If you woke up in a good mood or want to have a great day..... AVOID this journal cous am gonna spill all my toxic stuff down. You have been warned. Also ,wall of text so long read.

Tldr: Life sucks and i had a bad day.

Long rant time:

Eugh where to begin , i can't even. I need to tough cous writing it and spilling it out makes it better.

Perhaps am at that age i get grumpy and wine about every little thing. Those youngsters have no respect and discipline anymore....

Now i do understand i am a lucky guy and somewhat feel i don't have the right or shouldn't be bitching about things as many others in the world have it worse. First world problems right.

First things first, WHYYYYYY!! is my browser fucking up ?? Tuesday morning everything worked fine, i could surf to my usual sites and nothing was wrong. Later that day i boot back up, hu , wot?? I need to log back in everywhere and if i close the browser and start it back up i need to do it again!! What happend?? what changed?? Why?? Plus i logged in youtube with my old account it seemed so i tried my other one and can't becouse it probably is the same number or something so all my saved ones or my recommended ones are all gooone. WTF happend, how do i fix it??

The world news is sooo ungh utterly depressing, these wars, local stabbings, hard working people or old ones getting scammed and their savings stolen by criminals, young girls getting gang raped,.... I really feel the world has gone crazy and common sense left it a few years back. The only thing i can do is being sour and ride the tsunami wave. I really feel the world has gone crazy or am just stupid and don't know how to act. I don't think am depressed or suicidal or anything but i feel so drained and empty.

Work is bad atm, colleague left for a diff job so am doing most of the stuff all alone. They have been recruiting and stuff but man. I never knew it was this bad to find someone decent. One young guy, 19y old , just came from school ,was doing some other work but wanted to be an electrician. Applied and signed, worked ONE day. Never came back..... W..what , why?? It's not like it's the toughest and roughest work. Much more respect for the guys out there in every sort of weather and doing construction and stuff. One other had is drivers license revoked because he speeded too much AND has do to everything over plus doing psychological tests. One other was older and seemed to have a better or higher function but had like some medical issue due to a work accident and had worked 4y here 3y there so the change he would be active working and not home due to issues was also high.....They are also looking for a seller but alas also no luck. One made an appointment and didn't even show up. Shees , and am just doing what i can.

Still, life ain't bad for me atm, am relatively happy but booooy do i sometimes feel my blood pressure rise when i just am biking back and forth to work and see people ignore just decency following traffic rules.
I mean, yea in one way, if nothing is there you can cross the road or something but a red light is a damn RED light. How fricking hard is it to just wait for a few sec or half a min. Am talking about people on bikes, scooters and pedestrians , not in cars. I mean just in 2 days. I stop at a red light in a more quit part of the city, there where no cars but i wait becouse you know , red light. A guy on a scooter just runs thrue it. Next day, a scooter comes and stops next to me , looks at the spot , red light , just drives true it.... Eugh why aren't there any cops or some in like incognito near and fines these guys... So many more stuff like that. Like if people are working and set up like cones and signs to detour, some just ignore it and do whatever they like. Am like now, if something happens , it's your own damn fault and you should pay everything plus a frigging big ass fine.

Comming back to some sad news of young girl getting gang raped.... wtf man, what is going on?? Are males really getting this feral or desperate or going back the evolutionary ladder to cave men?? It's beyond me how people can do this. Some where also young ones so yea young and stupid with group pressure but man. Sad part is i never see or hear what these people are getting as punishment, it's just the news it happened but what after?? What do they get?? Sometimes i feel sex bots can't happen soon enough to roll out and be distributed so some men can relieve themselves on those then real women.

Local stuff, it's almost time to go out and vote again to pick some politicians that gonna try and run the country. I don't get or understand politics, i can understand you can't make everyone happy and try to make the best but fuck man it's so awe full. Again not the worst like i see sometimes of other countries but shit man. We get taxed like everyone else on the planet on everything we wonna buy and still we have holes in the pit of budgets and stuff. I don't get it, all these savings and stuff and yet it gets more expensive and the hole gets bigger. As always ,the politicians get like from what i read or understand, royal payments and benefits even when they aren't seated etc etc, yet working man almost can't pay for just food. For me am doing decently but fuck if i read i give more then half my pay to the government back am like why should i work then if they steal so much from me. Less i earn, less they can take away. I work and saved up, can't buy a house to own, cars and gas are expensive. Am alone and read things like family's with 2 kids are struggling to survive etc etc, it's insane. I also feel like a douche or bad person for bitching about this while i find myself having a rather decent life when others are struggling way way waaaaay worse then i do. I know some people around here and from the net that sorta survive on donations from strangers or other people. Good thing those still exist and little donations can help others so much.
I even know a lady thru my mother that's like pensioned and has to flexi job to earn a bit more then as her pension isn't enough. You worked your ass off and when you can quit it's not even enough to survive.
My grandparents died in a nursing home ( old age yet suffering a ton ) that also cost a lot but we managed but am worried about my own parent and how they would be able to live their old age and then my own. Plus i saw some vids of like old asian people still working at their little food shop and it's heartbreaking. If they still love what they do or enjoy doing it then that's great but if they have to do that to survive it's awe full.

I don't know who to vote for, to me it seems it doesn't matter who you vote for it keeps getting shittier. I mean i sorta understand you do need em to run the country and there are a ton of factors we need to take account for and stuff plus whats going on globally but man. I used to be able to go the bank like 2 streets away and go on foot. Now they all cut costs and centralised themselves so i have to bike to em AND i can't even withdraw money.... FROM THE BANK ITSELF , no monies, all digital , all numbers on a screen. Really i used to be able to go somewhere that had lots of people working there and you could just draw a nr and wait patiently and got help by a person to speak with and ask stuff. Now you need a pc or smartphone to go to a website ( if it works ) and have to make an appointment plus see what days they are open.... Digitalisation aint bad but if that fails your screwed as everything of your helpfull live is now linked to on line accounts and electronics. Plus old folks like my parents really struggle with they and even i am now having issues understanding stuff with it.

Owkay , i think i got it all out of my system... for now. Gotta try and find what the issues is with the browser and why i keep needing to log into everything plus try get my usual youtube account back up so i can see my saved vids that i need for blender and watch the usual people that posts vids.

Eugh, could use one of those sex bots now to cuddle and plant my face on some fun relaxing stress balls while she comforts me.