with life. I hit a mental boiling point on Friday and have spent this weekend basically dead inside. Wishing for it too.

I'm making the choice to focus on my life for now. My galleries will remain here while I go outside and live more. But I hope what I've created here has been enough. That I've made adequate work, that's as big of a validation I need.