Life sucks sometimes.
a year ago
"Call Twilight Sparkle... shit's about to get magical!"
I know it's been a while, but there's been something I need to get off my chest.
As some of you may or may not know, I've had to spend the last 11 years of my life cooped up in a hotel. 11 fucking years.
I have spent the last 4 years doing everything in my power to get myself financially stable in the hopes of getting a home or at least an apartment for myself.
But, no matter how much I've tried, I can't get approved. Despite having over 10K in the bank saved up and a really good credit score, it's not enough. Rather, not GOOD enough given the time we live in now.
To say I'm frustrated would be an understatement. I've tried so hard and worked myself to the bone. I endured a fucking pandemic.
I worked for this.
I deserve this.
But, it's just not good enough. I feel like it's too late for me to keep trying anymore.
It's not fair...
As some of you may or may not know, I've had to spend the last 11 years of my life cooped up in a hotel. 11 fucking years.
I have spent the last 4 years doing everything in my power to get myself financially stable in the hopes of getting a home or at least an apartment for myself.
But, no matter how much I've tried, I can't get approved. Despite having over 10K in the bank saved up and a really good credit score, it's not enough. Rather, not GOOD enough given the time we live in now.
To say I'm frustrated would be an understatement. I've tried so hard and worked myself to the bone. I endured a fucking pandemic.
I worked for this.
I deserve this.
But, it's just not good enough. I feel like it's too late for me to keep trying anymore.
It's not fair...
And the only way I can do that is if I worked two jobs.
I'm sorry, but that's why I have trust issues with people.
Sometimes people will waive the "3x rent income" thing if you have someone who can give a large down payment and pay a lot of the rent ahead of time. If you had someone close who could reasonably do that, you could pay the rent back to them instead of your landlord until it was paid off, then go to paying the landlord. Though, I assume you probably don't have anyone you can lean on like that if you've been living how you are for so long.
I know you said you had bad experiences with roommates in the past. They can be super rough but sometimes you do find good people. It can be very draining to get to that point though of course.
Does where you live not have housing assistance or anything of the sort you can apply for?
I know you probably just wanted to rant, and don't want any unsolicited advise, so if you disregard everything I get it. I don't know your situation through and through and don't know what you have, or haven't tried, or what's realistic for you.
Either way, I hope things get better for you and I'm really sorry for how things have been.